Hi!

Hi1 I'm a wolf syntherian from Manitoba, Canada. Somebody mentioned this forum on another forum and I thought it would be nice to get a wider view. I've known about the idea of therianthropy since I was fifteen, but I've felt 'wolfie' for as long as I remember.

I am 19 and am working at becoming a fiction writer.

a wolf Wrote:Hi1 I'm a wolf syntherian from Manitoba, Canada. Somebody mentioned this forum on another forum and I thought it would be nice to get a wider view. I've known about the idea of therianthropy since I was fifteen, but I've felt 'wolfie' for as long as I remember.

I am 19 and am working at becoming a fiction writer.

Yeah, that somebody would be me. <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- s -->

Welcome to OKP! Before Sera asks, let me start the conversation by asking, what makes you think you're a wolf therian?

Hello! I'm 19 and working on my writing too, but I've see you around werelist. ^__^ I second Elinox's question.

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Salutations

Welcome <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> Elinox stole my question *sniffle*

Lol, well I gave a long enough answer for all three methinks <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_razz.gif" alt=":P" title="Razz" /><!-- s --> I find it hard to summarize b/c it was kind of a building consciousness <!-- s:roll: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_rolleyes.gif" alt=":roll:" title="Rolling Eyes" /><!-- s:roll: --> I don't decide things quickly or without taking the most indirect route <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_razz.gif" alt=":P" title="Razz" /><!-- s --> Enjoy <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" title="Very Happy" /><!-- s -->

I was definitely VERY social: I have always preferred to be with another person rather than not, I get lonely very easily and people who are angry at me, even just a little, either makes me angry as well, makes me panicky, even though I know that it will pass.

I was definitely a predator: I'm more fight than flight by nature (I loved no-rules soccer and other more violent childhood games), I practically absorbed vampire novels and lived on Amelia Atwater Rhodese's forum when I was thirteen-fourteen, and I had this annoying habit of stalking our cattle herd (I try not too, it's just so much fun! <!-- s:oops: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" title="Embarrassed" /><!-- s:oops: --> ). I knew I wasn't a vampire because I had no need for blood and because there was something about it that just didn't seem right. Whenever I wrote stories of my own the vampires would be shapeshifters.

So somewhere along this line I was introduced to Kelley Armstrong and I took an interest in the werewolves. I day-dreamed about belonging to a pack, about running through the woods, hunting, etc.... It was more than my vampire obsession, this one felt integral, like a part of me in a way that I could not explain. So I spent hours researching wiccan shapeshifting spells, astral-projection/lucid-dreaming (neither of which I have ever managed at all <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_sad.gif" alt=":(" title="Sad" /><!-- s --> ), wolf behavior and so on, until I ran across Boomshift forum.

That stopped all my other research for at least a month, which I spent reading and re-reading posts from months back. I started out half-playing on the board, and, since I like to be different, I decided I would be a hawk, not one of the massive wolf population. Well, that didn't work, because I started finding that I had things to say that were very not-a-hawk, such as standing on the balls of my feet, wanting to run around on all fours, wanting to howl back at the coyotes (which I've done since I was a kid), and the afore-mentioned cattle-stalking. I slowly realized that this was feeling less like play and more like reality, so I decided I must actually be a therian. So I went back to my wolf research and re-read. I analyzed my phantom shifts, and discovered I had a muzzle and I had ears on the top of my head (only recently have I finally had a phantom tail, don't know why :/ ). So I re-registered (I was too embarassed to admit my mistake <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_razz.gif" alt=":P" title="Razz" /><!-- s -->) as a wolf.

But a year or two later I read Richard Dawkins "The God Delusion" and dismissed everything spirit-related or not scientifically proven. Long story short, no matter how I tried I couldn’t explain myself to myself in any other way, so after a period of severe depression I came back into the community as a wolf because it makes sense to me that I am one. It doesn’t make sense how I am part wolf, but I can’t deny what I am.

Is that good? Sorry for the essay-answer!

No need to appologize for you post. Perhaps you will be able to figure out how you are a wolf. Anyway welcome to the forums. I hope you enjoy your stay.


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