Nathaniel, the Charleston Incubus.

I'm lazy, if your a member of Trueform you've probably already read this...

A pleasure to meet you all. As you may have gathered my name is Nathaniel, I live in Charleston South Carolina, a beautiful old town with lots of gorgeous artwork, architecture and history. You also may have guessed I'm an Incubus. I don't see myself as a Vampire, the word is nice, gives nice romantic ideas to it thanks to the likes of Anne Rice and The Twilight Series, but it doesn't really resonate within me. Incubus and Demon on the other hand does quite nicely.

No I don't rape people (There seems to be a misconception about that) although I can get rough at times if the girl likes it like that. Seduction is far more fun anyway.

It's a pleasure to be here, my name is taken from that of the Madgod Sheogorath of a video game called Oblivion. I'm a gamer as well...I don't really think I'm a nerd I mean I suppose I am a bit but then I don't think anyone who's interesting fits into one single category of "who you are". I think that people, at least the interesting ones such as myself and probably some of you are a bit more complex than that.

I cam to the conclusion that I was what I claim to be through a very, very long drawn out process. I'm an atheist, so you can imagine the kind of denial I actually went through....

It started about 2 years ago, I realized I was picking up other peoples emotions. I figured this out by doing single-blind tests actually. I asked a non-suspecting person if they were feeling emotion-X. Just friends and the like, then random people in malls and what not who I knew only in passing. So I noticed that first. I then realized that I felt differently when I flirted with/teased/kissed/aroused others I kept getting these mental images of me breathing in colored smoke without actually meaning to bring these images up when I did it.

Depending on the amount of arousal there was more "smoke" if you will that showed up in these mental images. I noticed that when I fed on this (at the time I didn't call it feeding) that my senses became more acute. I could see colors better, everything just seemed dull before and things became more alive. My empathy also got stronger when I fed. However I don't think I need to feed. I think the best way I could describe the idea of feeding as lust and amusement all wrapped up in a nice seductive half smile.

So I began doing research I came to the conclusion that I was feeding on this specific tantric energy. Again as an atheist and someone who believes in science and logic I did quite alot of testing and research because I didn't want to think I was going crazy. So eventually I found out about otherkin. Since then I've developed a few other things that I can do, mostly energy manipulation and a kind of telepathy that deals with implanting suggestions and the like which helps me with the whole arousal, seduction and feeding process. I didn't classify myself as a vampire because it didn't feel right. Demonkin just responds better to something in me, so that is my reasoning for classifying myself as such. The whole process wasn't nearly as interesting as I thought. I'd figure something out and I'd get the strangest sensation like I was just remembering something I had forgotten. It took the thrill out of it in a way...

Now I get to test if I don't have to feed or not. My girlfriends going away for the holidays for about 2 weeks. It's been about 3 days in and colors are already starting to dull slightly *sigh* It's actually not going as well as I'd hoped. It's been nearly a week and I'm starting to have "withdrawal" if you will...

Thanks for listening to my introduction, I've already read the forum rules and the like so the mods will need to think up something better to say than "Hey welcome read the rules and enjoy your day" It's repetitive and boring those kinds of welcomes and I get them alot on various forums so I thought I'd make a preemptive strike if you will.

Welcome Sheogorath!

The whole awakening process is quite interesting as an atheist. At the time when I first realized I was a vampire, I was still atheist at the time. When I first decided to use the term Guardian for myself as well (something akin to angel without going into a long explanation) I was just beginning to accept a faith at all. I think for myself awakening actually drew me further away from religion. Though that's probably just me being my odd self when it comes to those types of things.

And, ahh yes, Anne Rice and Twilight, nice books. Bad realistic image for vampires lol

FangedWriter Wrote:Welcome Sheogorath!

The whole awakening process is quite interesting as an atheist. At the time when I first realized I was a vampire, I was still atheist at the time. When I first decided to use the term Guardian for myself as well (something akin to angel without going into a long explanation) I was just beginning to accept a faith at all. I think for myself awakening actually drew me further away from religion. Though that's probably just me being my odd self when it comes to those types of things.

And, ahh yes, Anne Rice and Twilight, nice books. Bad realistic image for vampires lol

Yeah, it's definitely interesting I'll say that much. I've changed a few views in the last few years I had that I thought would never change. Figures just when I think I've got a few things figured out the world throws a curve ball. Also, I loved the Anne Rice series, I only read the twilight series recently because my friends said I reminded them of Edward cause I could read their mind or something. I just picked up on their emotions and pieced together what was going on via logic...but if i told them that I think they'd call the men with the clean white coats...

Deja vu, we have it. ^^ nice to see you over here too!

-Svanni

Hello again!

Hey guys nice to see you both here as well. <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> I'm just trying to make my way around the kin community I figured I'd get in touch with other like minded people once I finally have a bit of my own mind worked out on the topic.

Too much to read... welcome, though, Sheo.

Well don't you get around <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_razz.gif" alt=":P" title="Razz" /><!-- s --> Welcome here too.

Deros Wrote:Too much to read... welcome, though, Sheo.

Mmm it's not really that much.

Also hey Sera, are you on all the boards? <!-- s:lol: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_lol.gif" alt=":lol:" title="Laughing" /><!-- s:lol: -->

welcome to okp! please read the rules and enjoy your day. <!-- s:twisted: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":twisted:" title="Twisted Evil" /><!-- s:twisted: -->
(i never say that anyway... i just assume people read the rules, and if not, i'll feed them to bob the fluff.)

uhm, seriously. i'm not on trueform but i should probably look at it as many new people seem to come from there.

i know what it's like not to believe in all that "energy stuff" and then suddenly everything changes... for me, it was a shaman/alternative healer/wise woman/whatever you may call her who managed to do things i just couldn't explain scientifically.

looking forward to talking to you here!