Back again!

I just remembered something the guy in my dream told the class (see Dreams subforum). He was saying something like when we're wounded, we polarize into dark and light halves, but our natural state is neither dark nor light, but neutral.

And actually, now that I think of that, I question whether he was talking to us as demons, or as sensitives who dealt with demons. Or the demons within the sensitives...

I did realize, though -- that when the only aspect of kin-ness which is engaged with is the physical, then yes, it does become somewhat...of a poor conversation-starter. <!-- s --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s --> I know that for me, this goes way past what my preferred form looks and feels like. It could be interesting to purposely break into some of the things that are 'kin related in us which are not related to visuals and shape...

Well, now you're speaking my language

That is, if I'd ever had one

I didn't have eyes and ears and things like that normally. Visuals aren't as much of concern as is energy. Energy was everything. I sensed emotion, intent, waves and light and vibrations, but I never interpreted them as color or sound without the "proper equipment."

simim23 Wrote:I sensed emotion, intent, waves and light and vibrations, but I never interpreted them as color or sound without the "proper equipment."

Hey Sim,

Sorry to take a year to get back to you...but I think that a large part of the reason I have difficulty dealing with humans is that I feel intent more than the other person means to project; so I feel hostility as "intent to harm" (though I know it is, at this point, not specifically intent to harm me). Either this, or I'm just excruciatingly sensitive to others' nonverbal cues...which is unlikely due to my autism-spectrum status. I have found, though, that my brain senses things I don't expect it to...like when I'm looking at the spine of a book and I unknowingly place my hand on the bookshelf right where it needs to go (a frequent occurrence at my job).

Maybe it's possible that people with autism don't feel less but feel different modes of input...