Deros Wrote:I'm actually kind of confused when it comes to my energy. My own personal energy source is extremely low, and I have to do something to maintain a balance in it daily (either absorbtion or release). However, when doing energy manipulation, I can summon and control energy amounts that far surpass me even on when I'm overfilled. Can someone please explain and define this, too?
It's possible that you have a difficult time processing energy efficiently. I've met psychic vampires who can move around and manipulate great quantities of energy--but the energy they're moving around doesn't sustain them well, it's not stuff they'd ever be able to feed on, because it's raw and unprocessed. Something's messed up with their processing systems.
A friend used the following illustration: "It generally takes energy to process energy and make it more palatable. If your body needs 150 kCal of substance A to survive and you take in 300 kCal of substance B but convert B to A, it is not a good substitute if it costs 200 kCal in the conversion. Some folks can do the conversion in 1 kCal, or none, so it's OK to use substance B."
So, using that illustration, it's possible that your system doesn't produce enough of substance A (vital/pranic energy), and converting substance B (raw/unprocessed/elemental energy) to substance A is inefficient for your energetic system. However, you can gather and move around substance B just fine.
I'm not saying you're a psyvamp, necessarily; a lot of otherkin have energetic deficiencies or impaired energetic processors, probably because their energetic systems are built for different bodies/worlds/atmospheres.
Therians, on the other hand, tend to be energetic batteries (by my observation and experience, anyway. There
are exceptions, of course). For instance, I am also a "generator" (what I usually call a battery). In fact, pranic energy does not sustain me (though I do occasionally feed on such, usually during the winter months when I am low on energy and going through depression and there isn't enough sunlight). For me, pranic energy (substance A) is like candy or spun cotton; it's
too refined, my system doesn't have to do hardly any work to process it, and so it shoots through my system too quickly to really be used/absorbed. It's like simple carbs for a hyperglycemic, almost. I need "complex carbs", substance B, energy with substance, something my system has to do a bit of work to process so that it gets
gradually processed/absorbed/used.