Chordal Wrote:If you imagine yourself as just as bad as anyone who would confront you, it tends to even the psychological playing field. But then you're also left with...not feeling very good, essentially. Whenever I tap in to him, he's suffering. I can't hold him in pain all the time, it's not humane. He needs to be healed, even if that means losing our protector. And if taking away his capacity to be at peace (by not healing him) is what I'm doing, I am also essentially robbing Kage of an ability to self-define, which is, in my circle, robbing him of his humanity.
But how would I heal someone whose pains I can't even fully recall? (Maybe he could fully recall them?)
Without the pain, I wonder who he would be...
Right. I keep looking at this, at what we are seeing in underlying logic and keep going but why? I mean yes I can understand how being bad and nasty can give you an edge. I am not exactly noted for being kindness and light. But that is me and how I am. It isn't even that I can't be nice, just that most of the time I am not. I have come to terms with that, both sides of it really. With the fact that it may mean that people I don't give a damn about don't like me. But I don't suffer because of that. At times I do act as a protector but I am very selective as to whom I will protect. Us and ours. But if being all that bad is hurting him, he has two choices really. Come to terms with it or find a different way to be a protector. It really is that simple even if it is not that easy.
And it isn't like one needs to be worse than the worst out there to be a protector. War isn't. Really. One needs to be willing to act as needed when needed and live with the consequences. And if the actions you choose prevent harm then.....
And lastly I am not entirely sure to what extent you could heal him without his cooperation. But as for who he would be, he would be himself. Just a version that is not hindered by the wounds and the pain.