experiance

I got to ask what was your awakening like? Did it scare you or maybe excited you? Did you tell anyone? If you did who? Were they supportive or a burden on the situation? I always get abit curious about how people's awakenings went.

I'm one of those people who never really had an awakening proper. As long as I can remember I didn't feel human, didn't feel right in my body, didn't relate to other people like everyone else seemed to. I never really looked into it until I was around 18, but I wouldn't call that an awakening so much as a thought of "gee I wonder if there are any other people who feel like this". Google led me to the otherkin community and I finally joined it in college. The rest, as they say, is history <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_razz.gif" alt=":P" title="Razz" /><!-- s -->

As for telling people, I told a few friends and most were supportive. One expressed feeling that the concept (before I told him I identified with it) was a little nuts, but in general I really only tell people I care enough about to want them to know that part of me and who I am pretty sure are open minded enough and so forth to understand.

Like Sera, I felt different for most of my life but I'd always chalked it up to me 'just being weird'. However, I did experience what I refer to as my 're-awakening'. After some initial inner researching while I was in college (yay self exploration!), I found the online communities sometime in 2001 and had the light bulb go off of 'oh so that's what this is!'. I call it my 're-awakening' because it was simply at that point that I became aware of what was off about me since I've always been this way.

I never felt normal either but then started reading legends and eventually found a set of which I happoned to resonate with and that was of the Japanese kitsune I the explored the strange yet familiar feelings which I found from the stories by 12 I knew my self but not of the otherkin community. So I found vampires first and from there I slowly found it piece by piece.

Also the same as Sera for me, at least at the beginning. I always identified more with non-humans, but I was much younger than 18 when I took to the Internet. Originally I was searching about transformations, but I knew that wasn't really the right way; that was just how the idea manifested itself in my young mind. I can't have been older than 13 when I found my first Otherkin forum. It was interesting, to say the least.

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You can just read it here....

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In general, among us we knew we were nonhuman sense we were little. Roughly around 14 or 16 for all of us we started really having shifts (that we can remember) and a year after that we discovered the community. We consider our awakenings to be more of a gradual climb - gaining more information and more information over time. Discovering a feeling of identifying with something, then realizing its actually identifying as something, then we learn words others have formed for these experiences, so on.

- Kardegray