What's wrong with me?
I've felt connected to cicadas since this past summer. As I wrote in my livejournal:
"I love cicadas. I feel so close to them, so sensitive to them, and yes, I guess you could say I feel like one. I feel for them, I miss them greatly still. I sometimes feel like I am crazy because I want to cry (sometimes do) if I see them hurt or dead."
I've been debating since this summer what this connection means. I feel I am almost too sensitive to them, whereas no other creature makes me this upset if hurt, sick, or dead. I remember being completely repelled by the cicadas with fungus (an STD, believe it or not, that cicadas are sesceptable (sp?) to), but at the same time, felt terrible for them. I would let the healthy ones crawl on me, and wasn't bothered at all. In fact, I felt quite at home, and happy. They cheered me up whenever around. When I first saw a cicada, I instantly felt love for it. Instantly just knew there was something about it that I felt so connected to.
Seems some are convinced that what I am experiencing may be therianthropy, but I don't want to jump to conclusions. I just don't know why I feel so strongly about cicadas. What could the reason be? Anything I should look into? I've already looked into totems, and I don't think that's the case, but any other things it could be?
"A fool thinks himself to be wise, but a wise man knows himself to be a fool" -William Shakespeare
“The mind is everything. What you think you become.”-Buddha