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Well, black wings doth not a fallen angel make let alone an angel make. Many beings that aren't angels have wings, and wings can be symbolic. Not all fallen angels have black wings and not all angels with black wings are fallen. In fact, since most angels are energetic, the color of one's wings are usually personal preference.
An odd feeling in churches...well that could be your body's reaction to the energy there. Not all fallen angels are at odds with their patron deity, just separated from it.
A hatred for Lucifer...well that just means you don't/didn't like him much. Since Lucifer is fallen, a hatred for him would not be what I'd expect from another fallen, but that's a personal preference thing. That would be like me saying "I hate so and so who's a demon therefore I must be an angel"...it's simply not indicative of anything other than you don't like someone.
Last and not least, a desperate need to go home. Many otherkin experience this from time to time, some constantly, some rarely ever or not at all. It is a longing for what was (well, what we believe was anyhow). Anything not of this earth will have a longing to "go home" so to speak. So, I'd personally view it as a "symptom" of believing you're otherkin rather than a "symptom" of a kintype.
Now, I'm not saying you're not a fallen angel-kin because only you can figure that out. What I *am* saying, however, is to gather personal evidence for being other and *then* seeing what version of other that might point to. It is a rather unhealthy process when you come up with a hypothesis and then try to fit every little thing to that hypothesis.
For example: I have charcoal grey wings that are often leathery. I'm far from a brighty lighty, I sometimes have a yearning to "go home," I have an occassional bloodlust (meaning the taste of it not a physical need for it) and onward it goes. I'm angel-kin...and not fallen.
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"All that is gold does not glitter, not all those who wander are lost."-Tolkien
"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."-Poe
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