Hello :3

Hello, my name is [neverhadarose] but you can call me Aimee. I have been awakening now for about a year and believe i might be fallen angel, not sure though. I feel big black, feathered, phantom wings. I feel pretty normal in my human body and have had moer than my share of ghost apperances. I have big dreams that exceed this small town i live in now and dream to be a singer someday. My power animal is a bear and i will try and answer any questions the best i can.

~Aimee

hello and welcome! <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s -->

Thank you. :3

Welcome <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> So why do you believe you're otherkin in the first place let alone possibly a fallen angel?

Well, i have always felt, even as a small child, that i wasn't really normal..I can't really explain it well. I have like this feeling inside me that tells me that i am not meant in this body, i am not meant to be like this. I am not very good at explaining it. I think i might be a fallen angel for a couple reasons:
-I feel big black feathered wings all the time.
-i have this odd feeling in churchs [i don't really know how to explain it other than i need run away]
-i have a hatred for lucifer.
-i have a desperate need to go home.

thats all i have for now.

Well, black wings doth not a fallen angel make let alone an angel make. Many beings that aren't angels have wings, and wings can be symbolic. Not all fallen angels have black wings and not all angels with black wings are fallen. In fact, since most angels are energetic, the color of one's wings are usually personal preference.

An odd feeling in churches...well that could be your body's reaction to the energy there. Not all fallen angels are at odds with their patron deity, just separated from it.

A hatred for Lucifer...well that just means you don't/didn't like him much. Since Lucifer is fallen, a hatred for him would not be what I'd expect from another fallen, but that's a personal preference thing. That would be like me saying "I hate so and so who's a demon therefore I must be an angel"...it's simply not indicative of anything other than you don't like someone.

Last and not least, a desperate need to go home. Many otherkin experience this from time to time, some constantly, some rarely ever or not at all. It is a longing for what was (well, what we believe was anyhow). Anything not of this earth will have a longing to "go home" so to speak. So, I'd personally view it as a "symptom" of believing you're otherkin rather than a "symptom" of a kintype.


Now, I'm not saying you're not a fallen angel-kin because only you can figure that out. What I *am* saying, however, is to gather personal evidence for being other and *then* seeing what version of other that might point to. It is a rather unhealthy process when you come up with a hypothesis and then try to fit every little thing to that hypothesis.

For example: I have charcoal grey wings that are often leathery. I'm far from a brighty lighty, I sometimes have a yearning to "go home," I have an occassional bloodlust (meaning the taste of it not a physical need for it) and onward it goes. I'm angel-kin...and not fallen.

Not everything is so clear cut <!-- s:lol: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_lol.gif" alt=":lol:" title="Laughing" /><!-- s:lol: -->

Yeah I am not really sure what I am... I am an empath abnd am super protective of a lot of people even if mutal friends. I have been known to take others problems apon myself and make them my problems. Because of this i have suffered depression and suicdal thoughts and an attempt at one point. I am better now and am working on trying to get this under control. Woww, i think i got a little off topic. Sorry.

Just remember, that a good rule is that if something can be explained via being human...that's your explanation. Empathy can be a bitch...as can any ability if you don't work with it enough, learn to shield, etc. I'd personally recommend getting the human stuff in order (namely the depression and suicidal thoughts) before worrying so much about the possible non-human stuff.

Yeah. I have learned to control that and when people are bugging me I learn to block them out. I have gotten over my depression with some consling and a lot of support from my friends and family. I have never tried again and am pretty happy now.

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