I hate introductions.
But I guess it's a necessary pain, if I'm going to actually stay on this forum for longer than a day. Which is what I'm aiming for.
What do normal people write in their introductions?
My name's Kiyamvir. Well, it's my nickname, not my real name. I can't tell you my real name. No, I mean, I really can't, even if I wanted to. Ever heard of this old myth that a demon can be controlled by his name, which is why he doesn't tell it to anyone? They say that there's a bit of truth in every myth. I sometimes wonder about that. Just like a weird blockade within me, and I've no clue where it comes from. But that's beside the point.
You probably want to know how i got to discover that I'm a demon. It's what everyone writes in their introduction, right? Well, that's a funny story. You see, when I was young and clueless and had no idea who I was, I became a satanist. No, not the kind of satanist that burns down churches and drinks the blood of virgins (although I sometimes feel like doing that : D). I was a spiritual satanist, which meant that I worshipped 'the Old Gods' - the race of demons that humanity worshipped a long time ago in ancient Sumer and Egypt - you know, Asmodeus, Enki, Beelzebub and the rest of them. And it was funny, because at the time, I did not realise that I'm a demon too, so I worshipped my own kind. Well, not exactly, since I'm a different kind of demon; but no matter. I don't know exactly what kind of demon I am, and I don't care. I am what I am and I feel no need to label myself with pretty names. But anyway; it was only later on that my friend, who is a strong medium and knows a lot about spiritual stuff, said to me "hey, you're a demon". And I thought she was joking, but then pieces started to fit together. Of course, I realized how ironic it was for a demon to be a satanist, so I stopped. I still keep contact with the 'Old Gods', but I don't feel a need to serve them any longer. I think you can figure out why, hmm?
So, that's the story. Of course, it took me about a year to fully acknowledge the fact that I'm not human, but I feel comfortable now that I'm aware of it.
Hm. What else can I say about myself? I don't have a specific goal in life. I live so that I know what it's like to be human. I observe, but I don't involve myself. I feel no need to. I still don't understand humanity - their shallow problems, their lack of appreciation for life, their weird habits. And their bodies. What is the point of eating and sleeping anyway? Especially the latter. It's just like wasting half of your day, while you could be doing more interesting things than... lying down and having weird dreams... oO' (yesterday I had a dream about a zombie apocalypse in Hogwarts. I just don't know where those dreams come from. And why Hogwarts, of all places?)
But one thing I love about being here, is the music. I love Ayreon, Abney Park and Two Steps From Hell. (what an ironic name) Music is just so beautiful <3 And I'm obsessed with watching movies too. Especially the ones where there's blood and guts all over the place <3 Or movies about exorcisms. I can't stop laughing when I see them : D
And hmm. One last thing, I guess. I came here because I was curious about other people like me. I'm not a lonely soul who wants to figure out what she is, because I already know who I am. Still, more knowledge won't hurt, will it?
Oh, and I'm a bit sceptical, so bear with me. I'm still unsure about werewolfs, faeries and elves, but I'll try to be open-minded. It's not that I don't like elves. I wanted to be an elf ever since I discovered Warcraft III. I'm just difficult to persuade~ c:
A demon loves only himself.