well let me introduce myself, I'm new here, still getting used to this website. My name is Bella <3 or izabella. I'm an Incarnated Angel. I'm a angel spirit living in a human body, thats how it feels. I'm not good at introducing myself all in one post so I'll try putting this into a nutshell
I just recently found out i may be an angel barely about a few months ago, for so many years i feel COMPLETELY out of place, almost like i don't belong in this world at all. Almost everything i study about mankind makes me wonder in awe, why do they do this? What's their gain for doing that? Whats the real need for sleep? and almost everything you can imagine. When i was little, about 5-6 years old, i would just sit alone in the playground and watch children play, not knowing how to act or what to say, but even when i tried socializing, i was only picked on, beat up, and treated like crap :/ Anyways, i remember a few odd things that have happend. One time i was crying alone afterschool waiting for my mom who didn't come until 8 to pick me up, while i was sitting on the large, grass field, all of a sudden i looked up and saw the sky. It was a beautiful sunny and crisp day, and for some reason i kept staring up at the sky like i was mesmerized, even felt a need to "go back home". while i stared up at the clouds, all of a sudden i felt my feet beginning to float off the ground gently, and i felt something growing out of my back, and unfolding, like wings perhaps? i began floating higher and higher up until i was about 5 feet off the ground, then i remember a sweet womans voice in my head say "don't worry dear, one day, just wait.." and thats all i remember. i floated back down, and thought maybe i was day dreaming only.
Another incident was just recently, i was beyond depressed barely 2 weeks ago, i wasn't eating, sleeping well, and blocking out everybody who i felt who didn't care about me anymore(due to reasons..), and i remember just praying and praying to whoever my guardian angel may be, just begging for him or her to help me in some sort of way, lend me guidance or strength to get through what i was going through, well shortly after i heard a womans voice yet again say my name out of nowhere, and for some reason i heard 2 other voices in my head talking to eachother, one was a scottish sounding woman, she sounded pretty spunky and a bit rude, the other was a normal sounding man. They were arguing back and forth about what to do with me, the scottish lady was stating that death would bring me to peace, but she didn't wish to do that, feeling i had more to live for later in life, the other had a different point of view which i dont remember..No matter how hard i tried i couldnt block out their voices.
When i tried falling asleep that night, i had a dream that the 2 were talking yet again, this time i saw them, the scottish lady was named Helga, she had long red wavy hair, freckles, flowers in her hair, and a flowy white dress. The other man wore a long white robe, he had short brown hair, and hazel eyes. I dont recall what neither of them said, but i remember Helga telling me that they would take care of me and make sure i get better..
Other dreams i have had consisted of me visiting Heaven, mainly i had them when i was a child, they seemed so real, i felt like they were, one was where i had little wings and i was playing with small cherub angels, one of them said "Oh Bella we missed you! when are you coming back! we love you so much!" and he was my specific playmate in every heavenly dream i would have. i dont remember his name, all i remember was he was a cherub, with blonde curly hair( like the ones in paintings!). And these dreams happend multiple times over the years, i would see the same angels, when i would wake up, it felt more like i was dropped from the sky or somewhere and fell on my bed after every dream like this. Sometimes i would even be able to look past my ceiling and see the sky, along with the angels flying and waving at me, yet again, i felt it was only a dream. Now, my memory may be bad but there is one specific dream i will never forget, it was only for about a minute or so, but i remember one where i was a small little angel, i was about 5 or 4 at the time, and i was sleeping cuddled up in a humongous palm, it was Gods im pretty sure, in the background for whatever reason was filled with gold,treasure, and jewels. The feeling was unforgettable, it was the most peace i have ever felt in my whole life, even now...
I have had many other dreams, but lets move onto something else. How i found out i was an angel, i was bored one night, and i study loads of Demonology, due to my many real life demon/human friends(mostly walk-ins), and numerous experiences with demons my whole life, most were pretty bad...but i would rather talk about those personally, because for some reason i attract those immensely, even romantically..anyways, that night i decided to look up info about angels for once and learn about them. While looking them up, i stumbled across the concept of "incarnated angels" and found that interesting, when i read more about it, and the other types of kins, along with personal profiles and life experiences of incarnated angels, i found myself in that certain category perfectly! i began crying in confusion, fear, shock, and happiness. I finally figured out what i am at last, after years and years of wondering. Funny thing is, by looking at me, you would never guess, by the way i dress and what my interests are. After that moment of awakening, i looked up at my wall, feeling a peaceful presence right there, and for a very split second, saw a slight imprint of a beautiful angel wing, it was rainbow colored and sort of see through, it went away as quickly as i looked up.
Well, hope you guys get to know me a little more, Im better at explaining stuff when Im talking to people XD i know what i typed was so little and not very convincing but i swear that theres so much more that has gone on in my life and that needs to be let out, but please feel free to talk to me <3 im very friendly.
- Bella <3