Fallen angels?

Okay so since it's the angels that fall, this post is going in here! I was wondering what beings you guys are aware of that are fallen-angel like. I've been internet searching my little black heart out to no avail.

Personally, I feel like I'm fallen angel ish, but not a fallen angel per se due to memories I have of my past life:

Seraphyna was my name...I took it as my confirmation name when I was still being forced into Catholicism by my parents....anyway, I was a very powerful individual who was blinded by it...it consumed me. I wanted to be a God and well...I guess I flew a smidge to high metaphorically speaking. I've seen myself as tall with long flowing red hair and wings wearing a white gown of sorts with a white wolf familiar.

I was betrothed, but never loved him and fell in love with a man named Sepherious. The other man knew that he could hold no candle to our love and stepped aside, still in love with her himself, but knowing that he didn't have the remotest of chances. The more my power grew, the less "human" I became. Granted, this did not take place on this earth or in this time, but some alternate plain probably hundreds of years past. I wanted to be akin with the gods.

I ended up cheating on Sepherious with a man named Vandon. I never forgave myself, seeing what this quest for power had turned me into. Knowing that no one could destroy me, I consumed myself in flames for what I thought would be an eternity of conscious death.

Soon after, Sepherious and my betrothed were in a great battle where Sepherious was defeated and imprisoned in an emerald talisman sealed with dragon and lizard symbols. Everyone involved has, at this point, been reincarnated, destined to play out their roles in something of the human apocalypse or some kind of threat, which is apparently closer at hand than I ever thought it could be.

Once my memories came back to me (mind you they're still incomplete and a smidge fuzzy), I was devastated. I have never been the same as I was because my pain is simply too great no matter how I try to overcome it. I blame myself for everything. Sepherious may not even know who he is, but his soul was released about two years ago from the emerald.

My betrothed and Vandon are around somewhere and have more power and complete memories than I do...which may be a dangerous development...but I don't think I'm sure about how to go about strengthening those potential gifts...I'm not sure I even fully remember my former "glory" so to speak. That's about all I've got. The memories I have are quite disjointed, a name and a picture coming in here or there needing to be placed together until it's all figured out. I've done two past life visualizations and have seen myself standing atop a waterfall in a vast city with tall buildings that are silver spirals...I also see myself winged, which is why I think I'm angelic...however, I might be part phoenix given the whole fire thing (but I'm not very birdlike) or could be demonic...I have a birthmark (it was much bigger at birth) over my chest where the fire began when I tried to destroy myself long ago...I was born with a big red mark on my chest, it's now very very small....but there you have it...yes long story huh? So I did kinda fall...but not in an angel-like way. Any thoughts?

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Hmm, what you does sound as unlike angels as you may think, but that does not necessarily make you an angel as you have implied (but that doesn't mean you can't be either.) I know more than one angel (some fallen some not) that were given too much power and tempted to have even more and all have regrets. Unfortunately, I have no suggestions on other possible describers of kin for you.

misha tia Wrote:Hmm, what you does sound as unlike angels as you may think, but that does not necessarily make you an angel as you have implied (but that doesn't mean you can't be either.) I know more than one angel (some fallen some not) that were given too much power and tempted to have even more and all have regrets. Unfortunately, I have no suggestions on other possible describers of kin for you.

Not everyone has regrets for what do you know! <!-- s:twisted: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":twisted:" title="Twisted Evil" /><!-- s:twisted: --> <!-- s:twisted: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":twisted:" title="Twisted Evil" /><!-- s:twisted: --> <!-- s:twisted: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":twisted:" title="Twisted Evil" /><!-- s:twisted: -->

Seraphyna Wrote:So I did kinda fall...but not in an angel-like way. Any thoughts?

what about falling from yourself ? as the hunger for power changed you so much that you fall from yourself and therefor after you saw what have you done you wake up from the hunger and started to regret it therefor you wanted to destroy yourself by fire (somebody would see it as purification your self from the corruption that the hunger for power made but who actually knows) .Dunno if this sugestion helped you.

Seraphyna Wrote:Sepherious may not even know who he is, but his soul was released about two years ago from the emerald.

first how do you find out that he may not know who he is ? and how do you know his soul was released two years ago ? also i understand this sentece like this he live a new life but dont even know who he is and his soul returned to him two yers ago . (something like he lives a new life, but his souls is asleep something like not present in his new body, but still connected to it and then it finally arrive to his new body, duo to this he dont know who he is .)did i understand it correctly ?

anyway your story is interesting would like to know everything.(the curriosity is strong in me <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_razz.gif" alt=":P" title="Razz" /><!-- s -->)

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misha tia Wrote:Hmm, what you does sound as unlike angels as you may think, but that does not necessarily make you an angel as you have implied (but that doesn't mean you can't be either.) I know more than one angel (some fallen some not) that were given too much power and tempted to have even more and all have regrets. Unfortunately, I have no suggestions on other possible describers of kin for you.

Not everyone has regrets for what do you know! <!-- s:twisted: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":twisted:" title="Twisted Evil" /><!-- s:twisted: --> <!-- s:twisted: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":twisted:" title="Twisted Evil" /><!-- s:twisted: --> <!-- s:twisted: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":twisted:" title="Twisted Evil" /><!-- s:twisted: -->

lol, well i didn't exclusively mean about that, but good to be reminded of that. <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- s -->

Do you remember anything about the area in which you lived? Even if your memories didn't take place on this plane of existence, if your type is known on earth, it would probably be known in an earthly area that is most like your own.

All I remember about it is that it was in a lush green area on the top of a waterfall, the river ran through it and over a cliff...the city was made of silver spiral buildings and it looked much like earth, but not. I know there was at least one sun and one moon, but whether there were more than one I don't recall.

Ragiel: You are correct <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> I just know, I don't know how and I don't know who he is this time around or if he's even aware of what/who he is.

Thanks for the suggestions guys <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> It just annoys me that I can't come up with a word for me I guess. I don't seem very angelish, but I can't come up with a better word >.< but yes, fallen does seem to cover it.

Seraphyna Wrote:Ragiel: You are correct <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> I just know, I don't know how and I don't know who he is this time around or if he's even aware of what/who he is.

yeah im always correct <!-- s:lol: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_lol.gif" alt=":lol:" title="Laughing" /><!-- s:lol: -->

i just know, as you have the information or you have the feeling ?
example for feeling (based on my own experience)
close eyes think of the one you are connected/bond to and you feel he/she/it still there and with more concentration/etc. you can tell if he/she/it is safe/angry/etc.
example for information
you are doing your every day stuff and then it happens a clinking sound appers in your head and you recrive it, the information that he is free from his prison.

anyway a little question do you want to meet him or find him ? and what would you do if you meet with your betrothed or Vandon (kill them ? enjoy tearing apart their limbs or just greet them ?or greet them and then tear their limbs and then kill them ? ..... ok i end with my little imagination ).

Also for the fire thing that you assume could be demonic or phoenix

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Raguel_(archangel) Wrote:One of his believed duties in the Final Judgement is to marshal the angels of snow and ice in Ephesus (see the letter to the church at Ephesus in Rev 2:1 - 7), and because of this it is presumed that he is for mortals an Angel of cold and not of fire

that would say that angels could be fire/etc. imbued. ha another suggestion.
(raguel......hmmm)

I've spoken to said betrothed online who also says he knows/feels/whatever you wanna call it that Sepherious is back...if I came across said betrothed I'd probably still be indifferent...if I came across Vandon, I dunno....it was kind of my own fault so I'd be inclined to at least maim him a little...to the pain maybe? *evil grin* Anyhow, phoenix-like has come to mind before, so mayhaps...otherwise I'm not really a Bible believer, but that concept of angel-ish firey type thing could work *nod* I'll have to introspect a bit <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s -->