Nice to meet you all. I'm a little bit shy and I don't know how to introduce myself. <!-- s:oops: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" title="Embarrassed" /><!-- s:oops: --> By the way, I should try in any case. So... let's do it. <!-- s

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My nickname, "Artificial Self ~", is the title of a story I'm writing these days.
I'm a girl, I'm 22 and I'm not english! And... my english is not very good, I guess.
I've found this forum some weeks ago and I've heard for the first time about Otherkins some weeks ago as well. But... it's strange to me to say it, but... the things I've read, I think there were things I knew from a long time. I was not surprised at all. They confirmed the things I've always thought about myself.
Starting from the time when I was 4, I was sure I was a demon. I've always felt it. Don't know how to explain, but I guess you're feeling me. <!-- s

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Growing up, some strange things happened to me. I was able to hear other peoples' thoughts, predict things that always happened ( I dreamed about peoples' deaths, especially ), or make other things happen.
At the age of 12, I was very angry with a girl, so I thought a thing like "Hope she breaks a leg, today". I'm happy I wasn't thinking about something worse at that moment, since that day I broke my left leg. When I was thinking of that 'curse' for the girl I hated, I was watching me at the mirror. Ahah, a little stupid. But I didn't know it was dangerous to do it, at that time...
This experience, though, scared me this much that I've tried to control myself in an excessive way. I've didn't do other magic very often. Sometimes, things happen as well, but I tried to convince myself that it couldn't be. That I was lying to myself, and that magic, and demons, couldn't exist...
Inside of my mind, of my heart, I said to myself that I was not ready to use magic again. I closed a door inside of my heart, and I opened it today. It's strange, but... I'm feeling again the sensation of a strong energy ( It's a sort of energy in recharge, and it grows every second that are passing ), sensation that I was trying to hide to myself.
Now I'm ready. And I'm glad to be here with you all, who could understand my feelings and experiences.
Obviously, I don't say I am a demon because only of magic. I was always fascinated from chaos and negativity, from death and pain, fear, despair. Don't know why. I'm not a sadist, I assure you. It's just... my way to be.
I change my appearance to be appreciated from other people, moreover. I have multiple identities, multiple personalities. I can talk to all of them as they were in front of me, as it was the most normal thing in the earth.
I can't feel guilty, but I'm a person that tends to return the favor. So I will be grateful to those who are kind to me, and take revenge on those who are not.
Every characteristic that I've read about demonkin suits me, and it didn't surprise me though. <!-- s:lol: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_lol.gif" alt=":lol:" title="Laughing" /><!-- s:lol: -->
I'm terribly honest about what I think, but at the same time, I am unable to relate to others without playing a part. I'm used to model myself as needed, managing to never lie, though. There are a lot of true version of truth ( Every one has their personal way to see life, in fact ), so I don't need to fake my feelings, I just need to choose the correct word and attitude to use at the moment to explain them to a specific person. The way they understand myself changes as I change my way to speek to them. Obviously.
By the way, I'm not popular or what. I have friends on the internet, but they're not "close friends". In real life, I only have two friends. Or three.
I'm not very talkative, in real life. I'm a thoughtful person, who likes to observe and study the others. I like psychology, I like human minds.
I also am fascinated from criminal minds. <!-- s:lol: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_lol.gif" alt=":lol:" title="Laughing" /><!-- s:lol: --> Or crazy people in general. I like to study the way of thinking of a mind at the edge between real and illusions, between logic thoughts and madness. It's interesting, isn't it? <!-- s

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I think I talked too much, this post seems very long! <!-- s:lol: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_lol.gif" alt=":lol:" title="Laughing" /><!-- s:lol: --> Sorry... and... nice to meet you again! <!-- s:oops: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" title="Embarrassed" /><!-- s:oops: --> <!-- s

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