I´M THE MIGHTY CREATO.... <_< nobody cares dude.
I´m 22 years old, incarnated in a human body and perceiving the world throught it. I was born into a family of deaf father, half-deaf mother and a mental retarded brother (illness). It is a wonderfull family wich cares for each other and i´m happy for being born into it. I´m living in a classical family house... well a bit rundown and I´m from Europe. I love Japan culture, listening to music, to draw pictures even if I didn´t have time for it for a couple of years -_-, practicing magic with all my might, i enjoy going to cinema, i like to play pc games and time to time a read a good book.
Up to the age of 12 years, where I experienced a complete mental breakdown, wich is not formally considered as a mental illness or atleast it wasn´t when I last checked, I was able to hear, feel, see and talk with "things". Of course in the age of 6 I realized that only I could see, feel, hear and talk with them, wich of course resulted in isolation. I won´t mention all the strange and typical things that happens to the person that differs from the mainstream too much, such typical thing as Bullying, wich was actually funny in one thing and that was that I was still buddy with everyone, also later when I asked one of my current best friend why he and others did it, all he could say was: "I don´t know all of us just thought your reaction was funny, strange and different, it wasn´t because we wouldnt like you or that you would be an idiot, you were ok and now that I know you better I don´t know why I could think that you were a moron and such things I´m glad that I could find out that you are a true friend...... I just really don´t know..... we just did it as if it was natural" and it wasnt just in school but in every other group at that time.
All changed with high school no bullying, everything was cool and I found actually another best friend there, who actually introduced me to otherkin in the age of 16. At that time I actually started to go back to my roots wich wanished at 12 and started to re-awaken to my normal senses. I must say that the first few years in otherkin community and the work with my "insides" helped me to stabilize myself and helped me to find my "path". At 18 I vanished from otherkin community, because I thought that it couldn´t help me anymore with my growth.
After I stoped playing with energy manipulation, scans, phantom limbs, meditation, entities, memories and lots of other practices.
I started with the so-called "magic".
My first direct experiences with magic, occult, mystic, etc. was when my best friend, who introduced me to otherkin, had an idea to visit one witchcraft store for a tarot reading, to find out if the witch is capable of something, or if she is full of bulls***t. Well it was a quite shocking, at that time, when she answered all the questions correctly and "exactly" said what he is as an otherkin. After some time I went to a magic/spiritual workshop for a week. There I experienced for the first time what a ritual was all about, my view expanded and I found there is still a more work before me. Of course I met the witch there, joined a group and started to practise, practise, practise. Now I´m practising my own personal lineage-> my root magic -> my own system,i also work with many other systems, namely voodoo system, Rökkr system preferably Loki, Helja, Fenrir,Jormungandr,then I work with Khali. I was introduce to Kurukulla by a lama wich also explained all the lower and higher teaching, I also received the highest initiation to a certain system, I know how the "magic" scene works in general, I met some famouse people . Also I´m planing to further my practise with egyptian "magic" and shamanistic work and of course digging more and more out of myself. As a side note I´m practising magic wich means that I´m working with it and developing it further
So thats in a short my history. Now back to otherkinism:
When I look back to the time I started with otherkinism. I must say that my view point was quite idiotic, but it was a necesary part for my growth.
Back then I thought the thing I need to find out is who am I ? why I´m like this ? what can I do about it ? can I find the TRUTH ? will I remember everything ? will the horror end ? I´m crazy or not ? will I find my loved ones ? especially my lover, with wich I have a very strong bond, wich gives me so much pleasure and so much pain too, and so on.
But now I know that those questions are meaningless and that I was just trying to swim without knowing how to, so I tried to catch anything that could prevent me from drowning inside my own chaos and confusion.
Back there I always tried to fit in a kintype, not in a sence as I´m now an angel so I should behave as one, but as I´m must belong somewhere, that i have history somewhere, yet the answer to this wasn´t me finding out oh I´m an angel so I should go look into heaven if I don´t have someone there, I should try to communicate with them and so on, but was simply to find my own current self, afterall I lived a "input kintype" but I´m not a "input kintype", me doesn´t equal kintype.
So I understand why I never could find my answer in any kintype that I found in my history, because I never was looking directly into the matter of the question but only on the surface. But it was an essential phase in my life, it was my necessary baby steps that I needed to do before I could walk.
For those who wish to know what history(kintype) I lived, I will write down a small list wich isn´t everything that I experienced or found out also It´s not sorted in a chronological way:
the first that I will list was, dragon creature with classical humanoid avatar form, more preciselly the humanoid design was derived from certain humanoid titans, wich doesn´t mean that every titan had strictly humanoid concept of a body, afterall in the time where titans where still moving freely there where lots of shapes of them all corresponding to their own essence that was moving them.
next someone in desert like, sultan like era I was an adventurer, treasure hunter, knowledge hunter, gimmicks thinker, wasn´t so rich or anything special but enjoyed my life to the fullest.
the life as a male wandering priest or hermit if you wish on a world where moon and woman was the bigest symbol of importance, the majority of populance was were-cats, simply humanoid cats with lots of variations of fur, heights, claws, tails, ears and even the count of breasts, there was also small population of elven, majority of them was white and very very small population (it was quite normal to count them with your two hands) of silvery dark toned ones, they were all one tribe but the silvery dark toned were the ones wich where blessed by the moon godess and were regarded as great shamanic priest of her, some water tribe where there but i dont have much knowledge of them and there where also some individuals namely something similar to a fox spirit here on earth and then something as three traveling brothers wich i don´t have recollection of how they looked, also all those individuals didnt looked native to the world. Wasn´t such a good life at the begining but at the end turned out splendidly. the era wasn´t technicaly advanced there where lot of mechanisms but the larger wich could be ekvivalent to a machine was purely of magical character and only for temple purpose of the cat race, oh and as a side note elven and cat race could have babies but it was strictly forbiden only with the allowance of high priestess for the cat race and only the silver dark toned elven had the priviledge for such an act because of some broblems with such babies this indicate that they all come from one family tree but shrug.
then there was the life of a night creature for a lack of a better word, wich lived in a realm of eternal night only with luminiscent light, with only "magical"/"force" protection, power. This world was created and it was a center for the "creatures of the night". Technologicaly and spiritualy advanced thought this technology had another base, therefore looked differently, then the technology we have. I remember the name of that place, well the name in one of the many "languages" that were used there and that was Solist at Ana Meon with s shortcut Solmrameon. It was a relaxed loooooong life until it all vaporized, torn to piece by strong external forces from existence.
Now why I´m here ? I wish to help others with their growth.
Well thats all ^^.
History is just a work of those who won and was made possible by those who closed their eyes. Even the history of GODS is fulll of politics and only ignorance and naivity lets us play ourselfs in the hands of the usurpator(´s).