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The Basics:
Name: Nic/Nicole
Age: 24
Location: Saskatchewan, Canada but moving to Calgary, Alberta, Canada hopefully in April
Gender: Gender-fluid female/female-slanted androgynous
Sexuality: Lesbian, somewhat bi-curious
Spirituality: In progress
Kin side: Anthropomorphic black panther
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The Details:
Kin:
My 'Kinness is somewhat difficult for me to explain. Since childhood, I've had a phantom tail, although once I was old enough to realize, 'hey, other people don't have body parts that nobody can see' I pushed it to the back of my mind, pretty much ignored it. Stumbled onto OKC 14 months ago, had a couple SHAZAM! moments, and now I'm pretty chill about it all. Basically, my 'Kin side is an anthropomorphic blank panther. I'd actually been thinking it was a leopard, but upon closer examination and a couple small shazammy moments while chatting with Stray, I realized it's a lot closer to jaguar than leopard. Or hell, it could be neither, who knows? I mean, it's not like we have anthrocats wandering around, right? But jaguar is the one I relate closer to, rather than leopard. Which... kinda sucks, 'cuz I like leopards better LOL
Awakening:
For as long as I can remember, I've felt I wasn't human. When I was little, I used to think I was an alien. I felt like a cat of some kind, but it didn't occur to me that I could be an animal or part-animal. I just knew of humans and aliens (my mom and brother and I watched Star Trek together... LOL) and I figured, well, I definitely wasn't human, so I must be an alien. As I got older, I realized how impossible that was, in a physical sense, so then I toyed with the idea that I was simply adopted. Which, if you could see me and my mom together, you'd know that's not the case LOL I look just like her. Although, despite knowing otherwise in a completely logical sense, I always felt like I was something that the rest of my family (and the rest of the people I knew, really) wasn't. About two years ago, I discovered psi-vampirism, and then I figured that's what I was, although it always felt wrong, somehow. But, I latched onto it, because I needed to know that I wasn't fully human, and that was the only thing I'd heard of that made sense. Probably helped that I do have some psi-vamp tendencies. Anyway, so just over a year ago, I was looking up psi-vamp related things, and stumbled upon the concept of otherkin. After a bit of looking around, I kinda had a "HOLY CRAP IT'S ME!" moment LOL
So, long story short, I knew I was something no-human when I was young (7 or earlier) but I didn't figure out
what until I was 23.
Spirituality:
I grew up in a fundamentalist Christian home, and up until about 2 days ago, considered myself Christian. Now I don't know. I don't question whether there is a God, I've experienced Him/Her/It/Them, but I do question the portrayal of God in the Bible. I've realized that, had I not grown up Christian, it's not a belief I would have chosen, myself. I also have been doing some research on it, and after finding things that have conflicted or been proven wrong, I now feel that I can't trust anything in the Bible to be true, so I'm now searching for my own truth. Or rather, the truth and my own interpretation of it.
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