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Umm.. Hi.
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Umm.. Hi.
I'm not really sure what to say.
Well.
My name is Ashleigh, I'm 16 and I live in England.
I'm quite confused about this whole 'otherkin' buisness. I have no idea if I even am one but I feel kind of.. 'different'. Like there's something more. I can't explain any better than that.
I feel kind of odd even signing up to this to be completely honest, but I figured, considering I'm reading the posts I may as well.
By 'kind of odd' I guess I mean sort of guilty in a way. I've recently started seeing a phyciatrist who has decided that I'm definately 'crazy' but I haven't been spercifically diagnosed yet. Bipolar (also known as manic depression) is suspected. My step-dad is also bipolar. As is my previous step-dad. So I know quite a bit about it. I know that, sometimes, one of the symptoms is being delusional. So, although I've always felt like I'm 'something else' and different and have noticed that I sort of have 'abilities' I think I might just be being delusional. And I feel guilty because, if I am just being delusional, then this probably won't help. I also feel guilty because I know I won't tell anyone about it and that I probably should. I know I won't tell anyone because I'm scared. And I'm scared because I know if I told anyone, they would definately think I'm delusional. So maybe I shouldn't be doing this. It seems to be making things more complicated. But I'd rather not go through this on my own and all of you seem like a nice, non-judgemental group of people who have similar situations going on.
So, if anyone would be so kind as to help me figure out what all this 'otherkin' stuff is all about, it would be very much apprieciated.
It really would.
And I noticed that this introduction thing really does not tell you anything about me which I'm guessing was the whole point in it so I'm pasting my myspace 'about me' section in here:

"The name's Ashleigh.
17 on the 16/12/08.

I like leaving my mark on the world.
Something permanent.
Something unforgettable.
I want to be remembered.
I'd like to think that in years to come there’s some school kid just like me, sending a hologram IM to their friend who's just like Wish, complaining about an essay they have to write on some nut-job called Ashleigh Roberts who was around way back when. Before they even had mp60 plug-ins to your brain and when they thought you could cure cancer with radiation.

Silence makes me uncomfortable. I hate springtime. I know everything that doesn’t matter and nothing that does. Bright colours make me happy. I’m like a 5 year old. I never know what to say and everything I do say comes out wrong. I’m beyond crap at explaining things. I love my piano. Sometimes, I don’t sleep at all. I give up on everything. I hate hats. I secretly get jealous of things that probably didn’t mean anything anyway. But I read too much into them. Again. I over-exaggerate. I take too many photos. I over-think everything. I’m really quite ditzy. I love art. I’m way paranoid. About everything. I make random noises without realising it. I annoy myself. I often am actually doing the emotes I write. Apart from lol. Lol has just become punctuation these days. I fiddle with stuff. I get embarrassed really easily. I feel awkward when people kiss so I look away and pretend I was doing something else so I never even noticed. I like to read. I daydream all the time. I think I blink more than the average person. I chew my lip a lot. I’m a perfectionist and get angry at myself for doing stuff wrong. I hate having dirty hands and won’t touch anything until they’re clean again. I can never make decisions. I’m very pale. No matter what. I’m convinced that the sun avoids me completely. I regret every mistake. Feet freak me the hell out. I love shopping. I always end up coming home with no money left and about 3 things that make no sense with no idea why the hell anybody that ever existed in the history of the world would want to buy them. Including me. I can’t wait to learn how to drive, although me behind the wheel of a car is a terrifying prospect for everybody, I’m sure. Even me. I definitely don’t trust myself not to wind up dead. And I have no idea how I’m going to know where I’m going. I never have any idea where I’m going. My dream car is a beat up old red Chevy or Dodge Ram. They are the sex. I ramble on for years, not expecting anyone to still be listening. My spelling is atrocious. I hate my handwriting. I don’t see the point in Maths and forget whatever I’ve learnt as soon as I’ve done whatever test I was learning it for. I hate being alone. I get scared way too easily. I’m up and down like a yo-yo and change my mind like the bloody weather."

Wow. I think I might have just set some kind of record for the longest introduction post ever. Sorry about that.
But also, a few other things, just for you guys: I'm currently writing a story, originally for my GCSE English Creative Writing Coursework, that I'm thinking of turning into a novel. I smoke. Time passes strangely for me. I am rather music obsessed. My music taste is really versitile but mostly of the rock persuasion. I don't like cats. I think that they are snobby. I'd like to consider myself a bit of an artist. Dr pepper is clearly the best of all soft drinks. I'm very self-deprieciating. I'm quite shy but maybe I won't be because I am not talking to you face-to-face. I'm an extremly fussy eater but I actually don't really eat all that much anymore. I'm never hungry. I just eat because I know I should. Luckily my mom and step-dad are very understanding about this and don't assume I've got an eating dissorder or something because they (both suffering from mental health dissorders themselves) have pretty much the same eating habits. I'm a bit of a kindred spirit. A wanderer. I've moved up and down England my whole life. I actually have no idea how many houses I've lived in. But I like it that way. I get restless staying in one place too long. I've noticed that everytime I move I become a different person. I see it as sort of starting all over again. The longest I've ever stayed in one place was 4 years. And even then, around the time I would have moved on, I changed, just not as completely. I was thinking about it earlier today and I was actually part of every single clique in school there at some point. I love freedom. I like to have intellectual discussions. Especially about religion. I remember things exactly, which my mom hates because I always correct her in arguments when she says she/I said something, even if what she says is almost right and means the same thing anyway. Not knowing what happens after you die terrifies me. I chew pens. Language fasinates me.
Well. I'm sorry again for going on but hey. Now you probably know me better than myself and it would be quite interesting if I ended up getting in the guiness book of world records (again, might I add. Totaly not gloating or anything ^_^) for this.
2008-05-13 2:25
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Post: #2
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Now that I've read some of the other introductions I think I did this all wrong.
I should have just stuck with saying hi, my name, and how i have no idea what I if I am indeed actually anything at all like I was going too.
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Ummm.. Lets just rewind.

*waves*
Hi. I'm Ashleigh.
Pleased to meet you.
Have a Dr pepper.
*hands around cans of Dr pepper*
2008-05-13 3:26
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*hands over an award for longest intro post ever* Welcome <!-- sSmile --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- sSmile -->

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"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."-Poe
2008-05-13 3:54
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Hahaha thankyou.
That is definately going on my mantelpiece =)
2008-05-13 4:01
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Welcome to the board. Read posts around, absorb some of the info, and ask any questions you have. Good luck. <!-- sWink --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- sWink -->
2008-05-13 4:23
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Thanks =)
I do have I alot of questions, I think. But I can't seem to put them into words..
There just seem to be so many types of otherkin.
I don't think I'll ever get close to knowing what they all are! <!-- s:lol: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_lol.gif" alt=":lol:" title="Laughing" /><!-- s:lol: -->
2008-05-13 4:34
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Well, just remember that finding out whether or not you're otherkin (thus what kind) is very very individualistic and internal. I.e. the more self-reflection and meditation you can do about what you read on the boards, the better.
2008-05-13 4:54
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*Hands a blanket* Since I bet your feeling a bit exposed. *Shakes Hand* Try not to push or strain yourself on the otherkin feeling. All you need to have here is an open mind. After that just relax and feel your way around. Beside those of us that bite do it in play. <!-- sWink --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- sWink --> <!-- s:twisted: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":twisted:" title="Twisted Evil" /><!-- s:twisted: --> ...I mean, no, we don't bite... ever.

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2008-05-13 5:07
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Yeah.. I kind of figured as much. Would be pretty awesome if you could just do a quiz and find out in 30 seconds though, huh. I'm guessing it'll take years. And even then, how do you know you've decided right? I reckon you just know but I'm always second guessing myself and I can never seem to trust my instincts, except in that whole 'fight or flight' situation..
But I'm already thinking that I must be some sort of otherkin. It just feels so right, you know? I've been on here for what? A couple of hours? And I already feel right at home.
It's really odd. I'm normally a very private person and right away I'd rambled on for half a century about stuff I'd never dare breathe to people I've known forever.
I'm going to read up on Vampires. I've always felt some sort of affinity with them but I'm almost certain that's just because I've read so many stories about them <!-- s:lol: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_lol.gif" alt=":lol:" title="Laughing" /><!-- s:lol: --> It doesn't really matter. It just gives me somewhere to start. >.<
Something I don't quite understnd though is the 'ranks' or whateve they're called that appear under people's names like 'newbie' and whatnot. How do hey work? Are they determined by how long you've been a member, or by how active a member you are etc?
2008-05-13 5:14
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Thanks *juggles blanket awkwardly while trying to shake hands*
Openmind. Check.
Relax. Check.
Feel my way around. Ummm. Ooo-err. *blushes*
*giggles*
2008-05-13 5:19
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