After hypnosis

I thought I would try posting away from my introduction thread or I would quite happily stay there forever

in desperation (or rather, in continued effort to find help for me) my mum - who knows most of what goes on with me as im fairly open - and my aunt, who sees the aftermath ....suggested that i should try hypnosis

so i searched online for a reputable person and i found him, or rather i found his face in a pic and called to make an appointment as i knew his face would be able to help me

i was scared as to what would turn up as there is something i know that doesnt want to be revealed, i just dont know what it is and i was worried this would further affect my life..but its a slight understatement that things are getting a bit hairy for my safety so i have to try everything

the hypnotist is also a healer so i was right in my face reading..he was lovely and while i told him about stuff (not everything but i thought enough to get him going) he asked if my mum could stay in the room while i am hypnotist in case i 'disappear' as his logic was i would listen to my mum to come back

he said disappear because my mum had told him that this is what i sometimes do - it wasnt part of his therapy (just thought i should clarify this)...she also told him that my face changes - drawn white/grey, my eyes (actual eyes and rings round my eyes) turn black, my voice also changes in tone and what i say ...she was worried i had a form of epilepsy so we had a brain scan done in the past (im not sure what its called but its little pads on the scalp while the doc does various stimulating tests - the result was my brain was below average in activity....me, stupid???)

anyway, so the science part had been done - everything..medicine, tests, psychotherapy.....all me and my mum are left with are alternative therapies

so, i was hypnotised and he did basic relaxtion, de stress hypnosis....concentrating on relaxing me fully so im not so hyper vigilant, on edge.....he brought me back and asked how i was..i told him my head was throbbing - he did reiki on it and it healed it but then the back of my head started to hurt...he did the same then told me to lay on my side and he went down my back (not touching it) and tapped each part that he found was a problem area - i said "yeh, theres been a lot of violence in my life" and he didnt say anything

he gave me a relaxtion cd to go to sleep with...and this is when the problems started

the first night i put it on and i woke up at 3 am (normal time for these things to appear) but i wasnt met with one person in my room but my room was filled with them - they were in my bed, crawling under my bed, around my bed....i was awake until 7am and i then got up at 12 midday in the most horrendous mood (which is funny because the hypnotist said after the relaxtion hypnosis cd i would wake up smiling for once), i was drained, jumpy and basically felt like i had just opened the floodgates even more than before

not to be dissauded, as im used to company so i can overlook it, i tried the cd again that night and the night after....to the same effect

my protection, i believe, may not be fullproof but it did stop an overwhelming assualt - the hypnosis and his hypnosis cd for relaxtion broke down that barrier to my detriment

also, i thought about the problem areas he found - including my head - and they are all my chakra areas....every single one including the crown....

im going to see him next week so i will let him know everything, i havent had this in my new house before and ive moved about fifty times if not more...but it seems like things have changed now

just thought i would type and see what replies i get

thank you for your replies hehe

ive been to two sessions...before the second i told him everything that had happened and also said that i dont think that kind of therapy was for me...that i didnt think i needed to lower my protection through implicit relaxtion methods until i understood the source of whatever was going on

i told him everything and he replied "you have a very special gift, i think you need to talk to someone who has experienced the same...but to me it sounds like you could have a very powerful gift that needs to be understood"

so, i called this person that he told me to call..left a message and she hasnt called me back

not very exciting, but i thought i would give my audience (hehe) some feedback from that first post

thank you

Vibes Wrote:thank you for your replies hehe

There's no need to get snarky. Perhaps no one has any additional thoughts to add.

Your post raises several questions for me. First, what exactly is your problem? You see "things"? Have you ever tried just telling/asking them to leave you alone and go away?

Vibes Wrote:something i know that doesnt want to be revealed...

Doesn't help us know a whole lot about what problems you're having. <!-- s:? --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_confused.gif" alt=":?" title="Confused" /><!-- s:? -->

Vibes Wrote:things are getting a bit hairy for my safety...

If you feel you are in physical danger, call the police.

When you say you "disappear" what exactly do you mean? And where do you go?

Vibes Wrote:my protection, i believe, may not be fullproof but it did stop an overwhelming assualt - the hypnosis and his hypnosis cd for relaxtion broke down that barrier to my detriment.

If the CD broke your defenses, is there any way for you to repair them? (Aside from stop listening to the CD.)

And the hypnotist's alternative solution doesn't seem helpful in the least.

Maybe with a bit more info and clarification someone here can offer other suggestions.

Elinox Wrote:

Vibes Wrote:thank you for your replies hehe

There's no need to get snarky. Perhaps no one has any additional thoughts to add.

snarky? i was having a laugh...being self depracating at maybe my topic wasnt interesting and all i was doing was being self indulgant......jeez you guys are a tough crowd

Elinox Wrote:Your post raises several questions for me. First, what exactly is your problem? You see "things"? Have you ever tried just telling/asking them to leave you alone and go away?

my problem is raking these boards and trying to find someone who says "hey, yeh i hear ya! lets talk"....the rest of the aggro and superiority is irrelevant to me...as long as i put myself out there and find someone who gets what im saying and communicates..everyone has their own agenda, im just not the one being aggro about it

Elinox Wrote:

Vibes Wrote:something i know that doesnt want to be revealed...

Doesn't help us know a whole lot about what problems you're having. <!-- s:? --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_confused.gif" alt=":?" title="Confused" /><!-- s:? -->

yeh hi, how are you?....in other words...why would i be open to you when you have basically jumped in here giving me the "you better prove yourself to me"....i would love to think that i could learn off you, but in all honesty all i see is the start of bully boy tactics and i dont rise to that

Elinox Wrote:

Vibes Wrote:things are getting a bit hairy for my safety...

If you feel you are in physical danger, call the police.

When you say you "disappear" what exactly do you mean? And where do you go?

yeh im sure by you saying call the police you are being funny....im glad you had a laugh at your wit there....when i say i disappear, well, your not exactly creating a feeling of mutual respect - im not here to prove to anyone how valid i am...im here to learn, you dont want to be open to that then kindly leave me alone and go find someone who is maybe a bit more pandering to your big boy style

Elinox Wrote:

Vibes Wrote:my protection, i believe, may not be fullproof but it did stop an overwhelming assualt - the hypnosis and his hypnosis cd for relaxtion broke down that barrier to my detriment.

If the CD broke your defenses, is there any way for you to repair them? (Aside from stop listening to the CD.)

And the hypnotist's alternative solution doesn't seem helpful in the least.

yeh well a slightly more respectful question....not as much, but ok i will answer this....there is a way to repair it, and i managed it but it took time because i was bombarded....and i spoke to the hypnotherapist about everything and i said that the therapy wasnt right for me, because i had built all these protection mechanisms for a reason - that reason being i couldnt deal with it.....so what he did was he changed his therapy and told me that i have a really powerful gift........the main reason that i am posting here is because im looking for someone with the same power as i have...the difference is, i cant control it...i need to find someone who can - thats all im doing...if you or anyone here finds that offensive or threatening then ignore me..im not here to create fights, just looking for help

Elinox Wrote:Maybe with a bit more info and clarification someone here can offer other suggestions.

if you want to offer suggestions in a genuine manner then i welcome them....if you want to take the piss out of me or bully me then kindly leave me alone - i have enough pain thank you

Firstly; Fixed your quotes.
Adding bolded text "into" a quote from someone else is a sure-fired to get your replies missed.

Vibes Wrote:

Elinox Wrote:Your post raises several questions for me. First, what exactly is your problem? You see "things"? Have you ever tried just telling/asking them to leave you alone and go away?

my problem is raking these boards and trying to find someone who says "hey, yeh i hear ya! lets talk"....the rest of the aggro and superiority is irrelevant to me...as long as i put myself out there and find someone who gets what im saying and communicates..everyone has their own agenda, im just not the one being aggro about it

See, that right there is snark, attitude, and agression.
It's rude.
You mentioned having problems, it's obvious to as for clarification on that.

Vibes Wrote:

Elinox Wrote:

Vibes Wrote:something i know that doesnt want to be revealed...

Doesn't help us know a whole lot about what problems you're having. <!-- s:? --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_confused.gif" alt=":?" title="Confused" /><!-- s:? -->

yeh hi, how are you?....in other words...why would i be open to you when you have basically jumped in here giving me the "you better prove yourself to me"....i would love to think that i could learn off you, but in all honesty all i see is the start of bully boy tactics and i dont rise to that

You mentioned the problem.
If you don't want to talk about something, why mention it?

These are not bully tactics or call for proof, these are "You have a problem? Okay, what is it?"

(also, you were not asked to prove yourself in the other thread, you were told, point blank, NOT to present your personal beliefs as facts that apply to anyone but you unless you do so. The problem being "applying your personal beliefs to others as if they were facts", not "prove it".)

Vibes Wrote:

Elinox Wrote:

Vibes Wrote:things are getting a bit hairy for my safety...

If you feel you are in physical danger, call the police.

When you say you "disappear" what exactly do you mean? And where do you go?

yeh im sure by you saying call the police you are being funny....im glad you had a laugh at your wit there....when i say i disappear, well, your not exactly creating a feeling of mutual respect - im not here to prove to anyone how valid i am...im here to learn, you dont want to be open to that then kindly leave me alone and go find someone who is maybe a bit more pandering to your big boy style

1. You haven't given any information on your problem to suggest that the police are a bad idea.
2. You realize you're directly insulting an administrator?

Vibes Wrote:the main reason that i am posting here is because im looking for someone with the same power as i have...the difference is, i cant control it...i need to find someone who can - thats all im doing...if you or anyone here finds that offensive or threatening then ignore me..im not here to create fights, just looking for help

Like Elinox said;

Elinox Wrote:Maybe with a bit more info and clarification someone here can offer other suggestions.

Some basic info would be; What gift is it?

Vibes Wrote:if you want to offer suggestions in a genuine manner then i welcome them....if you want to take the piss out of me or bully me then kindly leave me alone - i have enough pain thank you

Everyone has an equal right to post in threads as long as they don't break the site rules. This applies no matter who starts the threads.
Discussions you start are not yours to set rules in.

Allow me to clarify, I was in no way trying to undermine your experiences or mock you. I was merely asking questions since your post, in addition to being grammatically all over the place, was hard for me to understand. I was trying to gain a better understanding of where you're coming from by asking my questions. The fact that you have refused to answer such simple things as "what is your problem?" which you keep alluding to but refuse to give any details on, will not let any of us actually try to help you.

That being said, if you don't drop your attitude problem you will be officially warned.