Re: Thumb Twiddling
One of my memory fragments showed me being ordered to go to earth without any instruction of why or what I was supposed to do. And I was a bit too Goddess-struck to bother asking. After playing with the big ol' jigsaw puzzle a bit I'm starting to have some new theories as to why it was done like that.
Anyway, part of it is that it's in my nature to do certain things, so I don't really need to be told. Just like a dog doesn't need to be told to bark when some stranger gets too close to your house. The Powers That Be seem satisfied that I will fairly reliably act like myself in a given situation. And as Veritas pointed out, if I knew that they had in mind I'd probably get nervous about it anyway.
From that point of view, even things I take up in this life that seem entirely trivial, or just for fun, contribute to gaining the skills or creating the connections I need to do what I need to do. My various interests do seem to mesh together and support each other. (Too bad they don't support me yet...but I'm working on it.)
Part of it also may be that I've been given a light duty sort of thing so that I can heal up. A little light exercise, nothing too strenuous as I put the pieces back together and even regrow a bit or two. The PTB seem to support the idea of letting me develop as an individual, which also might explain the lack of orders. I have to learn how to figure it out for myself and come to the conclusions that satisfy me personally. Maybe it's something like a riddle, not just to find out what went wrong, but to figure out how to make it right again. Sure, God knows everything, past, present and future, but unless someone actually takes the time to figure things out, doesn't that knowledge become a paradox?
Ok, I'm getting heavy into the philisophical wax today...
"I inherited the spirit of the sun. I'll meet you when the day breaks through. It's time to shine and make all your dreams come true. Come on, wish upon a dog star!" -Hybrid