Re: Hi! *shy wave*
Welcome to the board!
Please don't take any questions or alternate explanations personally; they're meant to help us understand and you come to well-supported conclusions about what you are, not to hassle or discredit.
As far as vampirism goes, whether you're a vampire or vampiric, I recommend the Foundations book here: <!-- m --><a class="postlink" href="http://www.kherete.org/downloads.php">http://www.kherete.org/downloads.php</a><!-- m --> - it talks a bit about how to determine which you are, energy work from a vampiric perspective, etc.
"All knowledge is worth having." -Phedre no Delaunay
"Everything has a price." -Jaenelle Angelline
"I think if you try, that's being your best." -Echo