I decided to write up an article on balancers. If any of you can think of something else I should include, let me know. This is basically a third draft, so input is great.
EDIT: The article you're about to read is personal belief and understanding. This may or may not be something you yourself believe, it is me sharing my beliefs which result from years of personal exploration. I don't expect you to agree, but I do expect civility, maturity, and respect for my beliefs.
Balancers are beings whose task it is to maintain as much of a balance as possible between order and chaos across all planes/realms/etc. in the multiverse. We are described as everything and nothing and whatever we decide we are. I personally identify as a celestial, but that doesn't mean we all do, and we tend to be polymorphic. My theory on our forms is that we have one dominant form for each element including light and dark/shadow. Our forms are mainly used to appear to other beings in a physical sense to influence them one way or another. While we are all polymorphic energy beings, the core “type” we identify with may or may not be the same. How we appear to the physical planes is by condensing our energy to appear physical, while in actuality we are not.
Balance was most often achieved by directly going to a plane/realm/etc., and appearing to choice individuals to thereby influence them in the hope that they would eventually come to produce a desired result. It’s kind of like how people here on earth might see an angel or the Virgin Mary and then become a “holy person,” lending guidance to others, leading them toward order. On the other hand, they might see a “satanic” apparition and lead people toward chaos.
So what do I mean by balance? Balance is not a state of half order half chaos. It is not static, but fluid. Balance is forever shifting and changing. The aim is for neither order nor chaos to become so dominant that it threatens to take over. There must be a good amount of both in order for something to be balanced. There is chaos in order and order in chaos and too much of one is never a good thing. If one were to take over, the plane/realm/etc. would implode and existence would cease to exist. The preservation of existence is our purpose.
We have an innate knowledge of what balance is, so the best answer I can give to “how do you know what needs doing” is that we are linked directly to the universal consciousness and thus know what is in balance and what is not. We are servants of the universe, not of a deity or some more specific being, but the All/Source/Universe Itself. We also aren’t given exact instructions, but instead are directed as to what is out of balance. How we deal with it is up to us.
In the way of influencing individuals, advice was all it took for some people, an apparition was all it took for others, and, for some, direct contact (sometimes even destruction of the individual) was necessary. It was not about getting beings to “worship” anything or anyone, just to influence certain individuals enough to then promote order or disorder…whichever was needed at the time. I don’t mean to say that balance was maintained in every plane/realm/etc. we visited. It wasn’t. The goal is not to maintain balance in every single place in the multiverse, but to maintain some kind of equilibrium in the multiverse as a whole. If one realm is total chaos, there is another that is total order to balance it out.
So how do we go about direct contact. We will take a form that we find more relatable, fearsome, etc. whatever suits our needs. We will then appear to the individual in that form and enter conversation if necessary. In more extreme cases, direct possession was required (though this course was avoided as much as possible to preserve free will) and in the most dire situations, the death of an individual may have been called for.
I’m not sure how many of us exist…though 13 strikes me as the correct number. We were created at the beginning of “Time”…once energy became ordered enough to form the universe, life, souls. We also don’t have the same forms, other than winged humanoid (we all have a form like that). We tend to call the Silver City “home,” spending most of our time there in a state of condensed energy, usually to a winged humanoid form. The City is a realm much like earth in its lush, more jungle-like stage. There are trees, waterfalls, dense growth, the City itself sitting atop the largest waterfall with the river running through it. However, it is not a physical place but one of highly condensed energy. It is basically as physical as energy gets without being truly physical like the keyboard I’m tying on. Otherwise, we were rather formless, existing where we desired in what form we desired (or no form at all).
We also do not work alone. While there are only so many Balancers proper, there are individuals across all planes who we work with. Our ambassadors so to speak. Maintaining universal balance is not such an easy task even for versatile beings such as we are. We do have help. That is why you will probably come across individuals in the otherkin community identifying as physical beings who do our work. They are not balancers, but may very well be (and probably are) linked to us.
We were forbidden to love, for love destroys neutrality. Thus, we were betrothed to other beings, not necessarily other balancers. What I mean by love is that all encompassing feeling that someone is your “other half”. The kind of love where you put everything else’s welfare below that one individual. To feel that kind of love is, for a Balancer, counterproductive to our roles. Therefore, all measures are taken to avoid it. We also did not often use a spoken language, but instead were telepathically linked. We could shut the other Balancers out, even to some degree shut out the Source Itself. For communication, however, we could send our thoughts to each other rendering spoken communication irrelevant. We were capable of it however, and it is more of a sing-song energy vibration type of language, definitely not remotely reproducible by human vocal cords. We had no tools, no clothing, no food. As energetic beings we can appear how we want, where we want, wearing what we want, etc. There is no need for the same things that physical beings require.
I have never met another incarnated Balancer, but we do incarnate as our job takes a toll We have free will, but our job (what we were created for) does not allow for the same freedoms as most other beings in the multiverse enjoy. Thus, we do get to take the occasional vacation, mostly when one of us clearly burns out. For me that was finding that one individual who is my “other half” and falling in love…yes, that kind of love that compromises neutrality. A Balancer who “snaps” is not a pretty sight.
What about free will you might ask. Look at it this way: Balancer is not only a job title, it is what we are. What we were created for. A human example would be if one was born a lawyer. It would not only be a job title, but a personal descriptor. Lawyer would be what you are as well as what you do. Can we request to change jobs? Yes. Could we request to be “recycled,” to be created as something new? Yes. Would we? Probably not. Balancer is what we are, what we were made for. Doing what we do is not only all we know, but fulfilling one’s purpose gives an individual deep satisfaction and joy. So what I’m really trying to say is we want to do it and in a way have a need to as well. We are not slaves, servants, etc. We are more than willing.
So what kind of “power” does it take to do our job? Well, I describe us as such: look at the multiverse as an infinitely faced diamond. Each facet is a realm/plane. The carbon bonds are the Source/All/etc., the bonds are what make a diamond a diamond. Balancers tend to the molecules of the diamond so it remains a diamond and does not fall apart. We are powerful, I won’t try to play that down. We are more powerful than every other being in the multiverse save the Source/All/etc. We have to be. We require the ability to terminate any being in existence if it is called for, so we must contain vast sources of energy that rival every being save our Creator.
All of this being said, I am aware that it is through a human lens and thus tainted by my experiences, biology, understandings, basically by being human. Something non-physical mimicking the physical is not the same. The City is not atop a waterfall as we humans know them, but the energetic equivalent. If a human being viewed both, they would notice no difference; however, they are not the same. And it is with this understanding that I will say how I am personality and odd quirks wise. I do believe that one’s behaviors and physical things are a product of being human. However, I am also human and Balancer 24 hours a day, every day. I do notice shifts in how human I am, mental shifts to a more Balancer type mindset.
I have constant physical strain on my back from phantom limbs and do experience phantom shifts to my preferred forms (I often call them aspects or morphs). I have a very quick temper and do occasionally experience rage blackouts if I’m pushed over the edge so to speak. I am sometimes quite over sure of myself and sometimes do come off as arrogant, especially when I’m in a much more Balancer dominated mindset. I have been known to put out a definite air of “I am right and you know it”. I lose body heat primarily through my feet, while most humans lose it primarily through their head. I took a breath underwater once, and am far too chicken to try it and see if I can really do it or if it was some kind of miracle that one time I ran out of air 30 feet down and couldn’t find my regulator. I am a generator, meaning that I naturally produce much more energy than I need to sustain my physical constitution. As such my aura/energy field extends quite far if I do not consciously reign it in. I have so much energy at my disposal that I have never been bothered by anyone.
I also have binds/wards on me to keep my incarnate. My energy is so vast, being a Balancer and all, that it far exceeds that of a physical being’s soul. As such, binds/wards are required to limit it so that my energy doesn’t overload this form and effectively kill it. It would definitely not destroy the world if I could destroy my binds, but it would destroy this body. I cannot remove them, and they limit my abilities quite a bit. I cannot contact “home” and cannot access the astral. I figure that is probably due to the fact that I am incarnated for a vacation…and the definition of vacation from being a Balancer would include no knowing what needs doing or contacting anyone affiliated with us or one of us.
So here ends my article on what Balancers are. I call us complicated polymorphic energy thingies, and I think it’s a pretty apt description.
"All that is gold does not glitter, not all those who wander are lost."-Tolkien
"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."-Poe