Forgot about my intro... ._.
This is in no way a representation on facts, it's simply my story, and my view of things, placed in such a way so as to give clarification to myself and to, perhaps others willing to discuss.
If something is vague it is because I don't have as many details at this time, and do not wish to add to that which I know only vaguely.
I was a seraph, I think. I know I have 3 sets of wings equaling six. I feel I was neutral, an interpreter of the source to others, thus I was close to it, as the seraphim were. I also have memories of a forest in heaven which I am told is First Eden, based upon other readings and what not, I think this description may be accurate, seeing as if I was a seraph I would know my way around there as well (in my opinion anyway. Regardless of my choir I'm fairly sure I knew my way around. It was one of my favorite spots to go)). These wings of mine, are now a dark blue, but that was taken the minute I went into battle the second time, they were not always this way. I think it has something to do with your method of thought or something, I'm not really sure.
I fell in what I think was the second of possibly three great battles, I say possibly because I'm not sure how many there were after the fall, I have heard some talk of three and others of only two and some talk of more than that, I wasn't there after the second, I don't know. I think I may have fought in the first as well but that's far more cloudy in my memory right now.
I fell, not because I fought on the losing side, but because I and others felt both sides were wrong and should not be fighting, after the first war I was loath to find more of us falling or being harmed. I and others felt that they should find a way to co-exist. Some new younger, and a few older of the angelic beings had wanted to create a new way, one different from the traditional order of things, the others felt these new minds were for lack of a better word heretical.
We were considered treasonous to both sides, at first attempting to stop the fighting with words, that only lead to our general dislike for arguing the cause of both sides and then having to defend ourselves from both for not choosing a side. I think there might have been twenty of us, maybe a little more, and not all from the same choir or order of angels if you will.
I feel that angels were created not as simple robots. We were not tools or servants of god in the traditional sense, we would listen to the source, and try and help all races. We were watchers, we were guides, we were at times intercessors, who would for simplicities sake, claim to be from whatever god those we were trying to help believed in. In truth, we weren't lying, we came from the source to aid those elsewhere, and the simplest way to gain ones trust is to come from ones patron deity.
I think that in times of awakening some other celestial beings have used these accounts as justification for believing in a god and serving it. I don't see anything wrong with that, serve the source or universal consciousness what have you, in whatever way you're comfortable in. I don't anymore, at least not directly.
Thats as far as I've come in my awakening thus far. In the mean time, any ideas or feed back from others is very much welcomed.
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Now onto more recient developments. <!-- s:mrgreen: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_mrgreen.gif" alt=":mrgreen:" title="Mr. Green" /><!-- s:mrgreen: --> <!-- s:geek: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_geek.gif" alt=":geek:" title="Geek" /><!-- s:geek: --> I love starwars, science, computers philosophy, and religious studies. I enjoy a good book and twilight is my favorite time of day. I've got pretty good night vision so I usually go for a walk on some bike trails behind my house at night if the moons bright enough, and enjoy animals alot. I'm rather empathic, and am honest...usually to the point that it gets me in trouble if I have a strong opinion on something, I don't mean to but I usually am brutally honest which isn't always good but hey, thats just a part of who I am.
Nice to meet you all.
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