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I was definitely VERY social: I have always preferred to be with another person rather than not, I get lonely
very easily and people who are angry at me, even just a little, either makes me angry as well, makes me panicky, even though I know that it will pass.
I was definitely a predator: I'm more fight than flight by nature (I loved no-rules soccer and other more violent childhood games), I practically
absorbed vampire novels and
lived on Amelia Atwater Rhodese's forum when I was thirteen-fourteen, and I had this annoying habit of stalking our cattle herd (I
try not too, it's just so much fun! <!-- s:oops: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" title="Embarrassed" /><!-- s:oops: --> ). I knew I wasn't a vampire because I had no
need for blood and because there was something about it that just didn't seem right. Whenever I wrote stories of my own the vampires would be shapeshifters.
So somewhere along this line I was introduced to Kelley Armstrong and I took an interest in the werewolves. I day-dreamed about belonging to a pack, about running through the woods, hunting, etc.... It was more than my vampire obsession, this one felt integral, like a part of me in a way that I could not explain. So I spent hours researching wiccan shapeshifting spells, astral-projection/lucid-dreaming (neither of which I have ever managed at all <!-- s

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That stopped all my other research for at least a month, which I spent reading and re-reading posts from months back. I started out half-playing on the board, and, since I like to be different, I decided I would be a hawk, not one of the massive wolf population. Well, that didn't work, because I started finding that I had things to say that were very not-a-hawk, such as standing on the balls of my feet, wanting to run around on all fours, wanting to howl back at the coyotes (which I've done since I was a kid), and the afore-mentioned cattle-stalking. I slowly realized that this was feeling less like play and more like reality, so I decided I must
actually be a therian. So I went back to my wolf research and re-read. I analyzed my phantom shifts, and discovered I had a muzzle and I had ears on the top of my head (only recently have I finally had a phantom tail, don't know why :/ ). So I re-registered (I was too embarassed to admit my mistake <!-- s

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But a year or two later I read Richard Dawkins "The God Delusion" and dismissed everything spirit-related or not scientifically proven. Long story short, no matter how I tried I couldn’t explain myself to myself in any other way, so after a period of severe depression I came back into the community as a wolf because it makes sense to me that I am one. It doesn’t make sense how I am part wolf, but I can’t deny what I am.
Is that good? Sorry for the essay-answer!