This isn't quite an otherkin thing, but I imagine a lot of people here can relate.
I've never liked my name or considered it "me".
My old name I've mostly stopped using. I hated hearing other people say it. It's uncommon in the U.S., so people tend to mispronounce it or ask me how to say it or look down at it it written somewhere & panic because they can't read it. And it was a religious name & I have a bad history with religion.
I use my middle name now, but it's still not my top choice. It's more convenient, but it's not my name
(My username here is just a made up sound, I make up random names on the internet.)
I know people say you can choose any name you want, but that's not true. If you pick a name that people decide doesn't fit you, people get upset. I don't fit with any particular ethnicity, so any name I could pick would get labeled either "cultural appropriation" or "trying to fit in with everybody else" or both.
I hate saying my name & I hate it when people ask. I wish I didn't have to have a name. It bothers me a lot.
(If anyone's curious what my PFP is, I had a dream I saw mother nature once & she looked like this.)