Changing up my intro this time

I've joined and introduced myself in a few otherkin forums in the last month and I see some of the same names, so for some this is less of an intro and more of an update, as a couple of things have changed since then. So it's not another copy/paste of my usual intro, though some of the information herein is copied from various posts in various places.

I identify as otherkin by its most basic definition, that being: anyone assuming the identity of not being completely human, in body, mind and/or soul. I've come to understand that the level at which I identify is primarily mental, but referring to my preferred definition, that's good enough for me. The reasons I identify this way mentally: (to borrow words from Seraphyna) I think it does come down to different brain wiring for me; I feel like I think in ways that most people don't; I experience intermittent species dysphoria; when I shift it's in mentality and the things I shift to are thought forms of mine. There's also some spirituality in the mix, but I believe that too, while it does pertain to the spirit, also comes from the mind to an extent. I acknowledge that it could all just be wishful thinking stemming from misanthropy, but see previous on "good enough".

In past introductions, I settled for the (also borrowed) term "Chaos-thingy" to describe my kin-side; however since writing those, I've become comfortable with using "demonkin". Not demon, as between stigma and common usage that goes with that word I feel that it's not quite right, but demonkin I'm comfortable enough with due largely to semantics.
Basically, I'm going off of the word daemon/daimon. I was made aware that "demon" derived from "daemon" and basically meant "divine spirit", but it wasn't until I found an exact definition in particular that the meaning really clicked with me. That definition came from an Oxford dictionary and the word was defined as: (in ancient Greek belief) a divinity or supernatural being of a nature between gods and humans. an inner or attendant spirit or inspiring force". This works for me on two levels. I assert that I am "of Chaos" as defined above, and in identifying as Otherkin, I identify as being non-human except physically; putting me somewhere between the two. In addition to me (hypothetically) being a daemon of Chaos, by the second part Chaos could also be said to be my daemon as it is my inner spirit and inspiring force. So the way I see it, although demon and daemon may have developed separate meanings, each can still be kin to the other, and since I'm using daemon to describe this part of myself, I feel that demonkin is appropriate enough.

As I mentioned, I do make mental shifts and I believe that what I shift to are thought forms. They started out as characters from a time when writing was my favorite form of escapism, over the years I poured a lot of creative energy into them and started applying them to my life outside their written worlds, and they eventually evolved into something just past mere characters. I got into their heads, and they got into mine; they intermittently take up resident in my head and I sometimes slip into mentalities that attribute as belonging to them. They each have their own functions, and are of different kintypes, those different types being part of why I also sometimes speak of my nature as being polymorphic.
The rest of my basis for using polymorphic as a descriptor is almost entirely speculation and theory. If I had/have a "true form" then I theorize (based on how I view Chaos and the notion that I am, at least spiritually, of it) that such a form would likely be inherently shapeless but able to take a number of shapes as necessary, much like Chaos itself. So when discussing forms, I tend to express that mine would be amorphic with polymorphic capability.


That's all I can really think of for now; that's the gist of who I am thus far.

Welcome <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> Feel free to necro any posts that strike your fancy or start new ones if they don't exist already.

Excellent, that actually answered one of the questions sort of on my mind; I'm always curious about the standard (explicit or otherwise) on thread-necro in various forums.

Welcome to OKP!

Where'd you get the username from?

Hi!

PocketWarrior Wrote:If I had/have a "true form" then I theorize (based on how I view Chaos and the notion that I am, at least spiritually, of it) that such a form would likely be inherently shapeless but able to take a number of shapes as necessary, much like Chaos itself.

You know, this is also how I experience myself, even though I've recently gone from describing myself as demonic to describing myself as a spirit. <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> We've had a good number of demonkin here recently. I hope you find it welcoming. <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s -->

Elinox Wrote:Welcome to OKP!

Where'd you get the username from?

My name has nothing to do with my kin-side, it's actually one of the many nicknames I've picked up in the military, that being one from Basic Military Training. I happen to be of small stature (small enough to require a height waiver to enlist) and one the phrases uttered by an instructor was "pocket warrior" in regard to my size. Other names of this origin have included Minnie Mouse, Mighty Mouse, and 4-9 (as in 4'9", my height); I picked this one because I suck at coming up with usernames (especially since I wasn't quite sure of some specifics of my kin-side when I joined), so I just picked this one and ran with it for all Otherkin forums that I've joined recently.