-Pokes head in-

Hello
some of you might know me but for those who don't my name is Dragonslorefury, my real name is Amy but no one really cares about that =p.

I'm a first year University student studying Art History and loving it!

I'm a shapeshifting dragonkin and have been awakened for 5-6 years now, I'm also a Britkin and proud of it! (For those not in my little universe of combined words- Britkin= British Otherkin)

My hobbies include drawing, writing, art history, walking.... infact I have a hobbies list on my profile, take a goosey gander if you're interested.

But, yeah, that's pretty much me....

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*glomp* It's about damn time you got your dragon butt over here. Since people who don't know you might wonder...here's my token question: how did you come to the conclusion that you're a western shapeshifting dragon?

*nods* I do recognize the name. Nice to meetcha'! And welcome to OKP!

Always glad to see another familiar face, welcome to our little corner of the internet. Hope you enjoy your time here

Heh thank you very much everyone, so far the familiar faces keep on coming ^_^

Damn you Sera and your question asking!
=p

My idnetification as a shapeshifting dragonkin with western apperance is something that I have come to comfortably anounce due to a fair amount of years of phantom limbs, mental shifts, introspection, questioning of my sanity and a conctant up-keep of re-evaluation, Lots of re-evaluation.

When I look back I see that my first perceptions of myself have changed quite alot and this is why I hold questioning and evaluation in the otherkin community with such high regard; in that way I feel that awakening in a way never stops.

Anyway meditation was not a very big factor for me, I was never good at it and at the time that I finally realised that I was a dragonkin I had very little attention span for it. Now a days I do use meditation but more for totemism than for myself. The one time that I intimatly tried to do a meditation to gain further understanding into my "kin-side" (that title in itself is a grey area for me) it went disasterouly wrong.

At the end of the day self- identifying as a dragonkin just feels right for me, I could say I wasn't a dragonkin but It does nothing for me and by accepting that I am one things come together with much more ease and certain things that can be named with in the kin community don't cause me such distress as if they were nameless.

Hope that makes some sense.
Thanks for the welcomes ^_^

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Thank you for the welcome.

I'm curious, why do you prefer the term "shapeshifting" as opposed to simply dragon? What makes a shapeshifting dragon different than just a regular dragon?

If I ever had a life as a dragon I was one who could shapeshift, it was core to my existence, my form of hunting and communication and my species as a whole. But this is if I ever had a life as a dragon; Although I believe in past lifes I also personally believe that past life memories can be very un-reliable, easily influenced and dangerously constructed, just a personal thing I guess.

As of now I identify as a "shapeshifting" dragonkin because shapeshifting is still quite important when it comes to who I am. Of course I don't believe that I can physically shift or anything, I find P-shifting to be rather improbable, but I do experience mental shifts etc., somewhat in the same way that a therian would.

Even before I realised myself to be a dragonkin I was experiencing m-shifts into different animals (I don't shift into dragon), at that point they were usually involuntary, confusing and it made awakening a very confusing process as I wasn't exactly settled.

When I finally calmed down and became clear enough to identify as a dragon I still shifted, and it was still into different animals, yet at the end of it I would always come back to my "base-self" which is dragon. I also find that when I repress my phantom limbs I tend to start m-shifting, usuallly involuntarily, which I see as my body unconciously processing that me rejecting my phaontom body means I want to shift...not sure about that one though as it's a relatively new line of thought.

When I shift I always feel as if it is just an extension of myself and not a form in it's own. I also never shift into a dragon, I am always a dragon, whatever form i'm in, it's always that single constant. It feels like the origin. I struggled with the idea for a while (I think about another year, I must like year long contemplation =p) but I eventually decided to identify myself as a shapeshifting dragonkin and...well you know that feeling of relief you get when you let something off your chest? That was what I felt, it was almost instant, very relieving and it felt right, and still does to this day.

It's been an interesting journey, and it's one of those things that a totem of mine has actually called me to talk to hir about instead of me calling hir, and at the end of that day it's just a part of myself, an essential part, that I feel wouldn't benefit from me neglecting it.

I hope that helps.