When someone first spoke the word "Otherkin" to me and explained what it meant, I felt a peculiar sensation. I felt at once cynical, mocking actually, hopeful that, perhaps, someone had seen through my artificial walls for once, and extremely defensive. My response was incredulity, but my curiosity had been piqued. I found Otherkin.net and soon began consuming all the available information about kintypes and their details.
Initially, I despaired. There was nothing "like me" to be found, though I was hardly certain as to what I was like to begin with. All I knew is that I wasn't whatever all of the other 'Kin were.
The concept, however, that I could be Otherkin, would plague me for years, though any details beyond that would remain elusive.
In eight years, I have discovered the following details about myself.
I am not like any commonly accepted kintype.
I feel phantom sensations and extreme incongruity with my body.
I have vampiric tendencies.
That's it. I have had a number of "revelations" regarding kintype, multiplicity, and other such things but have eventually admitted to myself, and to others, that all of them were untrue, mostly based on a passing interest with whatever species or anything else.
I've been lurking rather than posting for a while now, more or less decided that I'll just never know what I am, or if I'm Otherkin at all. However, recently, the idea of unique kintypes has presented itself again and again. I've felt encouraged by the idea that I may not find a profile already laid out of what I am and what that means for me. I may have to write my own.
As a result of this discovery, I plan to delve again in search of valuable nuggets of information and I encourage you all to do the same. Know thyself. I'll use this thread to post additional insights on this topic, and I hope that someone will comment, especially those who do have unique kintypes, about awakening and the "phases" of knowing and not knowing. Feel free, even, to post a description of your kintype so that others in the future might find helpful clues.
I'm posting this here because I feel that I ought to contribute something to the continually slowing and fluff-ridden forums that I belong to. Unfortunately, at the moment, it is all that I have to contribute.