Hello hello hello! Pleased to meet you, whoever you are <!-- s

--><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s

--> I'm kokolaila, new (obviously), and I never know where to start with these things. So... I'm a student in England, trying to get a place at my dream university on the English Literature course.
That was the easy part.
As you can probably tell I really don't know which kin I belong to - yet, fingers crossed. I always felt a draw to the side of existence that we humans can't see or really understand, which apparently is where the otherkin come in – almost like I belonged to it. When I was younger I could see something surrounding people, which I now think was probably their auras, but I persuaded myself I was just crazy and tried to train myself to just ignore it.
Then the dreams started. I always have some kind of dream (which drive my friends into hysterical laughter most of the time), but these were totally different. They weren't my average dreams, they felt much more like reality. It normally starts out with flying, wings or no; involves people I know but have no recollection of, who have – sorry the for pun – an “otherness” about them, too; several places, normally underground or in a strange location, that I know like the back of my hand but have never visited in this body; and almost always ends in someone's death.
I know they sound kind of like a regular dreams, but I can always tell when something is just a dream and these don't feel like it. To add to the confusion, the dreams of wings have bled over into real life, so I often feel like I have something growing out of my shoulder blades.
In certain places I tend to get really strong senses of deja vu, which is some cases has been so strong I've passed out from it. I also feel like there's someone, or some people, that I need to find who are otherkin, though I have no idea right now who exactly they are.
I started researching and ended up here! I figured I could either jump in to this head first, or try to completely forget about it: and goodness knows I tried the ignoring and it really did not work. So I figured that if I'm insane, I may as well try to embrace it.
<!-- s:oops: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" title="Embarrassed" /><!-- s:oops: --> Sorry about the essay. It just wouldn't let me stop until I finished, damn it! If I haven't bored you to tears yet and you have any suggestions that might help, or just want to say hi, feel free! <!-- s

--><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s

-->