Nathaniel, the Charleston Incubus.
I'm lazy, if your a member of Trueform you've probably already read this...
A pleasure to meet you all. As you may have gathered my name is Nathaniel, I live in Charleston South Carolina, a beautiful old town with lots of gorgeous artwork, architecture and history. You also may have guessed I'm an Incubus. I don't see myself as a Vampire, the word is nice, gives nice romantic ideas to it thanks to the likes of Anne Rice and The Twilight Series, but it doesn't really resonate within me. Incubus and Demon on the other hand does quite nicely.
No I don't rape people (There seems to be a misconception about that) although I can get rough at times if the girl likes it like that. Seduction is far more fun anyway.
It's a pleasure to be here, my name is taken from that of the Madgod Sheogorath of a video game called Oblivion. I'm a gamer as well...I don't really think I'm a nerd I mean I suppose I am a bit but then I don't think anyone who's interesting fits into one single category of "who you are". I think that people, at least the interesting ones such as myself and probably some of you are a bit more complex than that.
I cam to the conclusion that I was what I claim to be through a very, very long drawn out process. I'm an atheist, so you can imagine the kind of denial I actually went through....
It started about 2 years ago, I realized I was picking up other peoples emotions. I figured this out by doing single-blind tests actually. I asked a non-suspecting person if they were feeling emotion-X. Just friends and the like, then random people in malls and what not who I knew only in passing. So I noticed that first. I then realized that I felt differently when I flirted with/teased/kissed/aroused others I kept getting these mental images of me breathing in colored smoke without actually meaning to bring these images up when I did it.
Depending on the amount of arousal there was more "smoke" if you will that showed up in these mental images. I noticed that when I fed on this (at the time I didn't call it feeding) that my senses became more acute. I could see colors better, everything just seemed dull before and things became more alive. My empathy also got stronger when I fed. However I don't think I need to feed. I think the best way I could describe the idea of feeding as lust and amusement all wrapped up in a nice seductive half smile.
So I began doing research I came to the conclusion that I was feeding on this specific tantric energy. Again as an atheist and someone who believes in science and logic I did quite alot of testing and research because I didn't want to think I was going crazy. So eventually I found out about otherkin. Since then I've developed a few other things that I can do, mostly energy manipulation and a kind of telepathy that deals with implanting suggestions and the like which helps me with the whole arousal, seduction and feeding process. I didn't classify myself as a vampire because it didn't feel right. Demonkin just responds better to something in me, so that is my reasoning for classifying myself as such. The whole process wasn't nearly as interesting as I thought. I'd figure something out and I'd get the strangest sensation like I was just remembering something I had forgotten. It took the thrill out of it in a way...
Now I get to test if I don't have to feed or not. My girlfriends going away for the holidays for about 2 weeks. It's been about 3 days in and colors are already starting to dull slightly *sigh* It's actually not going as well as I'd hoped. It's been nearly a week and I'm starting to have "withdrawal" if you will...
Thanks for listening to my introduction, I've already read the forum rules and the like so the mods will need to think up something better to say than "Hey welcome read the rules and enjoy your day" It's repetitive and boring those kinds of welcomes and I get them alot on various forums so I thought I'd make a preemptive strike if you will.
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