Whelp, time to say hullo I suppose
Since I just re-remembered I had an account here/had signed up for one (not that long ago, but the acceptance process of both here and OKA are... rather long waits) I guess I should post an intro. I could copy-past, but I'm sadly not that unoriginal to just steal from my most recent acclumliation of myself into the written word and slap it up here.
Call me a perfectionist, I like to write from scratch.
(Everything I say from here forward is my own Unverified Personal Theory/Gnosis)
First, hmm... what to say about myself? Well, for starters I was a mentally closeted Angelkin for most of my life up until the last week of July of this year, and even then I resisted it. I fully accepted my Therianthropy, and my "animalness" and even my theory for having been my theriotype so many times it left an imprint on my energy vibration/"soul", but being an Angel? For someone who's never believed in an Omnipotent power? How? How could that be? How could I ever accept it? Let alone believe that Angels existed for me to be one.
Of course part of the reason why I don't believe in a sentient God-like power is because I cannot fathom the mind that might take joy in putting ants under a magnifying glass and frying them. Or watch someone else do it and not stop them. If Angels evolved from old energies and old souls as their own race, that, makes sense. If there is a universal energy that is "God-like" as in all reaching, wishes things to be via some "just is"/non-sentient reason, and has some sort of "design" that just is intrinsic, I can handle that too. It doesn't require my faith, or even much thought from me. This is the path I take spiritually along with bits and pieces of Buddhism I've picked up along the way. Scientific Zen I suppose you could say....
How I arrived to being a Therianthrope is rather simple, I always behaved like I should have been an animal of some type (whether raptor or wolf or cat ((the "wolf" part I believe was my young interpretation of the pack-centered raptors and the pride centered cat))) or had been and was now human. It clicked when I was fifteen and I realized that my self-based character was actually more an inner reflection of what I felt of myself than just a character I broke the fourth wall on and writing taboos. What being a Therian didn't explain was the loyalty, the honor, the sense of culture that I assigned to cats (and still do, all cats are noble and my brothers in my mind, regardless of size). But I'd always had phantom wings to go along with my cat shifts (I used to believe I was secretly a dragon in a human skin when I was little)
I'd had "psychic" experiences before in the terms of being Empathic (being able to read people's emotions, not simply "empathizing" ironically, I am horrible at empathizing with someone, but I can tell you how and why they're upset) and it is these "abilities" of Empathic sense that allow me to sense and communicate with my main Spirit Guide, Sasa. But when another crashed into my life, first claiming to be a character--as a writer I'm used to this, but characters behave one way and Non-corporeal entities behave another--I began to wonder about Angels. Not about those we all hear about in the Bible or those who worship anything be it God or Lucifer or someone else, but just... Angels as a race. As a class of energy.
The long of the short, the new "character" who behaved like he wasn't a character, after about a week of debate with myself about how I might or might not handle things, I got fed up and was all "either tell me the truth" or go away.
I got the truth.
Now for the record I know a lot of Angelkin I've seen and read about can toss around big names of who they knew, what Heaven was like, what wars they fought in... I possess none of that. Except for I think getting my butt kicked in the "Aether" (or the Astral? I'm really not up to speed on my "terms", mostly because there are so many) I've never even seen battle. But, this is because I also don't believe I started off life as an Angel-frenquency (or if I did, I don't remember it).
In my understanding of Angels (whether the time-line for this is right, it kind of doesn't matter) either they formed/created the first intelligent life/proto brains on earth by their energy frenquencies inhabiting phsyical bodies and forcing a mutation, or they were created as the original intelligent/proto-brain life and evolved to be older and more powerful over the... 600 million years. Either way, Angels are old. In understanding from the guide who dropped in on me to try and get me to accept my "angel" identity, he left the society of other old souls when they started doing what intelligent life did: fight over who was right about what.
No war, no fall, nothing, just "I refuse to take a side, I wish you'd stop arguing, but I'm gonna leave for now, bye." And off he went.
I call him Kos.
Apparently, as my first incarnation/existance as a velociraptor (the real ones, not like Jurassic Park) myself and my raptor mate were picked for our loyalty to our clutch and each other as well as the way we worked together as we passed in and out of packs (this is NOT from any past life regression, this is just something I have sensed for years, Kos just was all "remember that? Yes, that's why I liked you two"). It also functioned as an energy thing, that only certian energies could be capable of being able to be "trained" under Kos because say something with an energy in the 200 range couldn't easily "link" to something in the 300 range. Kos, having left his "home" a very long time ago and picked up others (from the time factor and the numbers game, I'd say there probably isn't more than a thousand of us, with each soul that is created at a further date away from Kos being less and less likely to be compatible with him) he trained us to be what we naturally were (being on the same frequency) and what he was, a fighter, and a warrior. As someone who started out as a predator, as life evolved, I kept choosing predators, in my personal opinion, I think I liked the saber-cats the best because of how compact and powerful they were, stealthy and quiet, taking down their prey after needing to sneak up on it.
I probably rambled around in that: For the tl;dr: I identify as a saber-cat therianthrope because I believe I chose to incarnate as one over and over again. I believe that Angels evolve over time as a soul ages (or maybe are created but don't know about it) and that I was found by Kos who left his similar aged-energy signatures/souls/Angels when they began making up stories and arguing over who's idea of why they existed was correct and was trained. Either I existed/created an Angel and chose animal form or the Angel form evolved from the animal form under the guidance and teaching of Kos.
So... uhh... as for what I do in my spare time: I like to read and write, and I adore math. It's like high that is... impossible to explain. I am studying physics because I believe in a theory of transcending consciousness that relates to String Theory (for now) and will be perusing this as my main idea with constant tweaking. I also wish to go into nano-robotics because I find the entire thing fascinating. I have six cats: Timothy McGee, Misha, David Alexander, Buffy, Krista, and Grissom--my little boy-cat, my first cat, James Bond, is now in spirit (in any term of the word) and he is with me always (also in any term of the phrase). I also have one dog, Troy (who's a girl).
There are a lot of things I like as well as drawing and philosophizing. I've joined the Otherkin sites that I have found to see what other Angels know and say and what their memories are (since mine are basically like what I'd imagine living as apart of a nomad clan would be), as well as give my two cents.
What a long post.....
AKA: Carter, Thursday, and Spooky.
--Saturn, Thursday, Nine, Yellow, Cats, Dove... these make up the anomaly that is me--
THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE