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I'm sure you all get this alot but I'd like some help to figure out if I am Otherkin and if so which type . As the moderator of this forum told me dreams I will not talk about here as the mind can conjure up anything .

So some info on me . I love dark things , music , characters in stories , movies etc . I have a hard time becoming friendly and close with people even though alot seem to like me . I once saw a psychic , she claimed I had a very white soul but said that I call upon some pretty dark forces , that seems pretty contradictory to me . I often feel I once had power and that I should have this again but don't right now .

But the really strange things I guess happend to me more when I was a child , the time I guess when one has more memories of one's spirit etc .

Anyway so yeah when I was a child I had really really bad fine motor skills . It's better now but they're still not all that good . On the other hand I had above average intelligence for the age . To give an example at age 5 doctors said I had the intelligence of someone who was in the 5th grade yet I could not draw a simple circle . They said I knew what a circle was and meant to draw one but for some reason I just could not . I took me much longer than all the other kids to learn to ride a bike , swim , tie my shoes , anything to do with body motor skills I always was bad at , kind of as if I was not used to using a body .

I would also often go deep into my mind and kind of zone out and while I did that I guess my arms would kind of twitch or flutter so the doctors thought I might suffer from a mild form of epilepsie but this was not so , these states were self induced by me and I could come out of them if I so choose . But at the time I was too young to explain this properly or perhaps even understand it completely myself .

They hooked my head up to wires to measure my brain wave activity . One the first such test I ever did when I was a child they discovered what they called a "shadow" on the read out but they didn't really know for sure what it was , on subsequent tests it never showed up again .

As a child I was totally fascinated by water , maybe most kids are I guess , I don't know . I was very afraid of the wail of air raid sirens when they were being tested , I guess they do sound ominous but I don't recall other kids being this afraid .

These days I find myself drawn to people who kind of have a darkside , not bad people really just not those happy perky people , people who also have a dark sense of humor .


Does this make any sense to anyone ?
2009-12-03 8:51
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Unfortunately, no one can tell you what type of 'kin you are Shadowman. Same as no one can decide your favorite color for you. <!-- sWink --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- sWink --> It takes time, in some cases years, to figure things out enough to claim a label. And for most of us, after we claim a label we never stop learning about it and what it means.

I would suggest you do some research; read articles here, do some digging online (and offline if you can) and try things like meditation and introspection. If you're drawn to a particular 'kin type, research it and try to figure out why. Also keep in mind, some people feel different but there's a perfectly normal explanation as to why. Not everything "weird" can be explained as being Otherkin-related.

Good luck and sorry I couldn't be more help!

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2009-12-03 14:51
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Why are you considering the idea of otherkin in the first place? What led you here?

I have no idea whether you are or are not otherkin, but everything you've posted seems to be normal human behaviour. The high intelligence but lack of fine motor skills, for example, is something often found in people with Asperger's Syndrome.

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2009-12-03 18:44
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Well I was never diagnosed with any kind of condition . But yeah I shall take the advice and do more research .
2009-12-04 8:38
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Shadowman82 Wrote:Well I was never diagnosed with any kind of condition .

And I'm not suggesting you have "any kind of condition", simply pointing out that your description of yourself seems well within the normal human range.

Quote:But yeah I shall take the advice and do more research .

I hate it when I ask someone a question and it just gets ignored. Ah well.

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Shadowman82 Wrote:Well I was never diagnosed with any kind of condition .

And I'm not suggesting you have "any kind of condition", simply pointing out that your description of yourself seems well within the normal human range.

Quote:But yeah I shall take the advice and do more research .

I hate it when I ask someone a question and it just gets ignored. Ah well.

Well, in Shadowman's defense, I'd probably have reacted similarly to the same phrasing. An expanded and, I'll admit, my personal interpretation of what he said was, "I've never been diagnosed with anything, but I may want to look into it more and talk to a professional. It's as likely, or much more likely, than being a non-human entity stuck in a human body. I might also research more into the types of Otherkin as well."

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2009-12-04 22:09
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I wouldn't dream of putting an interpretation like that onto that post - because while it is possibly completely accurate, it's also possibly way off the mark. So I stick with what people write.

Though neither the original words, or your interpretation of them, actually answered the question I asked . . . which is a shame, because I want to know the answer.

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What I meant when I said I was never diagnosed with any condition is that because I did have these problems as a child ( lousy fine motor skills ) they did do extensive testing on me then but they never found anything that would suggest that I had some kind of condition , I just mean if I had it should have shown up then and been diagnosed .

As for why I think I might be otherkin , good question . I fit with some of the charatersistics of otherkin types but as far as feeling missing body parts , sometimes it feels like I should have horns or something on my head but be that as it may the brain is weird and so is the mind so I am not going to put that much stock on that .

In dreams I'll often appear as some kind of vampire or something like it but again dreams are rather subjective .
2009-12-06 8:59
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Actually, a lot of conditions don't show up until you're a teenager/young adult. The brain is rapidly pruning itself and maturing, so problems can and do crop up.

What sort of "characteristics" do you mean for otherkin types?
2009-12-06 17:35
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Perhaps this is true but my motor skills allthough not great are better now than they were as a child or even teenager .

As far as charateristics go , I tend to be pretty sensitive to energy , the energy of people as well . I can feed on energy if I so choose . I'm usually a very kind person but can get very angry or get into a really dark frame of mind . If in either one of those states my strength will be greatly amplified , positive emotions surpressed and I'll be highly resistant to pain . My speaking voice will also deepen then without me trying to speak deeper .

I have often suspected that I could be a psychic vampire and I maybe but I'm not always so sure on that either .

Perhaps I'm also just a normal person who happens to be more sensitive than your average person who knows . I would just like it if I had some concrete answers .
2009-12-09 5:15
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