I noticed there wasn't a mythical kin forum anymore! So I'll just stick this here.
I've come to realize that my phoenix form only comes out at very specific times. Those are times when all hope is lost, when I feel I've exhausted all possibilities and I really am stuck somewhere, and I'm about ready to kill myself for real this time... then my phoenix rises from within. It gives me two things: The strength to carry on, and inspiration for how to fix whatever it is that's going on - something I didn't see before. Or sometimes, simply the strength to wait until something DOES come along, a day or 2 later. It's truly a feeling unlike any other...and it comes in handy a lot, as you can probably gather <!-- s

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But, a thought struck me, and I know everyone isn't suicidal so please don't beat the discussion into the ground just because you can't relate.
I think that my phoenix form could either be:
A) A totem, or
B) One of those archetypes that exists within the human psyche, that I simply interpret as a "form" because it's easy and effective to do so. (Which, in my book, would technically make it a totem..lol)
Input from other phoenix kin, or others who have considered suicide, would be very helpful and appreciated. <!-- s

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