A strange conversation
(sorry for the spelling and grammar following. i'm sure it's full or mistakes)
I don't know much about coincidences. But only one day after joining the forum (and thus joining an otherkin community after more than a full year of spiritual inactivity), some of the strangest things happenned.
I was playing flash games on a site named kongregate. The site offer the members a chat room when people playing different games can discuss with each other.
That day, someone that i barely spoke to since i joined the site send me a private message saying 'i love you'. At first, i though it was a joke, so i just answered "sorry, angels can't love back in this plane" (my pseudo on the site is AngelAndariel, because i created this account during the period i was still unsure whether i was human or not. I apologize for the angelkins that could find that offensive). Then the person said "yeah i know, i'm not from this plane either".
After a few lines, i agreed to tack to that person over msn. It seemed to be serious, and i didn't want to simply ignore someone (did i mention i was bored, too ? <!-- s:oops: --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" title="Embarrassed" /><!-- s:oops: --> ).
The fact is that i didn't knew what i was getting into.
That person began with askeing "what is your name, angel of the sky". Since i am no angel, and respect the notion of angels too much to feel like using such a title while i'm human, i aswered back that i was no angel, but human.
I began explaining myself until the word otherkin popped-up in the conversation. That person knew what the word mean, so i was more or less sure i was speaking with an otherkin, and asked about it.
I turned out to be exact. Then things begin to be even more strange (even if meeting an otherkin out of nowhere is quite an event).
That person presented himself as a demonkin. During his presentation, i also heard a claim of telekinesis (or at least, being able to control computer in order to chat without resorting to a keyboard).
That person then said our meeting was natural, and here is the proof :
I am supposed to be an demonkin, named "andaria the 6th", sister of that person in another life.
Let be honest : it is NOT possible in my mind to think of this as 'truth'. No matter how hard i try, and no matter the sense i give to the word 'demon', i can't think myself as one.
That person then asked me a few questions as if i was more ofter angered than most people (i answered that not) and if i had put someone in trance someday (i answered that i entranced myself, but never other people).
I asked then this person about his self, as knowing more could have rung a bell. But i only had "no it won't work since humans have erased your memory". Then that person 'had to go', and i haven't heard of him since that moment (two days ago).
Now, i think i am in a dangerous situation, and can't shake the feeling that it's going to end real bad for someone. I have no idea of what to do...
First of all, i do have to consider the fact it could be the truth. As impossible as it may seems, and as nauseous as i can be about it, it can be true. But then how could i be sure when the classic means fail ? (nothing i can relate to, be it in body, mind or soul).
Then, if it's wrong, what i am supposed to do ? Let that person think he has finaly found his family back ? I'm not keen on assuming a role i don't believe in. Should i tell my truth ? That could broke a heart.
I've gone as far as considering the eventuality that person could also be a non-otherkin just messing with me (i checked, and i was the first to use terms such as otherkin and angelkin. Not demonkin, but i wouldn't have been hard to guess such a word exist). But i also know it probably is my mind giving me ways not to care about it, which is not something i want to do.
If anyone have been in the same situation, or can think of something, i would appreciate any advice...
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