Changing Appearances

Palmer Wrote:So, as I was saying before... *chuckle*

I was having a bit of a rough time with myself last night... venting out a lot of pent-up emotions that I'd been holding on to for the past week+. I finally got all the funk and junk out of my system, concentrated on the stillness of my feeling-heart, and looked 'inside' it, to find an image of myself lying on the ground, completely exhausted, and with grey wings.

My wings are blue. Not grey. But... they seem to be grey now.

I think this is only temporary... sort of a dye-job to reflect the hurt of everything going on in my life right now, so I'm not worried about the usual implications of 'tainted' wings. I feel confident that they'll right themselves in time. Still, I'm troubled by the fact that I have no idea how long this change in colour will last :/


Anyway, now that the background info is out of the way, some questions...

1. Has anyone else had definite changes to the perception of their 'true form' based on what they experience in their earthbound lives?

2. Have these changes ever been permanent?

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Kayako Wrote:Well, it's my opinion that everyone is constantly changing as it is, but yes, I've seen instances where my perception of myself has changed due to life events. Of course, it's in my nature to change often, but still.

For instance, often when I'm in a standoff with someone or a heated argument, I feel red-ish and I can sometimes feel claws or things that shouldn't be there.

I think emotion can have a major effect on appearence. I mean when someone close to you dies sometimes you can have a radical change in personality and become seculded.
If personality can be changed through emotion then i think appearence can as well. I may add more to this once i've given it more thought.

Micah Wrote:I have variations when it comes to a 'true form', due to the fact that my true form is just energy rather than any specific tangible shape. As for the form I identify myself as (black wings, claws, yellow eyes, etc) I tend to keep it from fluctuating too much, but I'm sure that if I concentrated enough I would be able to change that form around quite a bit.

Palmer Wrote:So, as I was saying before... *chuckle*

I was having a bit of a rough time with myself last night... venting out a lot of pent-up emotions that I'd been holding on to for the past week+. I finally got all the funk and junk out of my system, concentrated on the stillness of my feeling-heart, and looked 'inside' it, to find an image of myself lying on the ground, completely exhausted, and with grey wings.

My wings are blue. Not grey. But... they seem to be grey now.

I think this is only temporary... sort of a dye-job to reflect the hurt of everything going on in my life right now, so I'm not worried about the usual implications of 'tainted' wings. I feel confident that they'll right themselves in time. Still, I'm troubled by the fact that I have no idea how long this change in colour will last :/


Anyway, now that the background info is out of the way, some questions...

1. Has anyone else had definite changes to the perception of their 'true form' based on what they experience in their earthbound lives?

2. Have these changes ever been permanent?

Most definitely. The more you learn and grow on this plane, the more your true form will alter and grow with your changing spirit. Though the physical shell you are wearing now is different from your true form, the angel inside of you is still growing Smile

Personally, since I am co-located (easy explaination- I'm in two planes at once so Riechisah is not a past life but a life parallel to this one) Riechisah is still experiencing things on the astral plane that alter her form. Most notably, after we found are mate (a search that was initiated by me on this plane) who is demonic it lead to a lot of family issues back on Vic'Rah (for whatever reason, my father really does not like demons and BAM Riechisah comes home with one ^^;Wink.

So after a big blow out back home, ever since then Riechisah's form has altered drastically. Now she has black leathery wings...and horns...and a big tail (yeah, she went a little overboard). I'm not really sure why she went that far, maybe for the moment she is trying to forget her heritage because of all the pain its caused the both of us, maybe it is just her blending with the energy of our mate...I'm not really sure.

But there is a definite correlation to life events and the effect that has on your trueform. Think of it like evolving Very Happy

Emotions are so insane. I know that Ive always noticed that for me my eyes change colors depending on my mood. Lately and yes I know this is a clinically diagnosed thing but my pupils will misdilate depending on my mood also.(one will be far larger the the other) Since I dont seem to be able to really see my dragon self much also depending on my mood I tend to change my makeup. Since physically shapeshifting or whatnot isnt possible the next best thing for me is changing my makeup to reflect my mood. Yay emotions and their ability to completly change someone on so many levels.

From what I have experienced, wings can change A LOT. Many of you probably remember an old post I made back in OKA, where I described the fact that my wings had changed. I'm not sure if it is always permanent or not, I suppose every case is a case. So don't panic, just calm down and try to figure things out with time. <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- s -->

When I was under a great deal of psychic attack a few months back I kept perceiving myself in this demon form. So i started wondering if perhaps i had demon in me somewhere. Did some searching, asked around, etc etc. Come to find out it was just a faerie war glamour that had popped up in response to my being under constant attack.

I am sure that the change was based on the removal of the gunk. Still check back and if the change is permanent than maybe you can delve later into why.