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Ah . hello
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Ah . hello
Oh this is kind of a lot, sorry ><

So um. To start off I'm actually one of the hosts of a Very large system (50,000+, and that's just the people we have recorded), and while I'm not the primary host, I'm certainly Up There in host ranking. The primary host is Tarn, a Cybertronian/Transformers fictive, but since he refuses to be labeled as Otherkin (which takes more explaining probably) he's letting me do things here.

So, hello! I'm Mercer, a devil/wolf-otherkin. I/we draw and play games almost constantly if we're not bumming around on Twitter, I'm genderless (kind of trans???who knows), and as such my pronouns specifically are 'it/its' or 'they/them'. We're quite involved in astral things and are trying to get back into it proper, and as a whole we regard ourself as a sort of Luciferian (I'll explain in a second,). We're collectively neurodivergent, mostly anxiety and BPD. Our body is 22 years old, but I certainly feel older than that, despite sorting out that I was 'kin just a few years ago. (And for the curious, we've been a system since we were at least 5. But we were unaware of all that until we were 13.)

But I found my way here through dreamhart, and since I've been wanting to interact with people (or...try lmao) I figured this was a good place to start., So like many others, the kin 'community' of tumblr helped to put a name to the feeling of nonhumanity for me/us. Honestly it was always feline feelings when we were very young, but,,,to put things mildly and very vaguely,,it was a bit of mistreatment that really geared me toward feeling canine and reinforcing my nonhumanity from about age 12/13-onward. But it stuck, and I've decided to reclaim it and not let those bad times bog me down as best I can.

Aaand regarding the religion/spirituality thing; My very first headmate was "Minerva", who became Lucifer when we were 13, and he has slowly become more than a headmate; he feels much more like a separate entity all his own and he has his own memories of arriving on earth and whatnot...And since he's begun to regard himself as a sort of god, we've taken to low-key worshiping him since he's only ever done good things for this system and..well there's other reasons but I feel like I've talked too much about it already and I'm not sure what people will think of him..He's usually well-received, but,.

And really I'm not sure if any other headmates of mine will post here,,Tarn might since he fronts most often, and maybe Lucifer/Lu..but we Do have a small list of more active members on our blog (linked on our profile) and an even Longer system list we might at least PM people that ask nicely (we've,,,had bad experiences w eith people posting our system lists publicly to mock them before, so, we're rightfully paranoid). But those are things if people want to ask things about/talk to specific persons!

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2015-06-13 16:04
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Welcome <!-- sSmile --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- sSmile --> I'm curious how you concluded that you're devil-kin (do you mean devil as in the title or something else?) and a wolf therian (as opposed to another species of canine). I'm also curious if you're headmates come and go like a gateway system or are all present all the time. That's an awfully large number.

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2015-06-14 12:09
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Welcome to OKP!

How do you keep track of more than 50,000 individuals in one human body? Sounds horribly confusing, if not impossible!

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2015-06-15 14:39
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WELL the kin IDs are sort of..they go hand-in-hand a lot, blended forms and whatnot, and devil-wise i'm just A devil, like a type of creature, I guess . Our interest in the occult was always a thing, but I don't know how related that is. And even before we knew otherkin was a Thing we just..didn't feel human, had the extra limbs and stuff, all of it. Wings, horns, etc. I just really felt like I belonged elsewhere with different anatomy for years and it stuck, I guess, for both IDs.

As for system things, they're all actually constantly present?? the vast, vast majority don't usually front, though. we have a massive headspace to hold the lot of us, so it works out pretty well,,And uh. There's a few headmates in particular that keep count for us, really?

..And..just tonight we finally got a rough population count for one of the uh. Cities in here. I'd rather not say how Many but um. Like our headspace consists largely of a topopolis (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Topopolis) that houses a few cities and areas where our larger organic/semi-organic headmates reside, so it's..all just very large and there's quite a lot of us. And it's not like I personally (or our main host) have met them all individually, really. It's all complex and..I'm a bit nervous to say how they got here, also, since it's just a lot of weird multiverse things and whatnot.,

(And I'm quite hoping this isn't too..unbelievable? We're just very in-tune with our headspace/population/etc is all ;v; )

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2015-06-17 4:14
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hello its nice to meet you and i look forward to hearing from you <!-- sSmile --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- sSmile -->
2015-06-18 22:22
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Hello, welcome, and wow.

And how invasive and/or pervasive is the status of having approximately 50,000 unique personalities present in your head?

Do you feel you experience them all simultaneously or is it shifting between them for who is more or less in the driver's seat?

When you say one identifies as Lucifer, do you mean to say you identify that the specific and mythical lucifer exists within your head or rather that a facet of you has claimed it is Lucifer?

And hi, I go by Terro, I'm generally a bit inquisitive

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2015-08-03 0:15
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