Hello!

Hello everyone, I go by Sareth around the net. I believe that to have been my Angel name. I identify mainly as an Angelic but also as Vampiric and Therian(Jaguar and Coyote ). I will explain the stories behind each if your willing to read a wall of text lol.

Now I'm just going to go straight into the story of what I am, be prepared its long and kinda weird.

Originally my soul used to be two seperate people. The first was a demoness serving under Lilith, sort of Liliths go to gal I suppose. The second was one of Lilith and Samael's Children, a daughter. ( this taking place fairly recently after The first war ( In my UPG anyways, all of this of course is my own personal story, I claim no fact ) when Samael fell ) There was still fighting going on between the Fallen and Heaven, though the war itself was over.
One night Lilith came to the Demon woman and told her to take all of the children who wouldn't be able to defend themselves and hide. She did so, Liliths newborn daughter included ( being the youngest ) However a group of angels found the hiding demons and fallen children. The demons and grown Fallen were killed durring the fighting and Liliths second fought tooth and nail to defend the children ( the children of the Fallen of course were still innocent and were going to be given a second chance in heaven ) As she was dying the group of angels took Liliths daughter from her arms. At that moment, as she died, it seemed as if the child reached out to her and something happened. The souls of the child and The woman melded? Becoming Myself. I grew up in Heaven and began training under Michael as one of the Powers so that I would be able to prove my worth amoung the angels that thought that me and the rest of the Fallen children shouldn't have been allowed into heaven. Anyways things happened, Slowly my family started leaving heaven, leaving me the last of our little group, until eventually I left as well after a fight with Michael.

Now for the Vampire/Jaguar bits.

Our village was in the middle of the desert, located next to a river large enough to sustain us. I lived with my mother and my two older sisters. There was another village a few miles away from ours and several human villages many many miles away. We rarely interacted with them, as most thought us monsters.

Our village was not one of shape-shifters but of what would be considered vampires.No Vampires in the classic sense or the Current Real Vampire way. We were alive yes, Born what we were yet we had the long life span of your typical classic vampire along with the fangs, though our diet was not solely of blood and the sun did not burn us ( I remember actually being very tan ). Up until my generation there had been a tradition started with our neighboors the shifters to foster peace and friendship ( as we once wared with each other. It ended when the leaders of both peoples promised their children to each other ) Every 'Vampire" Child was promised a Shifter child. They were to grow up together, the shifter as a guardian and friend and sometimes lover. As it was many of the pairs married and had children. This didn't happen all the time of course, some pairs only remained friends but the bond between a promised pair was stronger then that of even a mated pair which is why, I think, most times the shifter and vampire pair would be married. Which ended up with a lot of mixed genes. By the time the tradition died out almost my entire generation was of mixed parentage, and the pure 'Vampire" bloodline was almost gone, though I don't think anyone mourned it too deeply. The Vampiric village was also much smaller then the shifter village and as far as I remember we had long ago accepted the ruler of the shifters as our own. Once again no one mourned too deeply.

My Father had been my mothers guardian and they had fallen in love, married and had my sisters and I. My father spent most of his time in the shifter village training our army. ( our leaders were not like the leaders of men, sitting safely on thrones or behind a desk far away from the dangers of war and their people, our leaders were chosen for their proweress in battle and their abality to walk comfortably amongst their own people. When a leader died the title woudl automatically go to their oldest child and the people would give them a trial period to prove themself if someone thought they couldn't handle it then they would be challegend for leadership )

As far as I can remember there wasn't a strict social hierarchy but being the daughter of a military leader did put me in the 'nobility' catagorey.

When I was around the age of 16 I went to visit my father more often and on one of those occasions I met a young wolf shifter named Asaris. He was a new strategist working for my father, young, strong and briliant.

After a few encounters my father decided to give him to me as a guardian, even though the tradition was no longer practiced. it wasn't long before we were happily in love and getting married.

It was a while later ( I'm not sure how much longer, I need to meditate more on this and get the finer details ) that the 'humans' attacked our village. We had heard tell that a new religious leader had risen up and was more visicous then most. saying we were a threat that needed to be eradicated.

We were arrogant, and thought the humans no threat to us.

Our village was decimated. The shifter army was the only protection we had and they were miles away in their village, we sent someone right away to relay the distress call but it would still take some time for them to reach us. We fought back as much as possible but even in animal form we could not get the upperhand ( there is also a particular reason for this however it remains vague and blurry in my mind ) I fought as hard possible, for my father had made sure I was trained well and so I lead the few soldiers we had into battle, but sadly most of the village were women and children and we were outnumbered.

I watched as one by one our soldiers fell until myself and my husband were one of the few left.
They restrained me and made me watch as they slaughtered the village and then eventually my husband. They tried to kill me last of course but only managed a stomach wound. I had just found out I was pregnant earlier that day. I struggled to get away and eventually was able to free myself, I ran as quickly as possiable and in an attempt to save my honor I threw myself from a cliff.

I believe that one of the reasons the 'humans' ( thats what Im calling them although they seemed more advanced then the humans of that time would have been. This taking place probably about 200 or 300 years after the last ice age ) Bested us is that gradually throught the years our people slowly lost their power, our life spans shortened ( The oldest of us living to perhaps 900 or so instead of over 1000 ) we believed that our gods were losing power because of the 'humans' new god ( we believed very much that a gods power was based on the belief of their people and since there were more of them then us their god had more power ) had overpowered our own and we were forced into lives as humans or be destroyed completely. ( thats what I think the majority of us thought at the time, I personally think we were just growing weak as a species )

Coyote Therian: I believe I have lived a brief life as a coyote somewhere in the western united states.


This has all come about after years of feeling like I was something else, I want to say the first of it starting when I was about 11 or 12. When I got the internet ( around the age of 14 ) I ran across a site for Real vampires while aimlessly searching on Google. After a few months I found another site for 'Were-creatures" ( before the Therian label came into play ) I began researching the hell out of all of it thinking that thats what I must be, though even at that young age I kept myself from entirely believing until I had thought about it the whole way through, done more research, had more experiance with it. Eventually I met other people like me in high school and we started talking about all of this stuff. The more they shared their experiances with me the more it seemed to match up. I had my first 'memory' of the Shapeshifter village. After talking to my friends a bit more we found out that they remember this village as well, we discovered we had been sisters ( the two of them had been twins and I was the younger the same as it had been in our angelic lives as well ) I still wasn't 100% convinced though ( and I mean I'm still not, you never really can be with this type of stuff ) But I finally came to accept it as fully as possible ( or at least the Vampire/therian part ) the night after Christmas '07 when I 'Vamped out" as is the term. First time it had ever happened and after that I just kinda had to accept it .
Through all this I had also been having vague flashes of what I felt were memories, memories where I had wings, a memory of falling from very far up.
I talked more with my friends, I thought about all of it over and over, theorized, meditated ( or at least my version of meditation ) and Angel seemed to fit.

Most of the story of my angelic life above are recent memories, as my angel side was not prevelant until I was finally done coming to terms with being a Vampire and therian. And the the Angel bit took control and demanded that I learn more about it. And so I did. More meditation, talking to people on other forums, talking to other friends of mine ( not my 'sisters' but two other friends, one of which is also and Angel ) More theories developed and thrown out and redeveloped until a vaguely defined story of my past life came into view.
Since then I've been taking it slow and seeing what happens, weather I get any more memories back or not.

As for the non-kin side of things. I'm 20 years old, I live with my boyfriend currently, and work full time at McDonalds. Hoping that soon I'll be able to go back to school for either Library science or Mortuary science. I'm eclectic Pagan with a strong affilation with Hecate and Lilith. Though it being the middle of winter I'm not very spiritualy inclined right now, I'm sort of a dud in the winter. Once spring comes I'll swing back.
My interests are reading,writing,art,music ( though not a musician, I just enjoy music lol )

interesting story. welcome to okp!

Thanks for the welcome Kohaku ^_^ I think I recognize you from OKA

i'm not very active there nowadays... <!-- s:roll: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_rolleyes.gif" alt=":roll:" title="Rolling Eyes" /><!-- s:roll: --> but yes, i'm there.

...wait... if there's a person whose username is kohaku, then that's not me, i'm kahoku...

No, Its kohoku I just spelled it wrong in my last reply >.<

Welcome to OKP! I see from your info you live in PA? *waves at fellow PA resident*

All of this seems rather complex so I'm a bit confused. Do you believe this all stems from past lives? And it seems strange to me that someone would identify as so many various (and so different) 'kin types. Have you considered that you might be something more like a polymorph rather than all of these types instead?

Since this is so detailed, be prepared for some serious questioning. Just don't take offense, we really don't bite...hard... <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- s -->

Elinox Wrote:Welcome to OKP! I see from your info you live in PA? *waves at fellow PA resident*

All of this seems rather complex so I'm a bit confused. Do you believe this all stems from past lives? And it seems strange to me that someone would identify as so many various (and so different) 'kin types. Have you considered that you might be something more like a polymorph rather than all of these types instead?

Since this is so detailed, be prepared for some serious questioning. Just don't take offense, we really don't bite...hard... <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- s -->

Ahh, hello fellow 'stuck in the snow' person ( who I think I recognize from Werelist? )

Anyways. Yes I have considered being a polymorph before, along with a few other scenarios including "I've gone insane" and "I must be making this up" However those last two theories lead me into a very not fun few months of depression so I scrapped that idea lol.

But yes I attribute it all to past lives, including the Vampirism ( as my second 'story' explains ) Over the years I tried a few different theories that I've tossed out. Simply because none of them felt right. I even thought for a bit that I was empathy shifting or cameo shifting but since my shifts have only been Angelic or Feline/Canine ( as those two aspects have merged ) I didn't think that was it either. I know that that is kind of an 'easy way out' answer but its all I've got, aside from some IRL friends with matching UPGs concerning the Angel bit and Vampiric Shapeshifter bit.

I still try to remain somewhat skeptical and try new ideas, but the ones I've posted are the ones that seem the most "right" for me.

Sareth Wrote:Ahh, hello fellow 'stuck in the snow' person ( who I think I recognize from Werelist? )

Aye, that'd be me.

Sareth Wrote:However those last two theories lead me into a very not fun few months of depression so I scrapped that idea lol.

Just keep in mind that no matter how upset it might make you, you can't simlpy "wish" to be 'kin. You simply are or you're not. I'm not saying that you're not, just that you should also consider that possibbility too.

Elinox Wrote:

Sareth Wrote:Ahh, hello fellow 'stuck in the snow' person ( who I think I recognize from Werelist? )

Aye, that'd be me.

Sareth Wrote:However those last two theories lead me into a very not fun few months of depression so I scrapped that idea lol.

Just keep in mind that no matter how upset it might make you, you can't simlpy "wish" to be 'kin. You simply are or you're not. I'm not saying that you're not, just that you should also consider that possibbility too.

I have, I do and will most likely continue to do so throughout my life. I can't prove a shred of it anyways aside form personal experience and the like <!-- s:lol: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_lol.gif" alt=":lol:" title="Laughing" /><!-- s:lol: -->
So I try to take that grain of salt with any new 'memory' that crops up, and figure out if its 'legit' ( as much as it can be anyways ) or if I'm totally making it all up.

Hihi and welcome to the forums.
I have a couple questions if you don't mind...

Which version of Lilith would this be?
In what world were there shape-shifters, vampires, and humans, all living in the same area?
You don't find it a little suspect that you were first born to big names and then reincarnated as "nobility"?
"Age 16", years in that world were the same length as the years in this one?
You aged at a similar/same rate as human beings do, today, in this world?
Why would they make "you" of all the people there, watch as they killed everyone else? Why would they make anyone watch for that matter?
How is throwing yourself off a cliff more honorable than fighting until you die?
Gaining your memories/insights by talking to other people is highly unreliable. What steps were taken to avoid cross contamination?

Have you considered that the reason you felt depressed was not kin related?