I'd really like to end up having worried for no reason.
What's happening is that I've been flooded with information whose intent is either to cause, or alleviate alarm that was caused by the same outlets. For about three or four days here, it's been pretty much impossible not to hear something else about the reactors in various stages of decay, if the television or the radio is running. The other night, it seemed that I was flipping stations trying to find something non-alarming (at least one television is normally on when my parents are here, not by my inclination), and I must have gone past seven different newscasts from varying countries, all focused on the reactors or the recovery effort; or people here being alarmed about the reactors (because of all the press on the reactors).
The latter had to do with people being scared enough to go out and buy up potassium iodide tablets -- which means that I'm not the only one alarmed. The problem in my situation is not so much that I have an overt tendency to paranoia, though I have dealt with that; but that I have a low anxiety threshold. Much of the things that I've been concerned about in the past have been actually sourced from data, given which, my concern was understandable. This is even when I've thought I've been just out-and-out paranoid.
And I probably wouldn't be as unsettled as I have been, had I not had a bunch of parapsychological things happen right around this time period. I'm not known for being able to predict the future, for which I'm grateful. It's just that so many strange things have happened, and world events one after another, along with synchronicities and hidden meanings and well-timed fuckups in my personal life (like my medication having given me fairly disturbing side effects since about January, and my realizing this coinciding with the beginnings of an episode; meaning that if I go down on my medications [which I'm beginning to do, and can see the effects already] I risk being thrown back into what secular psychiatry deems "psychosis", and which I see as possibly initiatory illness that I need to gain control over -- whether either or both of those is true or not)...It makes me think something is going on, that I don't know about.
And I think that it's possible that some of my experience in Satanist groups has gotten me to think that really far-gone possibilities can be still likely depending on what timestream one directs oneself down...it's a bit crazymaking. It's not that you fundamentally alter the world, it's that you move yourself into a timestream where something specific happened, or didn't happen. I don't know if you -- or magic users here -- would have advice on whether that's valid or not, or if I should just put it out of my mind.
There's also the possibility of another large earthquake or series of earthquakes, in the Ring of Fire (which I happen to live in), which raises alarm about our own nuclear facilities, should our faults rupture. Though if that happens and the plants here fail, I'm pretty much screwed, no matter what.
Beyond that...there just seems to be a mass confrontation with death going on at this time, and maybe I'm involved because I allowed myself to contemplate and empathize too much. Whereas what I should have been doing was, maybe -- keeping my mental boundaries up and ignoring it? Even though I felt that it was expected of me to empathize, because of my connections. Or that, you know, it's honorable to be in pain out of empathy.
Estelore Wrote:This isn't Chernobyl.
The other night, Michio Kaku was on...some station which I happened to walk in on, and he said that this could become another Chernobyl, in a worst-case scenario -- but there had to be several errors all made in sequence for that to happen. Of course, checking Wikipedia, he's also a String Theorist, which means that he's probably on the fringe as it is. I thought he was local because of regular appearances on a certain science show only shown on public television, but it seems not.
There's also the fact that the Japanese government is playing this down...whereas being somewhat connected to that culture, I know that, for example, if you have stage 4 cancer and are terminal, the doctors will not tell you that you're going to die. They seem to think it's better that you not know. And there is a concept which, in my grandmother's time, they called "saving face." Not admitting to or acknowledging a mistake or fault, because of shame. It happened in World War II.
I'm not sure I have to go further into that. Point is that I'm not really trusting the information coming out of Japan right now as being full disclosure, or the information on US news (which I've tried to stop listening to, unless I can see that it's trying to remediate past damage done by alarmist stories).
But thank you for your efforts. I try to work through distressing things as they come up. *sighs* Just maybe I should wait so I don't say silly things online...they usually burn out after a while. But I do appreciate your caring enough to reply. Even though maybe I'm being annoying. If so, sorry. >_<
Estelore Wrote:For the resin beetle having problems... something a friend of mine uses, that has worked for me:
get a bit of sand, put it in a tray or bowl, deep enough to cover the object. Place the whole setup under sunlight. The item gets the warmth benefit without having light inflict charge-removal on it. This seems in my experience to be a pretty solid approach for anything that was formerly-biological or bears semblance to something formerly-biological (amber, coal, petrified wood, chalks, coral, hard sponge, any fossil or resin-encased critter).
Salt works, too, but it doesn't feel as... gentle. <!-- s
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Hmm. Do you know why it works?
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