need alittle help.

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Hey guys I have seen myself as a dragon numerous times in my soul-searching and when I just meditate in general since I was 17. It keeps coming back and I been evaluating and questioning and I originally thought I was not a dragon but though they were cool and that my mind was reacting to oh that’s cool why not be this. But that’s not right and it wouldn't keep returning to me.

I need to know if there is anything else I could do?
I want to exhaust every option before saying that I am a dragon kin better to not have any doubts left.

First, please watch your spelling and grammar, thanks.

Secondly, can you explain any of these dragon experiences as being human instead? Like a craving for rare meat doesn't always equal a werewolf. <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- s -->

If so, other than meditation with repeated results, have you researched into a specific type of dragon you think you might be?

I'm sorry forgotten to use spell check.

I have felt phantom wings tail has felt like it was longer and kind of scaly I have seen myself in visions as a black dragon with green markings and bright blue eyes.
I don't know if it means anything but I am described as a bright underachiever at times and have a tendency to hoard certain things mainly games. I felt urges to fly and have always felt very old in spirit... I have at times felt like a powerful part of nature but at the same time I have moments of feeling like I'm not much at all...
I doubt it has much meaning but I like hot humid environments.
I don’t know if any of it aside from the visions can even be attributed to draconity or not.

It's hard to tell with these things.
I've had both phantom wings and a phantom tail (the former feels induced and the latter feels spontaneous), and I've wanted to fly ever since I learned how to crawl. But I'm not otherkin.

Here's something to think about: liking something does not always mean affinity, which you probably know. You should look inward and see if the dragon goes beyond something you merely like. I remember meditating and getting images of myself as a wolf back when I thought I was a wolf therian, but I know as a definite fact I'm not a wolf therian. The reason why I got the images that I did was because I just wanted to be a wolf at the time. Same goes for when I thought I was an angel.

The mind is a very pliable thing...

I guess, for me, time revealed the truth. It felt like I had to "maintain" being otherkin rather than it being a thing that just was. I can't really give you much advice about what to do next, except to keep an honest heart. Just take it with a grain of salt, as always.

I found vampirism first at 8 and awakened at age 10 as a sanguine and I thought I might of been a lion but that was more or less wishful thinking on my part I did turn out to be a wolf. The dragon thing started 10 years ago at 17 and no matter how many times I've said I'm not a dragon it keeps coming back so I've been soul-searching more and questioning but hadn't thought of looking past it and seeing if there is something behind it.

to be honest I didn't think anyone could be a dragon or a demon but accepted peoples belief now I just feel confused by my own feelings I remember the same feeling about my vampirism when I awakened but I feel it's important to take a grain of salt and explore anything like this as fully as possible.

Thank you Anetiel what you said should prove very helpful.

I been finding entries on otherkin.net and some other sites questioning what I find and seeing what resonates and some of it does and some of it doesn't. I've ran across more roleplaying groups then I thought actually existed and yet I feel something driving me. I have been making more progress looking for information and asking for help then I have ever done alone.

Otherkin.net has been pretty defunct...and is full if RPers now. Asking for help almost always works. When in doubt, recruit people to throw ideas and resources at you...and share your frustrations <!-- s:lol: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_lol.gif" alt=":lol:" title="Laughing" /><!-- s:lol: -->

I'm frustrated at the heavy Roleplaying on sites that aren't supposed to be roleplaying it makes it a pain in the rear-end to get any real information. I do find a few good gems but mostly it's crap on a crap cracker...

On another note does anyone have any essays or sites to go to for any information?

There are some on our main site and some in the Articles section of the forum. What's going to be helpful, though, is hard to say. You'd have to poke aroud and see if anything works.

Ah thats exactly what I had In mind. Oh glorious reading oh powerful knowledge <!-- s:ugeek: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_ugeek.gif" alt=":ugeek:" title="Uber Geek" /><!-- s:ugeek: --> .