Archer Wrote:-your body feels overwhelming/foreign (but what does this mean? You said it's particularly noticable when you bleed. What else causes this feeling? Is it a feeling that your body is the wrong shape, that you shouldn't have a body at all, or that you aren't really "in" your body - or something else?)
Bleeding draws my attention to my body... I got this feeling like I shouldn't be able to bleed, something about it doesn't click. Then I am either intrigued by the bleeding, or I have gotten a feeling where, it just "feels wrong," and I was sickened by it, and everything about having a body felt wrong. As a human, my body does feel like it is the wrong shape, but that is something unrelated to this. When I feel like this, it feels as though I shouldn't have a body, and I am still very much in my body, much to my dismay when it got really bad.
Archer Wrote:-human emotions don't make sense to you (again - does this mean that you don't feel emotions, that you feel them but don't get led by them, that you don't understand why certain situations cause certain emotions, that you've never been scared - or something else? How does formerly being empathic relate to this?)
To me, it seems that someone who is empathic should have at least a decent grasp of emotions, but maybe I'm wrong. I can and do feel emotions, though they tend to stay away from the extremes. There have been quite more than a few times where it would seem that a person should feel a general particular way in a certain situation and I don't feel anything at all, but I have still proven capable of experiencing emotion. I have a problem being able to explain how I feel emotion wise, I don't understand them within myself so much beyond "my body is behaving X way that is indicative of X emotion, so I am probably experiencing X emotion." Emotions in other people, I can generally still tell what they are feeling, but I don't understand why they are feeling it, I may understand, at least somewhat, from a logical standpoint, but I still don't fully get it.
Archer Wrote:Why all the questions? Well, simple. "My body feels alien and I don't understand emotions" is really, really general. It could mean that you feel like you should have a tail and you've never been in love . . . or it could mean that sensory perception is completely baffling and you have no conscious awareness of your own reactions . . . or it could mean something completely different. It could mean that you're a totally normal human who finds some of life confusing, or it could mean you're actually a sentient smell from another universe, or it could mean something else entirely (or nothing at all).
So rather than just leaving it at the very vague feelings of body-wrongness and difficulty with emotion, I'd like to understand what you really experience.
Questions are fine, I just misunderstood and had the impression that you hadn't fully read what I initially wrote, but I was wrong. It's okay. <!-- s

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My body feeling alien... is a feeling like I shouldn't really have one, yes that is vague, I just don't know really a better way of putting it. <!-- s

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Sensory perception isn't completely baffling to me, it is the thing that I actually enjoy about having a body, it's what brings me the most fascination. I wouldn't call it baffling, it's more along the lines of a new experience. I love being able to see what something feels like, what something smells like, provided of course that it isn't something completely disgusting.
I do understand that there is a possibility that I may be nothing other than a human, but that still wouldn't change the fact that I don't feel human. Does that make sense?
~Raine