A (hopefully) finished awakening
(If this doesn't belong here, please move it)
I'm going to start from the beginning of everything so people will understand better and so I can get it all written out and neatly organized (I had this written out before typing):
When I first learned of therianthropy and what it was, I thought, "Oh, cool-that fits me". I thought I was a wolf at first because it fit how I was feeling and most of the characteristics. This was before I knew about any other types of kin. It also fit because my spirit guide is a wolf and she had done a sort of "latch on" (for lack of a better word) because I was going through a rough spot and I was about to move.
I then began to feel tiger-like along with dragon (which has always been there). This "felt" so much better than the wolf and whenever I would meditate or soul-search, that's what would come up. It was the one thing I was certain of until Gabriel showed up. I didn't get nervous or anything upon realizing about him and just kind of stepped into the idea that I was part of a Multiple System.
Gabriel came with very few memories of his past life, outside of knowing he was a guardian celestial, his death, and a memory of an old lover. He was a happy-go-lucky person and seemed 100% different than me. However, as time slowly moved on I began to doubt my tiger side; and Gabriel and I seemed to be becoming the same person.
This was confusing and I took a mini-break, but I got so confused and lost that I needed someone to talk to. I talked to four different people with four different answers. Each was a good answer, but two struck a chord with me. One I had even been toying with: that Gabriel was a sort of aspect of me, a past life.
The only issue I had with this because Gabriel had his own memories and thoughts so I moved onto another idea: try "living" as Gabriel as if he was a personality shift. I did that and it feels so right to be doing so. My energy has stopped fluctuating and I no longer feel as if I'm about to break.
I still have those memories of his. I feel I can say that I know how me and him split. I think it was due to the fact I died as a child. I can safely say that me and him have "merged" once more because I am starting to get over my incident and starting to handle things better.
Now, on to my kin-type:
I carry the aspects of my past lives with me, but I can safely say I'm an angel--though I do have a dragon form among others. People may not feel that what I'm next about to say is a valid reason, but it's one of the main parts as to why I feel this: I prayed and got an "answer". I prayed for help and understanding in what I am and for direction. It had been years since I had prayed sincerely. The "answer" was a feeling of warmth and content and the word "angel". I feel tons better since this and it explains my vampire-like tendencies and my tendency to "adopt" people based off of how old they feel--I may not know that person very well or maybe not at all, but if I get a "whiff" of their energy and they feel young, I'll feel protective. Does it necessarily have to do with the kin-type? Not really, but it corresponds nicely.
I don't know who I served and I don't really want to know. All I know was, was that I was a guardian angel first and foremost, but I would also do any other "jobs" that were "assigned" to me.
Well...that's all, I guess. I don't really know how to continue on. If you have any questions, feel free to ask them! (I have probably forgotten to put stuff so questions always help, lol).
Members: Gabriel, Lestat, Nico, Fenrir, and Nathaniel.