My creative streak seems to have temporarily evaded me, leaving with generic and dull topic titles. Please excuse me, I need to rummage through that large box over there to find it... *points vaguely*
If it so tickles your fancy, you could say that I'm undergoing the process of an awakening. I'm quite unsure of my 'kintype, but I have a wavering, uncertain, tentative suspicion that I may be angelic. I know that it is a large bound to go from "unsure" to "angelic", though, and so I prefer to simply refuse to claim that I am angelic until I am more certain. As such, my only decisive reasoning for such a suspicion is that it feels right, good and whole - No other kintypes that I've considered have had quite the same feeling of rightness. Still, of course, I hesitate: I'm slightly too analytical and skeptical to simply accept the title of
angelic based on positive feelings.
That being said, I suppose that you could counter what I've said above by telling me that it's also quite a leap to assume oneself to be non-human on a non-physical level. You'd be quite right, too! It is a very big leap, but I first became aware of my otherness when I was ten years old. As a ten year-old, I wasn't of the frame of mind to rigorously question the way that I felt and why I felt like that. I accepted it, and have embraced and pondered it ever since. It seems silly, to me, to suddenly reject feeling non-human on the basis that I never inititally questioned myself - I've felt this way for so long that I can't imagine suddenly rejecting my feelings, and it seems honestly silly to do so.
I do not believe in souls, soul mates or reincarnation. Interestingly, I believe unwaveringly in at least one deity. As such, my identification as Otherkin is somewhat more psychological than the soul-based theories floating around. It is because of this that I can offer no proper reasons for believing myself to be kin: I was ten years old, and I began to feel like I shouldn't be a human. I embraced the feeling, and let myself pretend to be what I felt that I should have been (when alone, of course, and I was playing. :3 Being a kid is fun). I believed in souls when I was ten years old, and discovered "Otherkin" at the age of thirteen. I believed myself to be an incarnated something-or-other, but had no clue as to
what.
When I was fifteen, I stopped believing in souls entirely. It depressed me to consider the multitude of things that would cut a soul's life short, and I couldn't find any reasons to believe that a soul would be fragile enough to have a body that could die so easily. I doubted that I was Other at all at this point, but after believing that I was Other for five years, two or three of which I'd spent having a label to call it by, I had trouble letting go. In the end, I still
felt non-human. I continued to flit around, reading Otherkin websites and lurking in forums here and there. As you can see, I eventually ceased to doubt my own Otherness.
It is a further two years later, now, and I haven't believed in souls
at all for two years. I've also spent several years trying to figure out just what I identify with, just what I
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Please, if you have any questions at all, ask them. I don't mind being questioned about anything that I think or believe, as questions often help me to identify gaps within my beliefs or thoughts, and (hopefully!) fill them in. <!-- s

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I look forward to spending some of my free time here.