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(2023-03-03 15:15)Elinox Wrote:  

(2023-02-28 17:06)Rixem Wrote:  Therapists & Psychologists aren't doctors though. They wouldn't be able to tell you if something is medically wrong.

Actually, as I've only recently learned in my own hunt for answers, therapists are not doctors so they cannot prescribe medications. However, psychologists/psychiatrists are doctors and therefore can prescribe stuff. Therapists, as far as I've found, are really just for listening to you talk about your problems. (Which is good, I'm not trying to knock it!) Whereas psychiatrists listen to you talk and can offer medical advice along with prescribing things if necessary.

I wasted a lot of time searching for a professional to talk to and not understanding that difference. I don't need someone to talk to, I need a medical professional who can prescribe stuff if needed.

Psychiatrists are medical doctors & can prescribe meds.

Psychologists have PhDs or PsyDs & are therefore technically "doctors", but not MDs. Some states allow them to prescribe medication, but most don't to my knowledge. It's not allowed where I am, but there have been bills proposed to legalize it.

Therapists/Counselors in most states are allowed to diagnose disorders, but not prescribe medication. That's how it is here.



Source: currently pursuing Masters in Counseling & LPC license (considering PsyD, but only after I win the lottery)

(2023-03-05 6:16)Rixem Wrote:  

(2023-03-03 15:15)Elinox Wrote:  

(2023-02-28 17:06)Rixem Wrote:  Therapists & Psychologists aren't doctors though. They wouldn't be able to tell you if something is medically wrong.

Actually, as I've only recently learned in my own hunt for answers, therapists are not doctors so they cannot prescribe medications. However, psychologists/psychiatrists are doctors and therefore can prescribe stuff. Therapists, as far as I've found, are really just for listening to you talk about your problems. (Which is good, I'm not trying to knock it!) Whereas psychiatrists listen to you talk and can offer medical advice along with prescribing things if necessary.

I wasted a lot of time searching for a professional to talk to and not understanding that difference. I don't need someone to talk to, I need a medical professional who can prescribe stuff if needed.

Psychiatrists are medical doctors & can prescribe meds.

Psychologists have PhDs or PsyDs & are therefore technically "doctors", but not MDs. Some states allow them to prescribe medication, but most don't to my knowledge. It's not allowed where I am, but there have been bills proposed to legalize it.

Therapists/Counselors in most states are allowed to diagnose disorders, but not prescribe medication. That's how it is here.

Source: currently pursuing Masters in Counseling & LPC license (considering PsyD, but only after I win the lottery)

Thanks for the clarification. I didn't even delve into psychiatrists vs. psychologists! I assumed psychologists were more into research than treating patients?

Either way, my new psychiatrist seems willing to help with my issues!

(2023-03-07 15:21)Elinox Wrote:  Thanks for the clarification. I didn't even delve into psychiatrists vs. psychologists! I assumed psychologists were more into research than treating patients?

Yeah that's pretty accurate

(2023-03-07 15:21)Elinox Wrote:  Either way, my new psychiatrist seems willing to help with my issues!

What did he/she say? Just curious

I was thinking about how "ghost" is defined in different cultures. It's hard to say I AM a ghost if we don't know if ghosts exist or literally anything about what ghosts are supposed to be like.


Here are Webster's definitions (and there's a lot more than I thought):

1. "the seat of life or intelligence : SOUL"
2. "a disembodied soul
especially : the soul of a dead person believed to be an inhabitant of the unseen world or to appear to the living in bodily likeness"
3. "SPIRIT, DEMON"
4. "a faint shadowy trace, the least bit"
5. "a false image in a photographic negative or on a television screen caused especially by reflection"
6. "one who ghostwrites"
7. "a red blood cell that has lost its hemoglobin"

If "ghost" means the same as "soul", then everybody's a ghost- some are ghosts currently inhabiting a body and some (possibly) are ghosts that are not currently inhabiting a body. OR maybe the one's in bodies are called souls & the ones without are called ghosts, but then it's just a lava/magma thing- they're the same.

Ghosts being demons would be different though. "I never had a physical body/ was never meant to have a physical body" is not the same "I used to have a physical body in a past life". I consider the latter to be more accurate for "ghost".

A lesser known idea of "ghost" is that they're not the soul itself but rather an energy left behind by the soul, which is why a ghost may be malevolent even if the person was peaceful in life. To the best of my knowledge, this belief is more common in Asian cultures. I personally think this shouldn't be called a ghost given that it's significantly different from the "soul"/"disembodied soul" thing

(2023-03-10 5:05)Rixem Wrote:  

(2023-03-07 15:21)Elinox Wrote:  Either way, my new psychiatrist seems willing to help with my issues!

What did he/she say? Just curious

Check out my most recent journal for the details as I don't want to hijack yours.

I feel kinda weird. I have everything I could ever want, I have more than I've ever had, but it's still weird. Some of it might be because I've been off my meds for a while, idk.

I always feel like life is pointless & I cant compete for attention. I hate being an average "normal" person while there's all these famous idiots on TV. Nothing I do is ever going to affect more than a handful of people. I'm not a "save the world" kind of person; I'd be fine being famous for just doing something unimportant. But also I don't care about being remembered after I'm dead; I don't care what people do when I'm dead, I won't be around so who cares.

On another note, I attended some of the events at Shining Hearth & being around people who consider themselves fairies/fae/elves made me think a thought; Just because I'm not anything else doesn't mean I'm otherkin. I don't really have any "connection" to anything & I don't have memories or shifts or whatever. I don't fit with any human groups & I always feel out of place around humans, but I don't fit with non-humans either. So I don't know what to do.

I hate that I can't stick with anything. I always mess around with something & then move on. So I never get good at anything. I never have anything associated with me.

To be fair, none of us matter in the grand scheme of the universe. Most humans just seem to think they do. *snerk*

The best we can do then, as individuals on this spinning rock, is to enjoy what we have. And if not, then try to make yourself/your life better so you can enjoy it. Sometimes even focusing on the little things can help.

If you enjoy plants, try gardening. Just seeing your work come to fruition can make you feel good.

Or finish that book/TV series you've been meaning to. Then, document how it made you feel so when you're having an off moment or day, you can go back and remember how it made you feel.

Just because you don't experience shifts doesn't mean you're not otherkin. Some therians don't experience any type of shift and are called contherians ("without" shifting). I assume the same holds true for otherkin: even if you don't shift or have past life memories, but you still feel "off" or "other" from humans means you can be otherkin.

How were the Shining Hearth presentations?

(2023-04-05 16:28)Elinox Wrote:  How were the Shining Hearth presentations?

I didn't see every single one; I just moved, so I had a lot of work to do. Some were kind of out-there, stuff I 100% don't believe for a second, but still entertaining at least. Definitely interested in attending similar events in the future.

(2023-02-21 22:32)Rixem Wrote:  Things that may be symptoms of being ghostkin (but realistically more likely depression or something):
* not feeling real
* questioning if everything else is real
* wishing to be dead/ plotting your own death
* alone (not the same as lonely)
* not fitting in a physical body
* not wanting to be seen in a physical sense
* having no name
* sense of wanting to go home/ sense of not having a home to go back to
* talking feels unnatural
* constant feeling of forgetting something but not knowing what

More:
* zoning out, but not specifically daydreaming
* feeling like your relatives are not your real family
* a constant feeling or running out of time, or that something is over or coming to an end
* thinking "it doesn't matter since I'll eventually be dead" whenever something undesirable happens
* sleeping a lot, enjoying not being awake
* dreams feel real & the waking world feels fake
* an acceptance of death in general as part of the natural cycle of things
* hoping to disappear or turn to dust rather than go to heaven or reincarnate
* an understanding that life is fundamentally pointless and all living things are fundamentally insignificant

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(2023-02-22 3:13)Rixem Wrote:  Ghostly things:
* Ouija boards (even if you don't know how to use one or dont believe in contacting ghosts) 
* Vintage things/ things whos original owners are now deceased (bonus points if it's an antique animal cage or animal harness- double dead things)
* Dead Oddities- Taxidermy, bones, pelts, preserved bugs, abandoned honeycombs, dried flowers
* Opalite; By far the most ghostly looking gemstone
* Cemeteries/graves
* Abandoned old towns (bonus points if it has an abandoned funeral home)
* Broken things
* Kitschy toony sheet ghosts
* Movies where the ghosts aren't inherently "bad"- Corpse Bride, anything in the Casper franchise, 6th sense, Coco, etc.
* This Youtube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/c/AskAMortician/videos
* Sleeping
* Gray rainy days when you can stay home in bed
* Quiet clear nights where you can see the moon & stars & hear leaves rustling gently in the breeze 
* Broken down cars and old structures covered in ivy & moss & rust
* Candles 
* Haunted houses (real ones or the fun entertainment ones)
* Blankets, sheets, scarves, flowy curtains  
* laying silent & motionless on the floor in the dark with your eyes open
* Marigolds, white lilies, red white or black roses, ghostpipe, mushrooms, poisonous plants 
* Psychopomps & Gods of death- Hades, Cheron, Anubis/Anpu, Azreal, Shinigami, reapers, etc. 
* Fog
* Church bells, Tibetan singing bowls, large wind chimes, gongs, sounds with lots of resonance 

* dreaming
* odd trinkets pinked up from the ground- old bottle caps, coins, buttons, rocks, feathers
* weeping willows, wisteria, english ivy, bleeding amaranth
* carnivorous plants
* sheer fabric
* old black & white photographs of strangers whom are now almost certainly deceased
* moths
* cursive in black liquid ink on old tan paper
* Halloween night after all the trick or treaters have gone to bed & the streets are silent and dark except for a single yellow light flickering at the end of the streat
* floating in a blue-green lit pool at night & looking up at the stars
* when the wind blows some dead leaves around in a circle in the fall

Evidence i am NOT ghostkin:
* no past life memories 
* never felt the need to walk through walls or fly (even though theres 0 evidence ghosts do that)
* not into light color clothes & flowy skirts as some people claim is ghostly (im more "amorphous blob" than "flowy")
* Im iffy on of ghosts or reincarnation even exist. I dont believe in EVP or any of these ghost detecting technologies at all. (Doesn't mean ghosts or reincarnation dont exist thought)