Hello,
I know it's been a long time since I've posted. It's kind of nice to have different places online to post, though. Basically this post is about a couple of things, neither of which should take long to summarize:
1) People in the otherkin community who get under your skin because of their humanness
2) Inhabiting a liminal space where the term "otherkin" doesn't quite fit, but neither does much else.
As for 1), I'm posting about this here instead of where it happened in order to protect the person who I'm angry at from my anger. This one was talking about how they had noticed that a lot of 'kin had disclosed mental conditions going on and hypothesized that these 'kin may say this because they want to evade responsibility for their actions. I didn't write this, probably am not going to write this; but I'm like, that's not the reason I disclose that I have a mental illness. I disclose that because it impacts all aspects of my life, and when I'm trying to get to the core of why I am how I am, the illness angle needs to be honestly disclosed, at least to myself. I'm "out" about it online because it would be too much effort to try and keep it closeted, and I wouldn't be able to talk honestly about what I'm going through without disclosing it, anyway.
But I've probably been on that forum too much. I've noticed that there are a larger number of people there who fall into categories which in Ethnic Studies classes would be called (relatively) "privileged." That is, there are people who speak from the position of one who doesn't have to deal with a problem, about those who do have to deal with that problem, in an insensitive fashion. Like males talking badly about abortion. Or seemingly mentally-healthy individuals talking badly about the mentally ill. Or seemingly healthy individuals talking badly about people who need health insurance to survive. It's a good thing that those are the only examples I can pull off the top of my head, but ...not all forums are the same, yes? I'm thinking about coming back here to kick it up with Edge, Sera, Eli, and the new folk. <!-- s

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Frankly, as well; I've come to the point of thinking that a lot of the flaws which I see in people, I see in a lot of otherkin. That is, I don't really see myself as misanthropic, but there is a strong element of humanity in a lot of 'kin which really irritates me -- at least so when those same 'kin disown humanity. This bridges into 2), which basically means that...well, let's see. I've gotten to the point in my journey of releasing this kind of bent that says that I have to in some way be nonhuman in order to make sense of myself. I've been talking about my own plurality elsewhere and have gotten to the point of thinking that, even though I don't have a strongly "human" identity, I usually don't have a strong identity as anything else, either.
I mean, I do still identify as a spirit, and that's where I'm resting at the moment. I know what "human" feels like because two of the spirits I deal with do have human histories. And I suppose I have a human history as well. That doesn't mean I like that history, but it's there. I do have capabilities because of being in a human form, which is the reasoning I use to explain my own spiritual role in this life -- I play a part that a disembodied spirit can't. I can physically change things from idea to reality, even though this is still a process that is scary to me. But that, I feel, is a really big life calling for me, and likely the reason I am still human.
I've kind of stepped away from the shapeshifter identity a bit since I was last here. At this point, I'm taking things more seriously as just ...symptoms of being psychically sensitive. That is, it's likely that I'm not a shapeshifter, but an untrained medium. I've gotten to the point where my spirits have been able to show me that the intrapsychic does have some bearing on reality -- that is, that the spirits I communicate with may be simultaneously both real and projections of my own energy, at the same time. It may take some time to explain this, so I won't do so right now...but ...it makes things make more sense (even as I have to remember that just because something was thought, doesn't mean it is true). It's a fine line to walk; I basically have to tell the difference between my brain sending me brain-fry signals because of my illness and creativity, and actually feeling things to be true in some other way beyond what the physical is telling me.
Well, if anyone wants to talk, I'll try and remember to come back to this site over the next week, at least. I should probably end with some comment-provoking thought, right? <!-- s

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Hmm. How about:
Do you have a sense of why it is that you're physically human in this life?
Has anyone else noticed that a lot of otherkin are human in annoying ways? <!-- s

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