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Naida
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Hello, my name is Naida (it's the name I go by, but it's not my birth name, which is Athena. I just don't like to go by that name because I was named after someone I don't relate to or respect...) I am a mother of a two-year-old and currently unemployed. I am in the middle of a divorce and having a fairly terrible time with life right now. I know there are others in worse situations so I try not to be exceedingly depressing. I have known of the Kindred since I was 15 and have felt out of place my entire life. When I say this I'm not exaggerating. My memories start when I was 5 years old and since then I have been avoided by others despite my desire to make friends. I spent most afternoons crying when I got home from school. This continued through college though I've picked up a few nice people along the way that I call friends and obviously had a serious enough relationship to have a child and be married. Unfortunately marriage wasn't for my husband and he left me. I was a homemaker so I had no income and had to move in with friends. I didn't really address the notion that I might be Otherkin until I mentioned the way I've felt to a close friend and he told me that I might be different from others when it comes to my soul. I spent a year and an half digging through my own inner workings, trying to figure out what - if anything - I am. I came to a conclusion about 6 months ago that I'm not sure about anymore and I feel more lost than ever. It's as if I'm standing in a huge room and there's a mirror there in an unbreakable case and it's covered with tulle. I can make out that I have a reflection, I just don't recognize myself anymore.

I'm sorry I've rambled on, I probably should have looked at the other introductions before writing this to get an idea of how long these should be. I suppose if you want to know random things about me (favorite color, food, interests outside the ones shown on my profile, etc.) just PM or e-mail me. Thank you for taking the time to read all of this if you have and if you haven't I'm sorry I made it so long. >.<
2008-10-21 1:29
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Intros vary in length, so you don't have to worry about that. Welcome to the site. I hope you have a good time here.

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2008-10-21 2:07
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Well it seems like you've got a rough situation Naida, I hope however that this place can be an area devoid of stress for you.

Welcome to the forum, may you find a great many friendly faces and helping hands while you are here.

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2008-10-21 2:21
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Welcome <!-- sSmile --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- sSmile --> While none of us can tell you what you are (obviously) you're more than welcome to bounce ideas off of us, ask about our own experiences, and ask whatever questions you have (just use the search feature to make sure the thread doesn't already exist).

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2008-10-21 3:16
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Hi there, Naida. Sorry you're having a rough time right now, I hope you can enjoy it here at OKP.


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2008-10-21 10:06
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Salutations
I hope the situation works out in your favor
along with that this site (or others like it) help to alleviate the weight of the kin stuff so it's less of a hindrance when dealing with everything else going on.

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2008-10-21 13:08
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Hello Naida. I'm sorry about yout current situation. I really hope you can get something good from it, as I believe we always can!
I wish you can learn more about youself around here, and that you find something to give you strenght inside. I'm quite new here too, but I think I can already bid you welcome!!

And don't worry about the long intro... I did the same thing. I think mine was even longer than yours, hahaha...

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2008-10-22 4:58
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Thank you all for the warm welcome. I've never felt like a part of something bigger than myself. My grandparents weren't overly religious so I never had religion to turn to and help me. Not that I mind that now, but I always wondered what the feeling of community and family would be like. I was fairly isolated from most of my family after a death, so being a part of this community is very new to me. Please bear with me while I overcome my shyness and "pop" my personal bubble to let others in. It's hard for me in new situations, but I've been told once my shyness is gone people can't get me to shut up about anything. So please accept my apologies now for anything horrible I may do later that I probably won't realize I'm doing!
2008-10-23 2:07
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I hope that you are able to find what you seek here.

Welcome

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2008-10-23 3:07
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Welcome to the forum, Naida!

You said that you thought you knew what kind of kin you are, but now that's in doubt.

I'd look at it another way. You have, somewhere, a series of questions - things like "Why don't I feel at home anywhere?" or "Why is there another voice in my head?" or "Why does my body feel like it should be wolf-shaped?"

You might not have actually formed those questions into words, but they're there, somewhere.

You initial idea of kintype was your first attempt to answer those questions. Maybe you have another question that your idea didn't answer. Maybe you looked at your idea and realised that it was a leap from the questions, a guess rather than a deduction. Maybe this was all subconscious and so you just became aware that your answer was not a good fit; its shape was not quite the same as your own identity and so you felt uncomfortable.

My advice to you would be to work out what those questions are, and try to answer them. Look at them together and in isolation. Don't worry about "Am I otherkin?" - that's not one of the questions that brought you here in the first place. Look at the questions about you, think how to answer them, and look at your answers. If some things feel faded and not solid in your mind any more, look at them too - look at them especially closely in fact, because the chances are you pushed them away for a reason.

Question and answer, question and answer. And the first part is always finding the questions.

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