Demonic, or just a Demonolator?

Hi,

Question: if you had demonic inclinations or identifications, and also wanted to have personal relationships with demons, and to have personal relationships with others who have personal relationships with demons, but the other people who have personal relationships with demons think that people who think that they're demons are nuts, what would you do? <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" title="Very Happy" /><!-- s -->

Long sentence. Trying to break it down:

Demonkin looks up to Demons.
Demonkin wants personal relations with Demons.
Demonkin isn't sure that he is literally metaphysically Demonic, however he identifies with the position that Demons (Deities) have been forced into.
Other people have personal relations with Demons.
Other people who have personal relations with Demons think that people who think they're Demons are crazy.

Question:
Drop the demonkin label and be a Demonolator?
or
Keep the demonkin label and remain in isolation?

Checked out the Demonolatry forum again -- probably don't want to be going back there. There's a real problem with hateful types feeling at home in these communities; being one of the hated isn't so great.