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Integrating Aspects?
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Integrating Aspects?
Okay, the title is horrible, I'm sorry. I couldn't think of anything else. If this is in the wrong place, please, by all means, move it.

I was wandering around in my mind a few weeks ago, just relaxing and "reading" (it's a giant library surrounded by white) when I turned and suddenly encountered a figure. I know who she is and how she is significant. For a little while I believed I may have had a second kin-type or angel/celestial. I don't, that was fantastical thinking, but that idea took shape within my mind and presented itself to me.

She speaks, she has two names she likes to go by (I'll call her Krynna, here), she has opinions, and she's becoming frighteningly close to a sociopathic aspect I locked away about five years ago. I believe she is co-conscious, just watching me, but she does have the ability to front.

My mind likes to personify issues and problems I have that I'm dealing with, or mysteries I'm solving. Krynna is just another one of these. In the past I have had a 100% success rate in either reintegrating these aspects or, in one case, imprisoning one. Maybe I'm just having issues laying this thing to rest, but Krynna's ever-independent personality will soon make it difficult to fully reintegrate and I will have to make another prison in my mind. They're not fun to make or maintain. Remember Karly.Unique's Nokomis? The first prisoner is someone like that, and I think Krynna has the potential to become the same. Why my aspects become sociopaths, I don't know.

Does anyone have any experiences like this or advice? I feel confident in my ability to stay in control of everything (I'm so very good at it), but I'd rather not have to things the dirty way.

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2009-07-29 4:22
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Hmmn. My first suggestion is probably one you won't like... Have you seen a professional about the fact that you tend to have sociopathic feelings?

Second one... Claim it. You're already treating this aspect like a separate individual. You need to claim it as yourself, and claim those feelings as belonging fully to you, and then disperse them. I'd go back to that library, conjure it up, verbally claim everything as being YOU and then dissolve the manifestation. It is your mindscape. Your will is its foundation. Stop giving a pronoun to a piece of your mind. And then work to figure out why your subconscious is collecting a lot of negative aspects of itself into a construct. Are you afraid of negative, sometimes even violent emotions? Worried you won't be able to control them? Or is there something wrong that your subconscious is trying to show you?
2009-07-29 15:46
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Shiari Wrote:Hmmn. My first suggestion is probably one you won't like... Have you seen a professional about the fact that you tend to have sociopathic feelings?

Yes, I have a history of mental illness so I keep in touch with a therapist. He's given me similar advice to yours below.

Shiari Wrote:Second one... Claim it. You're already treating this aspect like a separate individual. You need to claim it as yourself, and claim those feelings as belonging fully to you, and then disperse them. I'd go back to that library, conjure it up, verbally claim everything as being YOU and then dissolve the manifestation. It is your mindscape. Your will is its foundation. Stop giving a pronoun to a piece of your mind. And then work to figure out why your subconscious is collecting a lot of negative aspects of itself into a construct. Are you afraid of negative, sometimes even violent emotions? Worried you won't be able to control them? Or is there something wrong that your subconscious is trying to show you?

I, for some reason, hadn't thought of your "claim it" idea, but I have been doing the latter. I will definitely work on combining the two from now on. Thanks.


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2009-07-29 16:40
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I had a similar problem. One of my more dominant multiples went through an experience that was somewhat traumatic for her, and it had a very negative impact. When her friends began to yell at her for holding onto the event, it just became worse, because in her mind, it was an incredibly painful thing, yet to them, it was simply another thing to get over.

I, as a person, have an incredibly hard time forgetting things because I feel that nothing is worth forgetting. From the pressure of others and her own torment, the "desire to forget" was eventually made manifest.

What did it do? Well, it touched memories (seen as bundles of lighted threads that, upon being touched, would go dark), and I would lose them. Information associated with her couldn't be concentrated on or it would cause strain and headaches, and memories she touched seemed to disappear altogether. It was an incredibly pressing time.

I got rid of her by facing what the problem was -- she existed because of trauma, and so, to remove her, I had to remove the trauma associated with her. After I did, she simply reintegrated and all was well (except, maybe, I might have a bit more control over my memories -- a definite plus). If something has a purpose like that, locking it up never does any good, and you're just fooling yourself if you think it'll go away if you do.

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2009-07-29 17:59
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I "claimed her" in my own special way. I wrote it out, both on a Word document and on a book in my mind-library. I wrote the whole story out, as well as my actions at the time. I bound her into the book, then put it away in a room specifically for "books" like hers. It's locked and everything, but I intend to mentally burn it later tonight when can concentrate enough and have alone time.
Only time will tell if it worked, but I think it did, and this is a case of mind of matter, in a way. I'll let you know how it goes? Thanks for the help.

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2009-07-30 0:00
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Don't we all have some creepy ideas sometimes? I mean, I have thoughts every now in which I plot out a random murder for the hell of it. I feel emotionless at these times and I have vivid mental pictures of before/during/after, but thats as far as it goes, because I know what right and wrong are (well, at least for the obvious things like killing for pleasure/selfish benefit or stealing from small local well-run businesses >I'm a little iffy on places like Wal-mart... but that can be discussed elsewhere <!-- sTongue --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_razz.gif" alt=":P" title="Razz" /><!-- sTongue --><). It's just a state of my own mind, the opposite of the one in which I cry when I catch sight of the obituaries/watch old yeller.

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2009-07-31 3:36
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Yes, some intrusive thoughts are normal - the most common ones are of extreme violence or inappropriate sexual behaviour (or both, together). It's a problem when those thoughts become overwhelming, or those thoughts cause the person to be uncomfortable . . . or if the person acts out those thoughts.

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Shiari Wrote:Hmmn. My first suggestion is probably one you won't like... Have you seen a professional about the fact that you tend to have sociopathic feelings?

Everybody has a dark side. I fought a major war with my dark side once, and won. But even now, images occasionally come into my mind from that part of myself, images like pushing people - even people I love - down stairs or stabbing someone in the eye. They used to scare me, but they happen infrequently now, and feel almost like echoes when they *do* appear. I've figured out it's my dark side weakly trying to feel important or powerful. It's like the feeble talk of a once-dangerous criminal who is not only in prison but is quadriplegic to boot, and has no friends either inside or outside. It's gone from terrifying to merely annoying. If the OP has a similar aspect, well, I wish them luck. If they're having problems containing that aspect, I agree they might want to get some therapy to help them out. But just *having* such an aspect is no big deal - everyone has one.

Shiari Wrote:Second one... Claim it. You're already treating this aspect like a separate individual. You need to claim it as yourself, and claim those feelings as belonging fully to you, and then disperse them. I'd go back to that library, conjure it up, verbally claim everything as being YOU and then dissolve the manifestation. It is your mindscape. Your will is its foundation. Stop giving a pronoun to a piece of your mind. And then work to figure out why your subconscious is collecting a lot of negative aspects of itself into a construct. Are you afraid of negative, sometimes even violent emotions? Worried you won't be able to control them? Or is there something wrong that your subconscious is trying to show you?

Integration isn't necessarily necessary. My own dark side is still its own individual, but is a pitiful weakling now, and is well contained.

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