I have for some time been experiencing apparitions, which occasionally coincide with implanted dreams. I am still not completely certain of who these entities are however they do not seem to be human..and not always the same factions? Whoever they are, they seem to be actively observing and making efforts to contact me, though these messages are vague and confusing at best. For a long time I speculated that these could be my species..family even, however I no longer put as much stock in that idea. The manifestations I've witnessed range from the apparition of a girl..who was very bright, but I recall her eyes were a radiant green..shining, not like human eyes with pupils,sclera,etc. I've also seen another humanoid apparition(nonhuman) emerge from the wall, I've seen eyes, inanimate objects, animals, and perhaps astral critters ranging from coloured and lifelike, to light, to shadow as well as a spark-like phenomena I've yet to explain.... additionally it seems that some of these entities remain with me, unseen at most times.. and I still have no explanation for any of it.. additionally while some of it was neutral, some of it downright frightens/threatens me, and I have to wonder if these other entities really had my best interests in mind if they would not protect me from some of this. I'm just left dumbfounded and overwhelmed by the lot of it. I sometimes speak out loud or try to send mental signals into the vicinity..I've even tried sending out calls for help as far as I could transmit....alas nothing seems to change.
It has been my hope that eventually I could pull off seperation of this vessel and confront this on level ground(so to speak) and get these answers, even if I have to lay down the pain to get it. There doesn't seem to be another option, besides expensive ghost hunter equipment, and there's no guarantee they speak english. Incidentally I tried willing them away, or telling them to leave me alone..no dice
Does anything like this click with anyone? Was it connected with your spiritual nature? Personal or otherwise? Do I have any other options? Because right now I'm rather vulnerable to this and I hate that feeling..last night I was almost to afraid to let my guard down for my energy work because I felt like they could mess with me. (and indeed, there was some sort of activity going on above me, but I'm not sure exactly what it was)
“A considerable percentage of the people we meet on the street are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually already dead. It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it.”
- G.I. Gurdjieff