Introduction.

Hello all, I'm Lindiel. I've been a member of Werelist for several years under the same name, but figured it might be time to try to branch out again. I'm prone to lurking, though, so we'll see how that goes.

So, a little about myself: I'm a celestial polymorphic energy being, or "angel" for simplicity's sake. For whatever reason, I also tend to identify as feline and my "preferred form" reflects that; for a long time I thought I was simply a domestic cat therian. I experience phantom limbs on occasion, the most common being my wings or assorted animal parts (ears, tail, claws, etc.).

I sit on the fence about whether I ascribe to a psychological, spiritual, or some other explanation for my identity. Some days I lean more towards one explanation than another, but for the most part it's fairly up in the air. I also tend to doubt myself, my identity, and my experiences a whole bunch, so some days I just think I'm crazy or that I've effectively placebo-ed my way into this.

So, yeah. I can't quite think of anything else to add, but I'm always up for answering questions if you've got any.

Welcome <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> It's good to see people joining from other places.

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Because I'm curious, and my memory's not the greatest, how'd you reach the conclusion that you were a type of celestial polymorph?

Please enjoy your stay!

~ Arawn

Welcome here Lindiel! Welcome here.

- Aquasarius

Thanks, guys!

Annwyn Wrote:Because I'm curious, and my memory's not the greatest, how'd you reach the conclusion that you were a type of celestial polymorph?

The catalyst would have to have been the sudden appearance of my phantom wings. When they didn't fade as quickly as my other phantom bits often do, it threw me into a bit of a personal crisis. There was much introspection on just how purely "animal" I felt and on how "human" I felt and how all the pieces might fit together. Then, after speaking with other angelkin and realizing how eerily similar my experiences tended to line up, there was much pouting and trying to convince myself that I wasn't something as ridiculous and fluffy as an angel. Then there was resignation to keep the term for as long as it seemed to fit or until I found the right one. That was all just slightly under three years ago, and I haven't really found a better term yet.

In my understanding, angels = celestial energy beings. In my gnosis, we'd all technically be polymorphs since we don't have a set physical form. Before reaching this conclusion, I'd just always assumed that I was a very impressionable person with a strong imagination which led to convincing cameo shifts. All of the forms still felt like me, though, and "polymorph" is much easier to say. XP

Welcome to OKP! Glad you found your way over here!

Lindiel Wrote:I also tend to doubt myself, my identity, and my experiences a whole bunch, so some days I just think I'm crazy or that I've effectively placebo-ed my way into this.

Don't we all? <!-- s:roll: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_rolleyes.gif" alt=":roll:" title="Rolling Eyes" /><!-- s:roll: -->

Elinox Wrote:Welcome to OKP! Glad you found your way over here!

Lindiel Wrote:I also tend to doubt myself, my identity, and my experiences a whole bunch, so some days I just think I'm crazy or that I've effectively placebo-ed my way into this.

Don't we all? <!-- s:roll: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_rolleyes.gif" alt=":roll:" title="Rolling Eyes" /><!-- s:roll: -->

QFT. <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- s --> Welcome!