Rain Wrote:I've only managed to get a brief idea through reading about shadows in general; beings of an energetic nature no longer come near me ever since I was changed -- or I no longer notice them -- so I can't reliably experience it firsthand (and know I have done so afterwards).
I don't know if your situation is at all similar to mine, but I thought I'd let you know about this.
Going on psychiatric medications can very much change the way one deals with "energy" and spiritual beings, even if the primary action of the medication only indirectly impacts whatever it is we use to "sense." When I was not on medication, the "calls" I'd get (I refer to them like phone calls) -- visions, messages, etc. -- were very vivid and would take up most of my attention, though I could normally still operate in the regular world at the same time. When I started antidepressants, my mind became suddenly very quiet. No chatter, no visions, hardly any sense of presence. So I had to find other ways of communicating (it turned out that noting synchronicities became my next step, which was also the way that I found out that the entity called Samael was not the "Satan" I'd known, incidentally). It wasn't until after my merger that I actually felt calm again (as versus distressed at having my world and my companions ripped away from me).
Of course, though, the medication and the merger happened around the same time -- it was kind of an act of desperation, something that had been considered before but which now needed to be done before contact -- and memories -- were completely lost (while the medication was just because I was in so much pain that I'd become willing to consider it).
I went through the same kind of thing when I added a different medication years later, in college. There was a clear adjustment period between the mode I'd become used to operating in, where I felt that I could sense the emotional states of others (think "ki extension" towards the target [looking at them helps], as you would extend ki towards something you're about to grab, but haven't yet -- enveloping the target and feeling what it is they're emanating)...and the latter period where it was like learning to live as a normal human, without that input: taking people on their word and not attempting to predict what would happen or trying to control what I thought might happen. When I'm on a lower dosage of this medication, I become more intuitive and fluid but I also am less able to have awareness of exactly what it is I'm thinking. When I'm on a higher dosage, I become much more rational and linear in thought, and I'm more apt to hold an atheistic and skeptical perspective. Basically it's Air/slight Earth, countering an overabundance of Water, if my notions of Air, Earth and Water are correct. (Sorry to get all alchemistic on you -- what I'm talking about is basic Western Occult Tradition stuff as applied to psychiatry.)
So basically, this is to say that in my experience, brain chemistry very much affects how much one senses or doesn't sense. I should also note, though -- I am better off for having taken the medications. It's just that there's a cost/benefit assessment that has to be made, which one may not actually be able to get a good reading on until years into recovery from a serious mental illness.
Rain Wrote:Trees, for example, have a low intensity / long-lasting type of sensation whereas the energy of humans is oft extremely hot and short-lived. I just call it "living energy", for lack of a better term.
You might want to look up the terms: ki, qi or chi, and prana. They all refer to vital living energy; "ki" is the Japanese interpretation, "qi" or "chi" is Chinese, "prana" is East Indian.