introduction

I´M THE MIGHTY CREATO.... <_< nobody cares dude.

I´m 22 years old, incarnated in a human body and perceiving the world throught it. I was born into a family of deaf father, half-deaf mother and a mental retarded brother (illness). It is a wonderfull family wich cares for each other and i´m happy for being born into it. I´m living in a classical family house... well a bit rundown and I´m from Europe. I love Japan culture, listening to music, to draw pictures even if I didn´t have time for it for a couple of years -_-, practicing magic with all my might, i enjoy going to cinema, i like to play pc games and time to time a read a good book.

Up to the age of 12 years, where I experienced a complete mental breakdown, wich is not formally considered as a mental illness or atleast it wasn´t when I last checked, I was able to hear, feel, see and talk with "things". Of course in the age of 6 I realized that only I could see, feel, hear and talk with them, wich of course resulted in isolation. I won´t mention all the strange and typical things that happens to the person that differs from the mainstream too much, such typical thing as Bullying, wich was actually funny in one thing and that was that I was still buddy with everyone, also later when I asked one of my current best friend why he and others did it, all he could say was: "I don´t know all of us just thought your reaction was funny, strange and different, it wasn´t because we wouldnt like you or that you would be an idiot, you were ok and now that I know you better I don´t know why I could think that you were a moron and such things I´m glad that I could find out that you are a true friend...... I just really don´t know..... we just did it as if it was natural" and it wasnt just in school but in every other group at that time.

All changed with high school no bullying, everything was cool and I found actually another best friend there, who actually introduced me to otherkin in the age of 16. At that time I actually started to go back to my roots wich wanished at 12 and started to re-awaken to my normal senses. I must say that the first few years in otherkin community and the work with my "insides" helped me to stabilize myself and helped me to find my "path". At 18 I vanished from otherkin community, because I thought that it couldn´t help me anymore with my growth.

After I stoped playing with energy manipulation, scans, phantom limbs, meditation, entities, memories and lots of other practices.
I started with the so-called "magic".
My first direct experiences with magic, occult, mystic, etc. was when my best friend, who introduced me to otherkin, had an idea to visit one witchcraft store for a tarot reading, to find out if the witch is capable of something, or if she is full of bulls***t. Well it was a quite shocking, at that time, when she answered all the questions correctly and "exactly" said what he is as an otherkin. After some time I went to a magic/spiritual workshop for a week. There I experienced for the first time what a ritual was all about, my view expanded and I found there is still a more work before me. Of course I met the witch there, joined a group and started to practise, practise, practise. Now I´m practising my own personal lineage-> my root magic -> my own system,i also work with many other systems, namely voodoo system, Rökkr system preferably Loki, Helja, Fenrir,Jormungandr,then I work with Khali. I was introduce to Kurukulla by a lama wich also explained all the lower and higher teaching, I also received the highest initiation to a certain system, I know how the "magic" scene works in general, I met some famouse people . Also I´m planing to further my practise with egyptian "magic" and shamanistic work and of course digging more and more out of myself. As a side note I´m practising magic wich means that I´m working with it and developing it further

So thats in a short my history. Now back to otherkinism:

When I look back to the time I started with otherkinism. I must say that my view point was quite idiotic, but it was a necesary part for my growth.
Back then I thought the thing I need to find out is who am I ? why I´m like this ? what can I do about it ? can I find the TRUTH ? will I remember everything ? will the horror end ? I´m crazy or not ? will I find my loved ones ? especially my lover, with wich I have a very strong bond, wich gives me so much pleasure and so much pain too, and so on.
But now I know that those questions are meaningless and that I was just trying to swim without knowing how to, so I tried to catch anything that could prevent me from drowning inside my own chaos and confusion.
Back there I always tried to fit in a kintype, not in a sence as I´m now an angel so I should behave as one, but as I´m must belong somewhere, that i have history somewhere, yet the answer to this wasn´t me finding out oh I´m an angel so I should go look into heaven if I don´t have someone there, I should try to communicate with them and so on, but was simply to find my own current self, afterall I lived a "input kintype" but I´m not a "input kintype", me doesn´t equal kintype.
So I understand why I never could find my answer in any kintype that I found in my history, because I never was looking directly into the matter of the question but only on the surface. But it was an essential phase in my life, it was my necessary baby steps that I needed to do before I could walk.
For those who wish to know what history(kintype) I lived, I will write down a small list wich isn´t everything that I experienced or found out also It´s not sorted in a chronological way:

the first that I will list was, dragon creature with classical humanoid avatar form, more preciselly the humanoid design was derived from certain humanoid titans, wich doesn´t mean that every titan had strictly humanoid concept of a body, afterall in the time where titans where still moving freely there where lots of shapes of them all corresponding to their own essence that was moving them.

next someone in desert like, sultan like era I was an adventurer, treasure hunter, knowledge hunter, gimmicks thinker, wasn´t so rich or anything special but enjoyed my life to the fullest.

the life as a male wandering priest or hermit if you wish on a world where moon and woman was the bigest symbol of importance, the majority of populance was were-cats, simply humanoid cats with lots of variations of fur, heights, claws, tails, ears and even the count of breasts, there was also small population of elven, majority of them was white and very very small population (it was quite normal to count them with your two hands) of silvery dark toned ones, they were all one tribe but the silvery dark toned were the ones wich where blessed by the moon godess and were regarded as great shamanic priest of her, some water tribe where there but i dont have much knowledge of them and there where also some individuals namely something similar to a fox spirit here on earth and then something as three traveling brothers wich i don´t have recollection of how they looked, also all those individuals didnt looked native to the world. Wasn´t such a good life at the begining but at the end turned out splendidly. the era wasn´t technicaly advanced there where lot of mechanisms but the larger wich could be ekvivalent to a machine was purely of magical character and only for temple purpose of the cat race, oh and as a side note elven and cat race could have babies but it was strictly forbiden only with the allowance of high priestess for the cat race and only the silver dark toned elven had the priviledge for such an act because of some broblems with such babies this indicate that they all come from one family tree but shrug.

then there was the life of a night creature for a lack of a better word, wich lived in a realm of eternal night only with luminiscent light, with only "magical"/"force" protection, power. This world was created and it was a center for the "creatures of the night". Technologicaly and spiritualy advanced thought this technology had another base, therefore looked differently, then the technology we have. I remember the name of that place, well the name in one of the many "languages" that were used there and that was Solist at Ana Meon with s shortcut Solmrameon. It was a relaxed loooooong life until it all vaporized, torn to piece by strong external forces from existence.

Now why I´m here ? I wish to help others with their growth.

Well thats all ^^.

Welcome to OKP!

Please try to watch your spelling and grammar. We have many non-native English speakers so making understandable posts is important here, thanks.

Maha Khatzu Wrote:Now why I´m here ? I wish to help others with their growth.

While we appreciate others view points and encourage discussion, trying to "teach" others and sway them to your way of thinking isn't something we strive for. Everyone is entitled to their own beliefs. So educating others on how you do things is cool, but pushing to get them to join your group is not.

Thank you for your welcome.
Well english is not my native language so forgive me for the mistakes, though i did a check it throught a translator. But doing it half asleep, wasn´t the best idea.

^^ I understand your concern of "sway them to your way of thinking" but that can hardly be called "help others with their growth" and wasn´t even what I meant by it.

To clarify myself it simply means to give support to others.

Edit: I will check the text for futher mistakes, when I arrive at my work and edit it to a more appropriate form for readers

Hallo; what IS your native language? I study several languages other than English, and we may have some common knowledge, enough to help you keep your posts understandable.

Your uses of w and v interchangeably suggest a Germanic or Slavic language, and your grammar doesn't appear to resemble any Latinate-Romanze language.

I like you, glad you're here.

Maha Khatzu Wrote:I remember the name of that place, well the name in one of the many "languages" that were used there and that was Solist at Ana Meon with s shortcut Solmrameon.

Do you remember what "Solist at Ana Meon"/"Somrameon" means/translates to?

Archer Wrote:I like you, glad you're here.

such a lovable energy I almoust wanted to shout "i love you" XD.
Thank you for such a nice welcoming

Archer Wrote:

Maha Khatzu Wrote:I remember the name of that place, well the name in one of the many "languages" that were used there and that was Solist at Ana Meon with s shortcut Solmrameon.

Do you remember what "Solist at Ana Meon"/"Solmrameon" means/translates to?

Of course ^^ and i suppose you wish to know the meaning it means so listen closely: "In the patronage of our goddess of night we erect this Monolith" in it we built our "City of Night" (Solmrameon)

"goddess" = the mother night, which does not enslave the essence of the spirit of night, nor controls it but it is its patron and so the essence growth in her presens and is joyful
"City of night" -> doesnt mean we build our houses next to each other and live with a town as we see here but as a realm in wich we created our "home" where we enjoy our time.

I hope it answered your question ^^.

Estelore Wrote:Hallo; what IS your native language? I study several languages other than English, and we may have some common knowledge, enough to help you keep your posts understandable.

Your uses of w and v interchangeably suggest a Germanic or Slavic language, and your grammar doesn't appear to resemble any Latinate-Romanze language.

Hi hi,
My native language is Czech and as you suggest it origins from Slavic language. Well thank you for your offer <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> if you have any remarks to my introduction post i welcome them with open arms.

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Yo and welcome.

I'm a Nordic heathen of the "research the fuck out of everything" variety.
As such there's a knee-jerk reaction to this "voodoo system,Rökkr preferably Loki, Helja, Fenrir,Jormungandr".
Rökkr means dusk or darkness but as a "belief" system it's a purely modern invention. Norse heathenry is inherently both dark and light in every aspect. It doesn't divide into "dark and light" as factions, All of it is both dark and light. There's no god that's inherently "dark" nor any god that's inherently "light". Even when it comes to Ragnarök it's not a matter of dark v.s. light as the analogy often is in other pantheons, it's two gray sides doing battle because that's what their purpose is.
Rökkr, the modernly invented belief system, has absolutely nothing to do with voodoo. Voodoo comes from vodun, which is a west African religion. Complex and deep. Norse heathenry is not a sub-category of this at all but a separate, complex, complete, and deep religion of it's own.
Then there's the twitch in the back of my mind regarding the names themselves.
Traditionally, none of those names were worshiped as gods. In fact, calling Loki and Hel gods is also an entirely modern invention.
Also, a lot of the modern invention of Loki worship is fabricated and romanticized. Loki was not some misunderstood outcast, he was Odin's blood brother and confidant, he out-ranked (culturally) many of the other denizens of Ásgarður and was often called on for help.
He, however, was a bit of a sociopath in a sense. Most of his conquests as well as the negative things he did were "jokes", things he did for a laugh (this is clear when one reads the old sagas and legends) without any care to consider the consequences. Just go and read the death of Baldr in it's original form. It's all a game to him.

There's more I'd comment on/ask about but I really haven't the time these days... maybe after surgery we'll have a chat about Kali..

Miniar Wrote:Yo and welcome.

Yo, wasn´t your old nick Freetha ?

Miniar Wrote:I'm a Nordic heathen of the "research the fuck out of everything" variety.

Yeah, if you are Freetha then you must be of that variety XD, wich means that you read more books about it than me XD.

Miniar Wrote:As such there's a knee-jerk reaction to this "voodoo system,Rökkr preferably Loki, Helja, Fenrir,Jormungandr".

It´s quite understandable with all the masses of information around us.

I had an experience in the voodoo, which would explain it quite well. We(me and the group in which I practice voodoo) work with the Voodoo Gnostic Workbook by Michael Bertiaux.
And well the initiation rituals are pretty good, because you don´t feel Bertiaux in them, but the other things he described in the book needs to be filltered from his „touch“ , this doesn´t mean he wrote garbage, but that you need to be on his level of thought to see what he meant by it/what he saw when he wrote it, which then opens the whole think for you and not just his shortened version, which on the first look really seems like a text full of garbage.

And that´s the same thing when you read so much „garbage“ on the net, because you see the system butchered by the thought of others and their narrow sight of how things should be. Which then of course give you this knee-jerk reaction. Which then sometimes turns into auto knee-jerk reaction, like when I hear cabala or reiki or new age.

Miniar Wrote:Rökkr means dusk or darkness but as a "belief" system it's a purely modern invention. Norse heathenry is inherently both dark and light in every aspect. It doesn't divide into "dark and light" as factions, All of it is both dark and light. There's no god that's inherently "dark" nor any god that's inherently "light". Even when it comes to Ragnarök it's not a matter of dark v.s. light as the analogy often is in other pantheons, it's two gray sides doing battle because that's what their purpose is.

I agree with you on all levels,
For me and how I was introduced to Rökkr. Rökkr isn´t a religion or belief system but simply working with the darker aspect of mother nature or how my friend(the one who introduced me to Rökkr) says „Currently my practice focuses primarily on rune magic in the context Rökkr tradition (stream within old-Norse Mythology)“, which just means that from the system she work mostly with this content.

to say it bluntly im not a person who doesn´t like to play in „dirt, climb on tree, dance in rain or swim in mud“, I´m not someone who distance himself from all the socalled „Evil and demons“ and im not certainly someone who says that those aspects of nature should be eradicated cause it turns you from the light !!! I can´t simply imagine to play just with the masculine energy when i know that the femine energy is such a lovable place to be in and is certainly not more evil or better then the masculine.

Ragnarök is more of a needed transformation then the classical christian version of the end of the world.

Well I never was a fan of the dualistic viewpoint so there is no need to worry .

Miniar Wrote:Rökkr, the modernly invented belief system, has absolutely nothing to do with voodoo. Voodoo comes from vodun, which is a west African religion. Complex and deep. Norse heathenry is not a sub-category of this at all but a separate, complex, complete, and deep religion of it's own.

Indeed, What I stated above whas what I work with, it wasn´t meant that it´s one and the same thing or that it´s from one system. I´m sorry that I made you think so. Which also made me to rewrote it to a better undertandable form or thats atleast what I think.

Miniar Wrote:Then there's the twitch in the back of my mind regarding the names themselves.
Traditionally, none of those names were worshiped as gods. In fact, calling Loki and Hel gods is also an entirely modern invention.
Also, a lot of the modern invention of Loki worship is fabricated and romanticized. Loki was not some misunderstood outcast, he was Odin's blood brother and confidant, he out-ranked (culturally) many of the other denizens of Ásgarður and was often called on for help.

Don´t worry, my friend, who invited me to Rökkr, is something like a version of "Miniar the archive of writen knoweledge“ <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" title="Very Happy" /><!-- s -->.

I´m bit sorry that I can´t answer you right now on the matter of history, because it would be too vague. But give me some time and I will write down what „history“ I was taught by my friend who invited me to the Rökkr, so that we could discuss it more deeply.

As I see Fenrir from practising with him -> he is more of a path/guide spirit, something like in voodoo Papa Legba. he shows you the way, he is also wery playfull in nature but sometime he has tendencies to invoke a mystery atmosphere, almost horror like.
Helja - I didn´t practice with her so much, but she´s something like forest god/spirit merged with a death angel, she is mother in the aspect of patting you and in the same time pushing you away. I always see the image of the god of the forest from the anime Princess mononoke.
Loki as you said up and below. Just to add that he tends to play with you in a way that you don´t know if it is all just a game to him or if he just wishes to let you think that way <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" title="Very Happy" /><!-- s -->

EDIT: Also it´s very interesting to compare The Nordic mythology with The Summmerian mythology, because when you read both mythologies they both invoke in you the feeling of same entities and history,it´s like those two "nations" wrote about the same thing. which isn´t something extraordinary and can be seen in many other mythologies all over the world.

Miniar Wrote:He, however, was a bit of a sociopath in a sense. Most of his conquests as well as the negative things he did were "jokes", things he did for a laugh (this is clear when one reads the old sagas and legends) without any care to consider the consequences. Just go and read the death of Baldr in it's original form. It's all a game to him.

Well said „clap clap“,
As a said note: he always invoke in me the feeling that i should go play with my cats, which invokes in me the feeling „Loki: I´m the one who created them“.

Miniar Wrote:There's more I'd comment on/ask about but I really haven't the time these days... maybe after surgery we'll have a chat about Kali..

I´m looking forward to it

p.s. let me know if i missed some spelling or grammar mistakes.

Welcome nice to meet you I would love to learn some of what you know i am always in to learning.

That said hope you like it here.