Shainin and Seraphyna,
Thank you for your welcomes! I was definitely not asking for anyone to tell me who I am, I've had enough of that in one lifetime. <!-- s

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--> I was, as you both suggested, looking for some guidance to better understand what people mean by all this stuff and what to do with it. And I try to avoid being delusional like the plague, and perhaps doubt TOO MUCH, as one of my partners has said in the past.
As to Shainin's questions about vampirism...The reason I have someone (a couple someones, actually) telling me I'm a sexual/tantric vampire is a lot of the same things you are implying in your questioning. I do feel more stressed and very moody when not having regular sex. Granted, lots of people feel this way, but sex and sensuality will immediately make me "right." When I have sex everything boosts up. But whether that's unresolved confidence and self-esteem issues or a feeding, I have no idea. The thing is, I'm not low "energy." I actually have ample energy; more than enough energy, actually. Want some energy? I have lots to spare, I'll make more. So it's not an issue of feeding, more an issue of aligning. And as someone who is a sex positive healer/counselor, those that I have sex with, especially clinically, don't get tired out but essentially I ATTEMPT to raise/align their own energy...so it's not feeding, if feeding is supposed to leave someone weaker. They may be TIRED, but that's something else entirely. Sex -- okay, intimacy and sensuality is more accurate, because sex just isn't genital stimulation -- for me is therapeutic massage for the heart and soul.
There have been times I haven't been as sexual. Granted, they were not great times for me. I decided to go without because I was having emotional issues (coming out, break-ups, deciding to focus on something else for a while, etc...), and nothing really changed. So, yeah, I feel in top form when I'm having regular sensual/sexual relationships with people. But I CAN go without it and just feel kind of grey, though that doesn't mean I lack energy or can't feel positive.
(As an aside, I used to tell people that "sex is like food to me," which I think is funny in the context of this thread. <!-- s

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So, sure, counselor maybe. Maybe I'm just trying REALLY HARD to not take the label "vampire." Not that I'm against it, I just don't know and I don't really FEEL that it's right. One of the last persons I donated to was a Kheprian, and they liked my energy a lot, it worked really well for their energy pickiness and it didn't leave me at all tired. They suggested something similar and actually turned me on to a lot of these boards and got me thinking more about this stuff. However, as I said, body-felt-sense is how I go about things, and it simply does not tug at my guts. But I'll check the other link, thank you!
Bring on the question forming help! <!-- s

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