Malakoi Wrote:How did you get/find yours? Who/what is it? What does it do? Why has it made itself known to you?
Insects seem to have a thing for me, with butterfly and spider being the most prominent (though wasp keeps appearing in several strange and in-your-face wasy). Butterfly was the one that cracked the ice, being the first to appear to me in a meditation attempt on my totem 5 months ago (still unsure of the whole totem thing actually). I wasn't expecting a butterfly to appear during then, they were never creatures that I paid attention to before. After that, I did some things with tarot cards and butterfly kept popping up, as well as showing up everywhere in real life. And I do mean EVERYWHERE. Backyard, wherever I'm driving, around my car, around the house, etc. The creepy thing was, no one else ever saw them. If I commented on all the butterflies in the backyard, they would vanish or flit away before anyone else saw them.
Along with butterfly, spider also became more prominent as well. It kept appearing in dreams and in my room =_=; All sorts of new species too I might add, ones even my family haven't seen before. Butterfly I'm still unsure of, but spider I'm pretty sure is to help me with my fears. I've never liked spiders, and I still get creeped out by them. I fear the dark, dusty places they often live in, the poison some have, and the way they move. So I'm assuming it's a shadow totem...I just wish they would stop hiding in my clean laundry.
And the wasps need to stop flying into my face. I don't need an allergic reaction while driving. I still can't figure those guys out yet, or what they could possibly be meaning.
As far as what they actually DO though, nothing much. They just make themselves known to me, and then I go researching to figure out what they're possibly saying and how it'll help me. I don't know if they're just temporary, sticking around for the long term, or even just all in my mind working it's way through my phobias and issues. It's too soon to tell.