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About as "dark" as a nuclear warhead...
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About as "dark" as a nuclear warhead...
Hey, so...I'm not entirely sure what's going to come out of me, at the moment...please bear with me.

I'm also not sure to what extent people check here, anymore. <!-- sWink --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- sWink --> But I wanted to write about this, and I'm fairly certain that posting it to one of my WordPress blogs is not a great idea (one is only allowed one WordPress identity, and mine is already connected with mental illness and gender fluidity, not to mention school things). I mean, sure, people say that Tumblr is a good place to find otherkin who are willing to speak about being otherkin, and it is supposedly anonymous (until someone gets upset), but...drama. I have the same wariness toward it as I do OkCupid. I think the whole thing about youth and immature mental processes is likely at issue, here...

I don't have a lot of time to write, tonight...but I'm feeling the otherkin/demonic stuff coming up again. It is likely connected to my not having done art in quite a while (though it can't be longer than about three weeks, at this point). To be honest, a lot of distancing myself from an otherkin label is due to pressures of adult society (I have to become and remain employed to survive, and I already am marginalized several ways)...though I am lucky that my chosen field very much honors intellectual freedom. It's just another one of these things making me different from the norm in a way that people in general would not understand. Hell, I don't understand it.

So...yeah. I've just reached the point where most of my Internet exchanges are cool...I remember when it wasn't like this, though, and I was having to deal with bullying and anxiety every time I turned on the computer. Seriously, I'm 34 now. I am nearing the point, I hear, where other peoples' opinions will soon stop having an impact on me...but I'm not entirely there, yet.

I think that not having read about Demonkin in a while (gah, we need a better term) is something that also allowed distance, though the whole gender fluidity, energy-embodiment-fluidity and psi stuff still seems to apply (though any "belief" about psi is up for question). I've been wanting to write some of this stuff out, honestly, but I get stopped by the specter of what I'll do if someone finds my notebook...and I'm talking about dark religion and all this. (Is it a religion if you're the only adherent?) Of course, too, there is the history with Satanism and whether that has to do at all with my IDing as Demonkin, other than giving some kind of marginally socially-acceptable form of being Dark (I use the term loosely; I may be about as dark as a nuclear warhead), in some way.

Heh -- I have to get up and be out of here early tomorrow, so I'll stop this here. Would be cool if I could shoot some posts back and forth with someone, though...
2016-06-22 6:08
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Re: About as "dark" as a nuclear warhead...
I'm still here! <!-- sWink --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_wink.gif" alt=";)" title="Wink" /><!-- sWink -->

And along with getting to an age where other people's opinions matter much less (usually by the time people hit 30), also comes the feelings of 'why do I even need the online 'kin communities anymore?'. Which is not to say that these places of discovery are bad, they're really really helpful...for newbies. But once you're concrete in your 'kin identity, or at least know the basics, the discussions tend to not be as interesting since you already know your own answers to the 'kin questions. It becomes less of an exploratory process and more just one of being.

I hit this about 5 years ago myself. Dunno why I'm still here really...

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2016-06-22 14:38
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It's still nice to be able to write in and know that what you post is going to be seen by someone going through something similar.

Gah, and I've been around since before it was OK to be Demonkin. Like when we were on e-lists and all that. Hehe. ^_-

Though I do miss being able to be around other left-wing demons...
2016-06-23 19:35
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