Chordal Wrote:Generally, once whatever pushes the door (it usually feels like a strong gust of wind, sometimes accompanied by a "dread" noise) has done so, it doesn't bother me; but the door moving, and pushing more strongly than I can hold it back, freaks me out a bit.
That right there makes me wonder if you're afraid of the undefinable (the mysterious 'wind') rather than whatever's making the wind and noise. It's the 'don't know why an inanimate object is moving on its own' fear, rather than the unseen 'monster' fear.
Interesting point... Something came up recently as a possible explanation, too. I've had dreams before in which other beings in the dream represented different parts of myself. I wonder if the spirit trying to get into the apartment is me? I say "spirit" because it does not feel like an empty presence and a door moving on its own -- it feels as though it is being intentionally pushed.
There are two things going on here: one is that the door's movement is ego-dystonic in the lexicon of the dream (that is, my mind sees it as "wrong" that the door is moving, whereas other bits which do not fit into waking reality, such as having more multiple miniature packs of cereal in the cabinet than anyone should, do not arouse the same fear). In prior dreams, I've gone to lock the door and someone (like my dad) came in with food from the store, or something. This was not uncommon from when we moved there -- the door would be ajar and I'd go to close it as someone was coming in (who had a legitimate reason to come in). It still startles me, but it isn't quite the same thing as going to close it and having it feel as though someone is forcing their way in, and there's no one there, and no reason why one would come in other than my attempt to lock them out.
So, the door's movement strikes me (from that perspective) as wrong -- specifically, wrong.
The second thing that I thought of, is that maybe the point of view that I'm seeing things from, as myself inside the apartment, isn't the entirety of myself. Maybe it's just the conscious part of myself, or the girl-part of myself, or something similarly fragmentary.
In this I'm recalling a dream I had some years ago in which I was in a city being terrorized by a crazed angelic shape-shifter...who happened to be Blaze. Not that I'm thinking Blaze actually *is* angelic, at this point, but there were things happening like mind control and changing forms and setting streets on fire, stuff like this, and no one knew who to target (he appeared, or was suspected to appear, in 4 different forms in that one dream). Point being that Blaze is actually part of myself at this point, and so I was seeing from one perspective as a person in this city, another aspect of myself who was razing it; even though I didn't know that the angelic entity was part of me, while I was still in the dream. (I still don't know what that dream means, either.)
So this would imply, essentially, some form of externalization/fragmentation + bilocation. I'm thinking that it could be the same thing happening in the "invisible intruder" dreams...though as I think of it now, I don't know what exactly would be represented by the perspective that I'm normally seeing from, and I don't know the identity of the invisible one. Instead of taking guesses which may be misleading, at this point, I'll post, and think on this...